Update. 5/19/19

A woman by the name of Jasline has entered my life, and has fufilled the void of love in this marathon. Shes sweet, but not like some bag of basic white sugar you can find anywhere. She reminds me of something sweeter than that, something raw, in its purest form, brown sugar or maybe even sugar cane. Her intelect is fierce and unforgiving, sharper than what any blacksmith has to offer, but she is a defender none the less, she will not attack unless provoked. Her love is endless, and shes capable bringing us world peace. She's my Captain Marvel.

I was really in a dark space in my life. Low, stagnant, complacent, and I really was too rough on myself. My frequency was vibrating lower then whats beneath the sea bottom. I always kept my hopes up for a brighter day tho, Im not one to give up easily. Especially on myself when Im capable of so much. Its hard not being able to express the things Ive gone thru in full context due to my past trauma from previous relationships(not with justa significant other; Overall relations involving my parents/friends as well) . Ive been crutching on to these thoughts of never being good enough for anybody including myself. I labeled myself as lower than what I am, and thats where I made all the wrong steps by plummeting into my insecurties. Now, Im in this hole Ive dugout, and Im slowly but surely making my way out this shit.

I cant take too much time figuring things out though.

Get your shit together and get the show on the road.

I just wanna say thankyou Jasline for helping me break out of this toxic barrier I allowed myself to get consumed by. Thankyou for freeing me from my demons. Its time to beat they ass. I refuse to allow my emotions to recieve so much control over my well being, to where I start neglecting myself and my priorities. Never again. Thankyou for showing me I deserve better, and I appreciate you to infinity & beyond.

XOXOXOXO

-Black