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Perfectly Imperfect

@itsvictoriaoneill-blog

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When he says he doesn’t love you anymore, roll your shoulders back and look him in the eye even when it feels like your ribs are breaking inward; like spider legs. When he digs up old aches that he swore he forgave you for, smile and ask him why he didn’t leave you sooner. Ignore the way the words feel like sandpaper running all the way up your throat to your mouth. When he blames you for mistakes that wear his face, do not scream. Do not cry. Tell him that there are boys who would be proud to say they’d love you. Tell him that in two years you won’t even remember his name and don’t let him see the way you can taste your own lie. When he leaves, ignore the howling in your blood and do not get up after him. Not even to lock the door. Do not, do not, DO NOT. Smell his shirts when you box them up to give them back. Not one. Swear off dating when you realize you’re chasing ghosts that wear his smile. It’s okay to cry over him. It’s even okay to forgive him. But do not go back to him if he did not know how to love you the first time. He won’t know how to do it the next.

How to Pretend It Doesn’t Hurt, by Ashe Vernon (via 1811181)

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I always write about his eyes. But trust me if you saw his eyes for yourself you’d understand why. If you saw how they light up when he’s happy, how the sunset looks reflected in them, how the morning sun creeping in through my window gives them gold specks, how they remind you of the ocean or the summer sky, how no matter how hard you try you can’t help but fall in love with them… if you saw this for yourself you’d understand.

April 19 - excerpt about his eyes (via savannahhmitchell)

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They say that the fireworks on New Year are supposed to banish evil spirits and demons from the past year. So I wrote down your name on a piece of paper and put it with some firecrackers to banish you out of my life.

G.D // spilled ink (via basicxxshit)

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You don't care, you never did

You never cared about me. If you did, you would have called. You would have driven to my house. You would have found me. You would have tried. But you didn’t. You never loved me. You just loved that I was so in love with you.

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You absolutely destroyed me, did you know that? But you know what, I just wanna say thank you. I don’t regret meeting you, but I don’t wish you would magically come back into my life again because I believe God gives us someone like this for a reason. Someone who will hurt you a million times, someone who will leave you & not look back. But this person, they will make you a better person in the end. You will come out stronger than ever before and you will be happier without him than you were with him.