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17 year old girl who’s mind is trying so hard to keep her heart alive
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High functioning anxiety

People who suffer from high functioning depression often suffer from high functioning anxiety as well. And our anxiety beats us up daily, as well.

1. We decline invites even though we were excited for these events.

We get invited to a party, or an event, etc. and we are super excited to go there. We plan our outfit we are gonna wear that day and think about it constantly. But as soon as the day comes, we get really anxious. We fear that event so much, we cancel last minute and stay home. Where it’s safe for us. And therefore we miss out on a lot of stuff.

2. Obsession

We obsess over the tiniest things. Might it be a word or a glance from somebody. These little things wander around in our minds for days and we keep constantly thinking about it. Don’t get me started when someone doesn’t text back for hours/days. We start asking ourselves what we could have possible done wrong and wish we didn’t text in the first place.

3. Irregular sleeping pattern

We fall asleep late and wake up early. If we even fall asleep, that is. Our anxiety kicks in, when we gotta get up in the morning in order to go to work etc. Sometimes we don’t trust our alarm clock, so our anxiety wakes us up really early so we won’t oversleep. Meaning we are exhausted the next day.

4. Thinking about the worst

We can’t enjoy the moment, because we are always thinking about the worst scenario. Something will go wrong.

5. Rethinking

We keep rethinking conversation and event that happened to us a while ago. And we keep imagine what we could have done differently.

6. When someone asks if you are ok.

That’s a trigger for us. Because if they notice then it must be worse than we thought. And we don’t necessarily want to talk about it. But we also don’t like to lie.

7. Fearing the future

The future terrifies us. We really like to know what will happen so we can be ready for it. Not knowing stresses us out. Plus, the present is already tough for us, how much tougher will it be?

8. Constant comparing

We constantly compare ourselves to people our age. What did they achieve? How happy are they? Why didn’t we achieve all that already?

9. Mistakes

We can’t do mistakes, because our anxiety will always bring it up again and tells us that we are sooo bad. It doesn’t tell us that making mistakes is a part of life, it’s just bad.

10. Mentally tired

We wake up early, but are mentally drained and can’t get up on some days. Sometimes we need more time to get up.

11. Meeting new people

It’s so difficult. We constantly wonder if they like us. And if they are not coming to us to have a conversation with us, we just stick to ourselves and leave them alone.

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I’m being driven fucking insane by the voices in my head. I want them to leave!!

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I don’t but this is so satisfying

1: u ok there friend?

2: satisfying

I feel the same way OP

Mood

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i’m seeing a lot of people reblogging suicide hotlines and this is just a reminder that this is a suicide help line that works like a text-based instant messenger for people who may need to talk to someone but have trouble/are uncomfortable making phone calls

Never don’t reblog this. There are so many people who have such bad anxiety about phone calls. This can save so many lives

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What if deja vu was actually the feeling you get when a bunch of different timelines of your being are doing the same thing?

For me, it’s just short snipets of life that have already happened in dreams.

I’m not even joking, I occasionally have small minor moments of future in my dreams.

If only they were more important moments…

Often I’m not sure which of my dreams will be real or not

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10 pieces of advice to give yourself at the age of 20
  1. At the age of 11, you learned that perfection does not always mean a flat tummy and a thigh gap. Go on and eat that second piece of cookie that you crave so much.
  2. At the age of 12, you learned that just because you call her “mom” and him as “dad,” it doesn’t mean they inherently know how to be that. Also, suicide poison is not the cure for everything, it’s not a cure at all.
  3. At the age of 13, you learned the difference between giving up and taking a rest. You might have given it your all but not make it. Remember to disregard everything that comes after but.
  4. At the age of 14, you learned that standing up for everyone else does not mean that all of them will stand up for you when you need someone. Not one of them would be the first one to defend you, that spot is reserved for your name.
  5. At the age of 15, you learned that people rarely mean what they say even if as a writer, you deem each and every word important. Learn to know the voices that speak sincerity and the voices that are just trying to get into your pants.
  6. At the age of 16, you learned that letting go of people that only brings toxicity in your life is never a crime. Thinking about your own peace of mind does not make you selfish. Neither does placing yourself above that last number on your priority list.
  7. At the age of 17, you learned that giving yourself to everyone willing could only lead to one thing: your own’s deterioration. Dear, you are more precious than someone who can’t even look into your eyes in the morning.
  8. At the age of 18, you learned that loving and accepting yourself are two different things. Placing yourself in situations you are well aware of your self distraction is never loving yourself.
  9. At the age of 19, you learned that lovers are not the only ones that can break your heart. People stay and go for a reason. Remember to treasure the rightful ones that life allowed to stay.
  10. You’re 20 now and life has never been what you expected and planned it to be and that’s possibly the greatest thing that can happen into your life. You’re a writer but life writes with you, know when to let it leave significant marks and know when your own pen should be the one doing so.
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I'm done

I'm done with this year. I just can't handle it anymore. I've had so many things and so many people taken away from me. I have no one left. I can't handle anymore people leaving me. I just can't...

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i am terrified by how quickly people change their minds. it fucking terrifies me to think about letting someone in and trusting them and then them just changing their mind about me. and it terrifies me because it’s happened too many times

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Anonymous asked:

Have you ever watched HIMYM?

I used HIMYM to deal with anxiety throughout high school, actually, because I have to listen to stuff while I fall asleep or I can’t sleep, and hiMYM was on Netflix. So I’ve seen it through about a million times and I can quote it to the point where it’s embarrassing. 

Actually, if you ask anyone who knows me in RL, I say “death is all around us” about twelve times a day. Like, for real. 

Someone confirm this, it’s so real. 

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I am the same way. I quote it at least five times a day if not more

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Wonder

I always wonder how long it would take for the people I call my friends to notice I'm gone. A few minutes? Hours? No. I think for most if might take a few weeks. Or until the next time they needed to use me for something. And when I was gone I think the only thing they would care about is now they have one less person to use.