Wow I haven't been on tumblr in a long time. Time to catch up on things.

11:42 PM

I really wish I could help my bf as much as he helps me.

11:38 PM

Trying to pull yourself back into sadness because you're afraid of having happiness and love taken away from you.

Social Anxiety is torture

I am really sick of going to school everyday. Literally sick. I threw up in the morning on the first day of school. I feel self conscious every single day because of school. I was fine all summer. But for some reason, people are laughing at me and whispering while looking at me and I don't know why? I confronted three boys when I said," hey! Do you guys have something to say to me?" . They were doing the same thing. Whispering and laughing. I dress pretty normal? I feel like I'm not even doing anything and these kids will not stop. I had to leave class today because I got so upset about this. Im sorry for the rant but Im a quiet girl with lots to say and I never say it so it's all coming out now, In conclusion, please do not do this to other people because I'm a mess and I would hate for anyone else to feel like I do. If anyone has this same problem and you are reading this, just know that you are not alone. I am living everyday in silence and sadness.

Shit. I get goosebumps because I get so upset and pissed off. I don't understand.

I feel like crap. Physically, mentally, every aspect.