Avatar

ana martinez

@itssanaaaa-blog

Twitter & Snapchat : @imnotanaaa.
Avatar
larents

my lil sister just randomly got this gift from zayn??????? it’s a canvas of her art from instagram (@flamin.gos) with a cute lil note,, we’re literally so??????? he’s such an amazing and loving person, so appreciative, he’s the best.

reblogged
On one particular track, however, Lucozade, Zayn appears to be too intoxicated (or angry) to put the brakes on and unleashes four minutes of pure fury, confusion, pain and vulnerability until the track abruptly cuts off mid sentence, as if he suddenly realised he was still recording. The insight is fascinating, though. The discomfort as the song just keeps pouring out of him is palpable and you’re left wanting more when it screeches to a halt. Mind Of Mine keeps things vague, alludes to situations but spells nothing out, uses metaphors to refer to 3 different things at once and blurs all sorts of lines, so the stark honesty of Lucozade stands out.

Read more at: https://tr.im/19ZUx (via invinciblelarki)

reblogged
Avatar
sskeptical
you washed your hands with the lies you fed me and wiped me clean like a sin while i was on my knees begging for forgiveness

an entry i found in my journal dated 2 years ago from today (via sskeptical)

reblogged

CARNELIAN // VIRGO

The gemstone Carnelian was used by both the Romans and Ancient Egyptians but in two very different ways. The Romans believed that Carnelian would draw up great courage and strength within the wearer, whereas the Ancient Egyptians believed that it had the power to ensure that their deceased reached the afterlife safely and would not be trapped between worlds. It is used in the modern day to protect against misfortune, aid digestion and to increase confidence.

reblogged
I don’t get much feedback from my peers. I spoke a bit to Taylor,” he says, invoking the name of the imperial Swift. “At Gigi’s house we briefly spoke and she told me she really enjoyed the album. It was nice to get some feedback. She said she thought I was cool and I kind of blushed a bit and didn’t know how to take it.

Zayn to Dazed Magazine (via zintersoldier)

reblogged

The signs as The 1975 lyrics

Aries: Uh, oh, you bite your friends like chocolate. And you said, “We go where nobody knows, we got guns hidden under our petticoats. No, we’re never gonna quit it, no, we’re never gonna quit it, no.” // Chocolate

Taurus: And I’ve been thinking lots about your mouth. A conversation superseded by the way he talks. I’d be an anchor but I’m scared you’d drown. It’s safer on the ground. // Talk!

Gemini: She said “It’s not about your body it’s just social implications are Brought upon by this party that we’re sitting in" And “I’d like to say you’ve changed but you’re always the same. I’ve got a feeling that the marijuana’s rotting your brain" She’s got two-tone everything - way too intelligent // She Way Out

Cancer: You’ve seen so many faces that I’ve never seen before. I left an unrewarding message telling you to come on over dramatic, automatically assume I’ll stay the same. There’s a change in pressure. We’re never gonna lie to you. My broken veins say that if my heart stops beating. We’ll bleed the same way. // Pressure

Leo: She had a face straight outta magazine. God only knows but you’ll never leave her. Her balaclava is starting to chafe. And when she gets his gun he’s begging, “Babe, stay, stay, stay, stay, stay.” // Robbers

Virgo: The skin that you’re in is all soft now. And your bones are dry as ice. What you sitting round here for and why is that. Cos everybody’s pushing out babies now. In the mornings I was getting high with you. Well I thought I’d see you around but you’re dead now. // Intro / Set 3

Libra: Don’t call it a fight when you know it’s a war. With nothing but your t-shirt on. And go sit on the bed because I know that you want to. You’ve got pretty eyes, but I know you’re wrong. // The City

Scorpio: You’re alive, at least as far as I can tell you are. And so am I, you beat me down and then we’re back to my car. And it’s so ironic how it’s only been a year. And it’s not my fault that I fucked everybody here. // You

Sagittarius: And why stay if you hate it so much? You think you’re well cool. You just write about sex and killing yourself and how you hardly ever went to school. // So Far (It’s Alright)

Capricorn: A pair of frozen hands to hold. Oh she’s so southern so she feels the cold. One moment I was tearing off your blouse, now you’re living in my house. What happened to just messing around? // Girls

Aquarius: She said, “It’s nice to have your friends round we’re watching the television with no sound" It’s just you and I tonight. Why don’t you figure my heart out? // Heart Out

Pisces: A small town. Dictating all the people we get around What a familiar face. Do you get what I mean now? I’m so fixated on the girl with the soft sound. And hair all over the place. // Settle Down

reblogged

The Signs as ‘Girl, Interrupted’ quotes

Aries: “In a strange way we were free. We’d reached the end of the line. We had nothing more to lose.”

