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I’m Mer - Dragon Age fic writer, coffee enthusiast, and dog mom. This is my repository for my endless OCs, stories, and whatever else appeases the muse.

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and it slips through loose fingers: chapter 30! Chapters: 30/? WC: 92k Fandom: Dragon Age: Inquisition Rating: Explicit Warnings: major character death, explicit depictions of violence and death Relationships: Cullen x OC, Solavellan, Blackwall x OC, OC x OC Additional Tags: character death, long fic, slow burn, characters start out young and age throughout the story, eventual romance, PTSD, trauma, hurt/comfort, growing up, Modern Girl in Thedas, Dalish Elven Culture and Customs with a twist, canon divergence, recreational drug use, friends with benefits, *work in progress* Summary:

"Amaryllis wondered — not for the first time, nor the last — why misfortune seemed to follow her everywhere she went."

Amaryllis is nine years old when she dies and wakes in a forest naked, afraid, and alone. ***

it ends, or it doesn’t | a Felassan fic

written by youworeblue / @dreadfutures | illustrated by @adurna0 / @adurna0-art

Rating: T | Genre: Mystery | Length: 7/7 chapters, 45k words

Felassan finds himself investigating a murder with a ragtag group of three outcast Dalish, uncovering an ancient ruin hidden in plain sight, and the ugly secret trapped at its heart. As he, Merrill, a precocious Dalish First, and an exiled Keeper investigate the fractured history of Elvhenan after the Veil, he must grapple with his own fractured identity and decide what pieces to reject and what to keep.

In addition to the amazing art that Adurna produced, I also put together a soundtrack!

The thing about Sebastian is that he wants. He wants he wants he wants he wants. And he hates that about himself. He hates the piece of him that desires power and recognition he just he hates it he hates it he hates it. He wants and he wants and he hates himself and it's horrible and wonderful and fucked up

I said I wasn't going to get started on the topic of Aveline ruining Carver's chances with the guard but I lied okay, it's Carver Hawke defense hours.

Here's the thing; it doesn't matter if you believe Carver was or wasn't fit for the guard. That's a different debate that I'll get to. What matters is Aveline's in no position to tell the guard not to accept his application. Why does she think that's her right to judge whether or not he's fit?

Carver should've had the chance to prove himself one way or another. If it turns out he's not a good fit, then let him fail. Let him learn from it.

"Oh but failure could mean lost lives-"

Aveline doesn't get to talk shit about failure and the people. Plenty have died on her watch yet she still believes she's a good guard and Guard-Captain.

"maybe Aveline's protecting him, Carver could die while on patrol-"

Carver could die working in the Bone Pit, or serving as a templar, or when he's running around with Hawke. Carver could trip and fall down a set of stairs and die. In fact, he can die in the Deep Roads, somewhere he wouldn't have to go if the Hawke's weren't desperate.

Either Carver fails as a guard, or more likely, he succeeds and proves himself worthy of it.

But let's be real, Carver probably kept getting rejected due to being a Fereldan with a past of smuggling/mercenary work and Aveline only reaffirmed the decision, either because they asked her what she thought or she stuck her nose in unprompted.

But what irritates me is that she admits to telling them not to accept his application, and then has the balls to call Carver too proud to take up a trade or find another line of work.

Carver tells her, "And who would take on a Fereldan apprentice? Maybe in another year I could work my way up to pissboy." He has a good point here. Aside from the guard, the only other place Carver could work and use his skillset is with the Templars. Or go back to mercenary/smuggling work.

And Aveline doesn't even have a real answer for him. No suggestions, no encouragement, nothing. Just "Fine, let's crawl down some holes. Good bloody luck for your sake."

Also, if you do the Mark of the Assassin DLC in Act 1-

Aveline: You should see if any of the noblemen are looking for new men-at-arms. Carver: Are you trying to get rid of me? Aveline: It's a role with some autonomy. A good fit with your training and... tendencies. Carver: After serving King Cailan? You want me to suffer some poncy git who needs two servants to wipe his own ass? I'll find my own way, thanks. Aveline: I wish you would.

You wish he would?? Aveline, he was trying to find his way into the guard, a position he'd make a good fit for, and you helped deny him of it because YOU didn't think he would be good enough, I just-

If I haven't made it clear yet, I firmly believe that Carver would've made a great guard. He wants to help people, to be a protector. He's loyal, and despite what Aveline claims, he can follow orders and take his duty seriously. We see him do incredibly well with the Grey Wardens, after all. If he were a guard, he wouldn't have to go down into the Deep Roads with Hawke, and I think he would've been okay with that! He's so hurt and bitter when you leave him behind because that effectively tells him, "I don't need you." Carver's spent the whole first act telling you he wants to go on the expedition aka that he wants to be needed.

But if he were a guard, he would be needed elsewhere. He'd be in training as a recruit. He'd look after Leandra while you go. He wouldn't be backed into a corner with no income and only the templars left as his chance at forging his own path and providing for his family.

He doesn't get that opportunity, though.

By the way, if he becomes a warden, you can get this banter:

Aveline: I'm glad you found a place with the Wardens. Carver: Well, it's not the city guard, but it'll do. Aveline: Carver... it wasn't the place for you. Carver: No, it's all right. It is. It cost a lot, but I get it. I really was a bit of a tit those days, wasn't I? Aveline: Well...

This banter makes me want to scream.

