when i have a crush i dont kick my feet or twirl my hair instead i am in my kitchen at 3am pacing in circles with my hands clasped behind my back like a middle-aged divorced detective haunted by a cold case he just cant crack
“There’s a difference between really loving someone and loving the idea of [them].”
— Gillian Flynn, Gone Girl
Source: thelovejournals
Shout out to queer people who didn’t “always know”, who didn’t show any of the “signs” of being whatever their queer orientation is. People who totally fit their assigned gender roles as children, who nobody least of all themselves expected to be queer. To queer people who feel like they aren’t completely valid because of this. Y'all are valid and y'alls experience as a queer person is just as valid and complete and entirely queer as someone whos known their whole life. Y'all perfect.
I took this photo through my cars windshield in the rain and thought it was really cute until I noticed Death walking towards me and now im just scared
i have troubles with commitment... i get scared and i run... i run as fast as i can and as far as i can... and i never come back... never
an idea of love
Im in love with an idea. Im in love with a perfect idea. Its weird how I wanted to kiss someone, be with someone… love someone… until I did it… I kissed someone… I didnt like it… I was with someone… I hated it… Now I dont want to experience love because Im afraid of losing my perfect idea of that too… I kind of already have… Maybe my someone was just one of the wrong ones… or maybe I am the wrong someone… I still dream… dream of the things… things that used to be perfect in my head… even when I know now that they never were… But in my dreams they still are… So even after I know the truth, Im still in love with an idea… Still in love with my perfect idea…
I am so tired... so fucking tired... physically, mentally, every way possible... I just cant do this anymore... the saddest thing is that I turned 17 yesterday... Im so tired... so tired... please just take the pain away... please... take it away