Taurus: “Every window in Alcatraz has a view of San Francisco.”

Gemini: “Smile and the world smiles with you, cry and you cry alone.”

Cancer: “I was trying to explain my situation to myself. My situation was that I was in pain and nobody knew it, even I had trouble knowing it. So I told myself, over and over, You are in pain. It was the only way I could get through to myself. I was demonstrating externally and irrefutably an inward condition.”

Leo: “She rushed out, because the darkness in the theater was too much when combined with the darkness in her head.”

Virgo: “Did the hospital specialize in poets and singers, or was it that poets and singers specialized in madness?”

Libra: “Once you’ve posed that question, it won’t go away. I think many people kill themselves simply to stop the debate about whether they will or they won’t.”

Scorpio: “Maybe, there’s a moment growing up when something peels back… Maybe, maybe, we look for secrets because we can’t believe our mind.”

Sagittarius: “But when they were done, I wondered if there would be a next time. I felt good. I wasn’t dead, yet something was dead. Perhaps I’d managed my peculiar objective of partial suicide. I was lighter, airier than I’d been in years.”

Capricorn: “I told her once I wasn’t good at anything. She told me survival is a talent.”

Aquarius: “When I was supposed to be awake, I was asleep. When I was supposed to sleep, I was silent. When a pleasure offered itself to me, I avoided it.”

Pisces: “Crazy isn’t being broken or swallowing a dark secret. It’s you or me amplified. If you ever told a lie and enjoyed it. If you ever wished you could be a child forever.” 

reblogged

The signs as Twenty-One Pilots lyrics

Aries:

// Kitchen Sink //

Nobody thinks what you think, no one Empathy might be on the brink of extinction They will play a game and say They know what you’re going through And I tried to come up with an artistic way to say They don’t know you, and neither do I So here’s a prime example of a stand up guy Who hates what he believes and loves it at the same time.

// The Judge //

You’re the judge, oh no, set me free, You’re the judge, oh no, set me free, I know my soul’s freezing,

Hell’s hot for good reason, so please,

I don’t know if this song is a surrender or a revel,

I don’t know if this one is about me or the devil.

Taurus:

// The Run And Go //

Don’t wanna call you in the nighttime Don’t wanna give you all my pieces Don’t wanna hand you all my trouble Don’t wanna give you all my demons You’ll have to watch me struggle From several rooms away But tonight I’ll need you to stay.

// Not Today //

I don’t know why, I just feel I’m better off, Staying in the same room I was born in, I look outside, and see a whole world better off, Without me in it trying to transform it,You are out of my mind, you aren’t seeing my side, You waste all this time trying to get to me,

But you are out of my mind.

Gemini:

// Fake You Out //

I, I’ll never be, be what you see inside You say I’m not alone, but I am petrified You say that you are close, is close the closest star? You just feel twice as far, you just feel twice as far.

// Polarize //

Help me polarize, help me polarize, Help me down, Those stairs is where I’ll be hiding all my problems, Help me polarize, help me polarize, Help me out, My friends and I, we’ve got a lot of problems.

Polarize is taking your disguises, Separating them, splitting them up from wrong and right, It’s deciding where to die and deciding where to fight, Deny, deny, denial.

Cancer:

// Trees //

I can feel your breath. I can feel my death. I want to know you. I want to see. I want to say hello.

// Tear In My Heart //

You fell asleep in my car, I drove the whole time, But that’s ok, I’ll just avoid the holes so you sleep fine, I’m driving here I sit, cursing my government, For not using my taxes to fill holes with more cement.

Sometimes you’ve got to bleed to know, That you’re alive and have a soul, But it takes someone to come around to show you how.

Leo:

// Screen //

I do not know why I would go In front of you and hide my soul Cause you’re the only one who knows it, Yeah you’re the only one who knows it

And I will hide behind my pride Don’t know why I think I can lie Cause there’s a screen on my chest Yeah there’s a screen on my chest.

// Lane Boy //

But I know a thing or two about pain and darkness If it wasn’t for this music, I don’t know how I would’ve fought this Regardless, all these songs I’m hearing are so heartless Don’t trust a perfect person and don’t trust a song that’s flawless.

Virgo:

// Car Radio //

Sometimes quiet is violent I find it hard to hide it My pride is no longer inside It’s on my sleeve My skin will scream Reminding me of Who I killed inside my dream I hate this car that I’m driving There’s no hiding for me I’m forced to deal with what I feel There is no distraction to mask what is real I could pull the steering wheel.

