Falling into the abyss
It’s been tough this whole year dealing with my severe anxiety and depression. I always told myself that I was strong, and that’s all I needed to be.
I’ve been seeing a doctor for the past 10 months, to help deal with my mental issues. It’s a process. A hard process trying to find the right meds, the right dose to put me back to my normal self. I felt weak, like I had no where else to turn and this was my last resort.
Looking back now, I still question whether I should’ve gone to this route because my mental state has gotten worse.
I have more anxiety attacks once or twice everyday. Panic attacks have become more frequent also, and much longer and intense.
Daily tasks that seemed so minimal before are just so hard to complete.
I find myself spacing out throughout the day and forgetting what I was doing at that moment, or just forgetting who I am and where I am.
Now I am constantly asking myself ‘How?’
How do I get out of this muck? How do I get back to normal? How can I live my life again instead of in fear?
