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Calm & Chaos

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Chichi | 26 | She/Her | YA fiction Writer, thinker, book lover.

why write a story if no one’s going to read it?

Sometimes you don’t want to share a story with others. Sometimes you do want to share it, but no one clicks on the title. So why bother writing it down if the only person you can guarantee will read it is you?

  1. You need to get it out of your head. It just keeps replaying in your imagination on a loop and the only way to get it unstuck is to pin it down on paper.
  2. You need to figure out what the story is. You have a lot of disjointed scenes or lines that you know are connected but you can’t quite figure out how.
  3. There’s something in the story that’s important to you, and you don’t want to lose that thing by forgetting it. Future you might find that thing important too.
  4. You want to be able to go back to the story again and again. Maybe to make adjustments over time. Maybe just to revisit a story that gives you the emotional release you need in that moment.
  5. You want to be able to use text-to-speech to read the story aloud to you. Maybe it’s a bedtime story. Maybe it’s keeping you company while you do errands and chores.
  6. You want to find out whether you can write a story (because not everyone can).
  7. You want to be able to have almost the same story, but a little bit different, and you want to have it 15 times with slight variations. Then you can go through your own personal menu picking exactly the combination of beats that will satisfy you most on this reading.
  8. You enjoy the process of finding just the right words or phrases or scenes to paint the pictures you want to shape the scene.
  9. You want to find the exact rhythm and syllables and structure to make a sentence really sing.
  10. You don’t really have any particular reason, but you know you want to write that story down.

And no I don’t think love ever leaves because it’s been eight years since my dad died and he is in every thought and hope and dream. and when I think I can’t fix the computer he is here. and when I eat chocolate cake he is here. and when the sun glows at 3pm he is here. and he will always be here because his life made mine, and my life will be his epilogue

Anonymous asked:

Hey it's 🌌🧭! [Side note: Do you say the emojis when you read or do you skip over them as like a name?]

I just want to start by saying your writing holds such a good emotional weight to it, I really love the way you string together dialogue the part were Jeremy said "You’re grieving. We both are. We just do it in different ways.” actually made me begin to tear up a bit. I just wanted to let you know since I know how important hearing from readers is.

I also really want to know what podcast it is, I personally have been listening to Unresolved Textual Tension a lot recently. Seeing others talk about things that bother them in writing makes me want to write.

To answer your question Alchemist are part of The Society of Scholars and could lose their right to preform magic if found out to be going against the rules. However they can repent in a way by washing in cold water and taking an extra hour of studying.

This was a smaller project I was working on with a friend and in it the main alchemist character has spent months in a foreign land learning all about the different ways they handle magic as well as collecting books to bring back. In one moment he brushes hands with someone and shivers really badly so I'd say that is the main reaction. Though by the time he goes to leave he's made great friends with someone, and knows he probably wont see her again so he gives her a goodbye hug for the first and last time.

Random and completely unrelated however, I got a fortune cookie and it made me think of you. Not the fortune itself but I guess the idea that even the littlest of things could be a story.

Have a good day 📎

Hello again ☺️ (I skip over the emojis as I read them as if they're a singular symbol representing a name haha....I don't even think I know what that first emoji is. stars? all this time I thought it was a heart rate monitor oops).

Anon. I just want to say I am deeply deeply grateful for you coming into my ask box and sharing your thoughts on that excerpt I posted - I wasn't expecting that at all! Because you are right, hearing from readers is super important. But it is especially meaningful to me bc I've been considering lately whether or not I want to stay on writeblr for various reasons. Lack of feedback is really only like 5% of the reason, if that, but receiving any kind of interaction or thought about my story makes me tip back toward hanging on a bit longer.

That said, I'm glad - not that I made you tear up per se haha - but that the excerpt moved something within you. That's really my main goal with my writing since many authors have had that same impact on me with their writing. And so to see that I'm succeeding with that is always great to hear ☺️ (also I feel dialogue is my strongest writing skill so your compliment of that made me especially smile).

