It's one of those days where I feel lost and tired and hopeless and weak and frustrated. I don't know what I want. I don't know what I want to be. I want to be happy but I'm not even sure what makes me happy. I want to just BE in the moment, but at the same time I feel im wasting time. I want to be just the way I am yet I feel I should be doing more for myself. I want to just chill but I feel restless. I don't know why. I don't know how. I want to feel fulfilled but I feel empty. I did have some laughs today but I feel like I want more. I feel like I want to do more but I am lazy. I'm so conflicted. I'm so exhausted of my own thoughts.

I'm The Lucky One. #lucky #appreciate #trust #feel #me #never #thisway #thislong #you #love #lovequotes #relationship #real #realshit #realrelationship #words #wordsoflove #relationshipgoals #feels #heart #soul #heartsohard

I Meant It. #i #meant #it #everything #have #ever #said #soinlove #so #inlove #heart #soul #heartandsoul #person #all #exact #same #way #reading #felt #words #coursed #mouth #fingertips #didntworkout #ended #started #forme #truly #moments #inside #burst #loved #iknow #dare #again #againandagain #mean #every #time #everytime #love #theway #saying #to #me #poetry #instapoem #wordsoflove #real #realshit #feels #relationship #heartsohard

I Meant It. Everything I have ever said, while I was so in love, I meant it. With all my heart and soul, of the person I was when I said it, I meant it all. How do I know this? I feel the exact same way reading them now as I felt when those words coursed out of my mouth or through my finger tips. How dare I say this when what we had didn't work out? When I myself ended what I started? I realize, what I said was not meant for the receiver. What I said was actually for me. To express how I truly felt in those moments because to keep them inside me might have caused me to burst. I loved being in love. I loved how it felt. This I know. This I dare say. And I know I would say the same words again and again. And yet I'd still mean them every time when I say them. Because I love the way it feels saying them. Because I love how I meant it and what it meant to me when they were said. -heartsohard, 8th November 2016. #i #meant #it #everything #have #ever #said #soinlove #so #inlove #all #my #heart #soul #myheart #mysoul #person #feel #feelthesameway #reading #words #fingertips #didntworkout #ended #started #forme #truly #moments #caused #burst #loved #being #inlove #dare #say #same #samewords #again #againandagain #mean #everytime #because #feels #imeantit #whatitmeant #tome #poetry #wordsoflove #real #realrelationship #realshit #relationship #lovequotes #instapoem #heartsohard

I Found You. #i #found #you #asyouare #beautiful #wonderful #amazing #untainted #loved #hurt #taken #giveback #feel #pain #loving #sohard #losing #somuch #never #lonely #words #wordsoflove #real #realrelationship #reallove #feels #love #romance #realshit #relationshipgoals #relationship #whileitlasts #heart #soul #heartsohard

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