Best mistake

It's more than two years since i have met you. We had ups and downs, sometimes we would chat for hours, sometimes not even for weeks. I usually made you smile, loved your laugh, but i also made you cry, and i regret that. I would start over again, but i fear nothing would change. You never really loved me, we both know that. You were into other guys and i still tried to keep my heart close to you, listen to all your problems which were killing me inside. Doing my best to understand your feelings, trying to stay your best friend, to be someone you can really trust. But you never fully trusted me, have you? You knew i were in love with you.. i still am. And it hurts, more than ever. But not as much as if you would still talk to me.. It doesn't hurt that much. I feel better without you, but i miss you, your words, sound, smile, laugh.. I still feel the pain, always will, because you will always have a special place in my memory and in my heart. I want to be with you, but I guess we never meant to be...