i’ve gone too deep
Source: ihaveabigcock-pit
I realized you weren’t worth it anymore. You were hurting me way more than making me happy. I was a lonely late night option for you, while you were the only fucking boy I wanted. It wasn’t worth the pain of seeing you in the halls and saying nothing to each other, but talking to each other over a screen later that day. It finally hit me; I was nothing to you at all, I was only comfort to you because you knew I’d be the only girl to tell you “I love you endlessly.” after putting me through complete hell. I left first this time, instead of you making up some poor excuse to leave for another time. I lost count of how many times you left after four. For now, I’m locking that fucking door. Yes, I will have nights where I picture the last time you stood in that doorway and think about the time you looked me in the eyes and begged for my forgiveness and asked me to take you back, but you no longer deserve my attention. If you got a taste of all the pain and stress you’ve put me though, you’d call all your “heartache” a scrape on the knee, while my pain is more painful than breaking every god damn bone in your body. You were bruising every last inch of my heart and brain and I kept saying “I can’t give up on him.” You kept saying “I’m sorry, I promise this won’t happen again.” but “this” happened way too many times. After twelve fucking months of being addicted to you, I’ve decided to go cold turkey. This is why I’ve blocked you out of my life. Even though I can’t block you out of my thoughts, I made it impossible for you to hurt me any longer.
-(J.M.S)
'The world ends not with a bang but with a whimper'
A whimper
a cry in the silent night
a plea for help.
Not a bang not
the clang of a gong.
Not the ringing of the shot.
But a whimper.
Have you ever cried so hard you couldn’t breathe?
Every breath sounds like a whimper
your eyes fill with tears.
Your vision blurs
you’ll cry so hard
your heart crawls up your throat.
Your pulse will race and
the faster the tears fall
the faster your heart will beat.
Your body will shake with sobs
your knees give out and
you collapse.
Your breath that was once given for love
will be taken by it,
held captive.
And given back only an instant before
unconsciousness takes you.
For sleep will be your only escape and there is
no escape.
M.L.//Whimper (via 7-weeks)
Jenna is the most perfect human on this earth.
My first attempt at making gifs!
for awhile i used to just talk about my thoughts online as a way of expression and they were often really negative, mostly towards myself. i realized that me being so sad/negative didn’t give a positive influence on my followers and just made them feel negatively so i decided to not really be open...
We are stuck in this society that has all these expectations of what beauty is and we feel pressured to look a certain way and start to build this hatred for ourselves if we don’t meet those expectations. We have gotten to the point where we are not comfortable with the one thing we are stuck with…ourselves. This picture captures who I am and who I am often ashamed to show due to these standards of beauty we’ve been brainwashed to believe, but really we should be creating our own standards. Embracing who you are is a great start.
i hold myself back so much. i fear i’ll be forgotten and it’ll essentially be my fault.