// We Don’t Believe What’s On T.V. //

We don’t believe what’s on TV, Because it’s what we want to see, And what we want, we know we can’t believe, We have all learned to kill our dreams.

Libra:

// Glowing Eyes //

We all are stranger creatures than when we all started out as kids, Culture forbids, We have romantic fantasies about what dying truly is, Fall off the grid.

// Doubt //

Scared of my own image, scared of my own immaturity, Scared of my own ceiling, scared I’ll die of uncertainty, Fear might be the death of me, fear leads to anxiety, Don’t know what’s inside of me.

Scorpio:

// Migraine //

Something you won’t forget, it’s all about my forehead, And how it is a door that holds back contents, That make Pandora’s Box’s contents look non-violent, Behind my eyelids are islands of violence, My mind’s ship-wrecked, this is the only land my mind could, Find, I did not know it was such a violent island, Full of tidal waves, suicidal crazed lions, They’re trying to eat me, blood running down their chin, And I know that I can fight or I can let the lion win, I begin to assemble what weapons I can find, ‘Cause sometimes to stay alive you gotta kill your mind.

// Fairly Local //

I’m not evil to the core What I shouldn’t do I will fight I know I’m emotional What I wanna save I will try I know who I truly am I truly do have a chance Tomorrow I’ll switch the beat To avoid yesterday’s dance.

Sagittarius:

// Lovely //

I’ll pray that one day you see The only difference between life and dying Is one is trying, that’s all we’re going to do So try to love me and I’ll try to save you.

Won’t you stay alive I’ll take you on a ride I will make you believe you are lovely.

// Ride //

I just wanna stay in the sun where I find I know it’s hard sometimes Pieces of peace in the sun’s peace of mind I know it’s hard sometimes Yeah, I think about the end just way too much But it’s fun to fantasize On my enemies I wouldn’t wish who I was But it’s fun to fantasize

Oh, oh, I’m falling, so I’m taking my time on my ride.

Capricorn:

// House Of Gold //

I will make you queen of everything you see, I’ll put you on the map, I’ll cure you of disease.

Let’s say we up and left this town, And turned our future upside down. We’ll make pretend that you and me, Lived ever after happily.

// Stressed Out //

Wish we could turn back time, to the good ol’ days, When our momma sang us to sleep but now we’re stressed out.

We used to play pretend, give each other different names, We would build a rocket ship and then we’d fly it far away, Used to dream of outer space but now they’re laughing at our face, Saying, “Wake up, you need to make money.”

Aquarius:

// Forest //

I don’t know why I feed on emotion There’s a stomach inside my brain I don’t wanna be heard I want to be listened to Does it bother anyone else That someone else has your name?

// Message Man //

A loser hides behind a mask of my disguise, And who I am today is worse than other times, You don’t know what I’ve done, I’m wanted and on the run. I’m wanted and on the run. So I’m taking this moment to live in the future, Release me from the present, I’m obsessing all these questions, Why I’m in denial that they tried the suicidal session, Please use discretion when you’re messing with the message man, These lyrics aren’t for everyone, only few understand.

Pisces: 

// Holding On To You //

You are surrounding all my surroundings, Sounding down the mountain range of my left-side brain, You are surrounding all my surroundings, Twisting the kaleidoscope behind both of my eyes.

// Goner //

I’m a goner, somebody catch my breath, I’m a goner, somebody catch my breath, I want to be known by you, I want to be known by you.Though I’m weak and beaten down, I’ll slip away into this sound, The ghost of you is close to me, I’m inside-out, you’re underneath.

reblogged
Avatar
sskeptical
Anonymous asked:

I know your going through a rough patch right now, I just want to remind you are the same lovely person regardless of what has happened to you. The negative storms are temporary. You have taught me so much about art and self expression which I don't get from anyone where I live. You've opened apart of me that was begging to be opened. You've helped so many people. You are art in the most magnificent way. Anyone would be lucky to speak to you.. Continue taking care of your self.. You deserve it.

you are too good to me. i cant believe this. thank you so much

Avatar
reblogged
Anonymous asked:

I know so much about that family that'd make people vomit. Its horrendous. N this baby situation is shady as hell. Even if there is a baby, the circumstances of his conception are just too weird. Every single thing was planned in advance. I know something is completely off. N i don't wanna investigate coz i fear that i'd change my opinion of Louis.

… It’s 2am, I’m eating lasagna from the pan and the only thing I’m interesting in investigating is how many members of one direction did Liam actually bone. I’m feeling like it’s all of them.

Avatar