Aveline's just... she's so insistent that she's right. She's someone who will double down rather than entertain the idea that she's wrong and it's not just with Carver and the guard, it's with everything. The "my beef with Aveline" list gets longer and longer every time I replay da2, I swear.

Say what you will about Carver, whether you think he would've been a good fit or if Aveline's right and it wasn't for him, he was denied a chance and it cost him so much in the end. He either dies, or he joins the templars where he deals with Chantry's bullshit trying to brainwash him with "mages aren't people" and "magic is a cancer in this world", or he's infected with the blight and becomes a Grey Warden, forced to serve the rest of his life fighting darkspawn, tormented by voices and nightmares.

I will never not be bitter about this.

making up characters is so fun because you can be like “this is johnson he came from my mind” and all your friends will go “yippe!!! horray!!! we love johnson!!!”

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From Ashes Chapter 15 || Fenris x Hawke Fanfic

Ash Hawke has a dream sequence! This chapter includes Ash flirting with her own reflection, mild body horror, themes of loss and grief, and Fenris crying 🥺

She looks down, into the abyss. But instead of empty nothingness or the unending Void, she finds her own reflection looking up at her from a still pool of black water. Her own amber eyes wide with fear and bright as ever. Her own dark hair loose and messy. Her own face mapped with lines made by lies and grins, and carved by grit and grief. “Oh hello,” Ash says flirtatiously to her own reflection. “Fancy meeting someone like you in a place like this.” She follows her words with a wink, and her reflection winks back at her. Ash laughs, and her reflection laughs along too. But as she laughs, she splutters and gulps for air then coughs. Ash squeezes her eyes tight and tries to clear her throat, but there’s something stuck. A bolt of terror, you’re afraid of being alone, of that deep devouring well of loneliness. Her feelings are caught there, right there in her throat and she can’t breathe, they’re knotted up inside of her, and she tries and tries to scream them out, to throw them up, but it’s no use. Keep smiling. Everyone you love leaves you, one way or another, but that feeling never will. Ash keeps coughing, she bends over, and on her hands and knees she retches and cries and spits and hacks, until - finally - she can feel the lump coming up. Until with one final push a wet little bird drops from her mouth, all bone and tawny feathers covered in bile. The creature looks dead at first. Then it twitches, once. Again – again - in a stuttering, fragile heartbeat-rhythm. It shakes its head and fluffs up its soaked feathers then it climbs to its legs. Before Ash can act, the bird stumbles and falls over the edge. Panicked, Ash rushes forward with her arms outstretched, almost falling head-first into the pool as she reaches for the bird, her bird. But before it hits the surface of the water, it opens its wings and singing all the while flies away into the distance. No, no, no, no, she cries as she collapses back. Ash hugs her knees to her chest and wails, rocking back and forth and crying out soundless, shapeless words, but no words can express the feeling of this loss. Something so beautiful – created out of the void in her - has flown away never to be seen again. That tiny, perfect, feathered part of her will never return. The never-ending night when you close your eyes. Such profound loss, it never leaves usIt never leaves us. There will always be a hole in her chest where her little bird once was, and Ash will never ever be the same. “Hello, sister.”  

Guys, if you read on AO3 please try to create an account. So many of us writers are going to be forced to lock down our fics to registered users out of necessity to help keep AI away, and it kills us because we don’t want to stop any of you from reading.

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I know this seems like an extra step and maybe you don’t think you need it and can just read from people who haven’t locked their fics. But this isn’t just about you as the reader. If you enjoy fics and you want to keep them coming, this is how you support your favorite writers! If our stats and comments plummet, I guarantee writing is going to start going down as well. Nobody wants that! So please consider making an account and signal boosting this as well! 🙏🏻

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Looks like fanfiction.net is gone. Probably should have backed up the fic I had there. Woops. Too late now.

Okay, this is very weird. The green leafy thing is what I’m seeing but apparently there are multiple people who can still access the site? I’m very confused right now.

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Mobile site m.fanfiction.net still up for me but I’ve taken this opportunity to download the few fics I’d posted there

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If you put www in front of the url (www.fanfiction.net instead of fanfiction.net) it still works btw but I don’t think this means anything good

Fanfiction.net is still up. There are a few different possibilities for what’s happening, and why leaving off the www is taking people to the above landing page instead, but the most likely one is probably that somebody at FFN screwed up their http redirect (the thing that automatically redirects your browser to https when someone types in just http).

Back up your fics because that’s good practice anyway, but don’t panic. The site is still there.

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Along with the BioWare Mega Collection deal (all DA & ME games plus all DLCs for $20, including DA:O - Awakening, Mass Effect: Andromeda and the remastered Mass Effect Legendary edition), there are also currently these game deals on Steam.

Mass Effect Legendary Edition alone is 75% off (£12.49) and there is also this 'EA Sci-Fi Collection' where MELE is 84% off in a bundle with Dead Space games.

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the MELE special promotion offer ends tomorrow May 29th.

Feeling the compulsive urge to post about my oc's as if they have an established fanbase and aren't actually from wips I haven't even introduced on tumblr yet

Hey friends! Commissions are open again! Not sure when I’ll close them since your boy’s gotta pay the bills, but I’ll take as much as I can!


I’ve also added an icon tier!


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Reblogs appreciated! Thank you so much!

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In light of twitter’s recent mass suspension I’m opening my comms again preemptively for June and will continue to share this post til slots are full.

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