want someone to love me the way i love the moon
“I do not like who I am. There is nothing good about me anymore. I am sick of wasting my time. I am worn out, I am really tired.”
— there is no point of me being here if I am not doing anything useful
“I could be doing “fine” but as soon as a small inconvenience happens, I am right back at the suicidal tendencies because I realise how much life sucks and how useless I am.”
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Depression isn’t always sadness
It’s also feeling numb at 3am but smiling and laughing with friends at 3pm
It’s also not being able to get out of bed even though you were fine the day before
It’s also not eating because you aren’t hungry or can’t be bothered, but also over eating because you’re bored and feel empty
It’s also loving too hard or not at all
Depression isn’t a constant feeling of sadness, depression can be hidden in happiness.
Your depression is valid even if people say it’s not just because you smile
I don’t want to be depressed. I don’t want to keep on falling so much that I take a razor to my skin, but it’s so hard to push forward when there’s nothing to make me keep on pushing. why can’t you understand that it isn’t so easy to climb out of this hole?
“I am used to be alone. However, it weighs heavy sometimes.”
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