Oh! Haha. Re the podcast it wasn't one talking about writing in any way (although now I have to check out that podcast you just plugged 👀). It's just two black women talking about their personal life/opinions on things that affect them as black women. And around the same time as I was listening to that podcast I was reading a black romance novel that just...severely disappointed me, which has been the case with a lot of books in that specific genre for me. Romance is not my go-to genre by any means in terms of reading or writing, I typically just read it if I want something light or am in a slump (as I currently am). And so, in the vein of what you brought up last time of being able to find stories anywhere, the combined experience of hearing black girls (specifically a dark-skinned black woman) talk about their struggles with romance/finding partners and this disappointing book just drove me to write a black love story out of spite, specifically one centered around a dark-skinned black woman. So that's what I'm working on now unfortunately (I say unfortunately as a joke bc I really never thought this would actually manifest into something. I've never been able to write or think up a true story outside of my wip SCIF. But apparently this is happening so. Yeah. Truly tragic).

Aw that poor Alchemist ): I can't imagine not being able to show physical affection to a friend who I love dearly. Also their lifestyle sounds very monastic, makes me wonder if there's a religious element infused in there or that you draw inspiration from.

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Ok I decided to share a heartfelt sibling moment (thank you @leebrontide for chiming in on my last post ☺️) bc I haven't really showcased the depth of love/care/protection etc between Cami and her brother Jeremy. And I really love this scene between them and the way it turned out 🥰.

CW: discussions of self-harm, grief, loss of a parent. allusion to suicide.

The minute I reached the porch, the front door flew open, Jeremy standing in the doorway in a T-shirt and shorts. 

“You good? What the hell was that cryptic ass message you sent me?” 

I’d wanted to be strong, hold it together as I explained everything to him. But the minute I saw him, I broke. Rushing forward, I dropped my bag and wrapped my arms around his neck. 

“I’m sorry, Jer. I’m so sorry. I didn’t know…I wasn’t—” I sobbed, my chest heaving between each sentence. 

Ok I decided to share a heartfelt sibling moment (thank you @leebrontide for chiming in on my last post ☺️) bc I haven't really showcased the depth of love/care/protection etc between Cami and her brother Jeremy. And I really love this scene between them and the way it turned out 🥰.

CW: discussions of self-harm, grief, loss of a parent. allusion to suicide.

The minute I reached the porch, the front door flew open, Jeremy standing in the doorway in a T-shirt and shorts. 

“You good? What the hell was that cryptic ass message you sent me?” 

I’d wanted to be strong, hold it together as I explained everything to him. But the minute I saw him, I broke. Rushing forward, I dropped my bag and wrapped my arms around his neck. 

“I’m sorry, Jer. I’m so sorry. I didn’t know…I wasn’t—” I sobbed, my chest heaving between each sentence. 

ALWAYS THE BRIDESMAID | request for beta readers

Hello hello! I've just opened up the form for beta readers, linked at the end of this post. If you're interested in beta reading, please read on!

Always the Bridesmaid is a 45k-word fantasy/drama set within the capricious, sentient nexus of all human thought and imagination, the dream-like Library. Every night, dreaming patrons enter its endless stacks, and every night, its diligent librarians give them answers to the problems that weigh the heaviest on their hearts. Yet as the day breaks, the dreamers leave, and the librarians, themselves once dreamers, are left in the Library's eternal embrace. For hundreds of years, the Librarian and Constantinople have coexisted in an endless cycle of serving patrons and commiserating in the lives they left behind, but when one stubborn patron decides she'll stop at nothing but to befriend the former, both librarians throw themselves into the fire, despite their self-hatred and cowardice, to ensure that she doesn't throw away her freedom.

This manuscript is in its fourth draft and will potentially be moving on to either a fifth draft or publication, depending on beta feedback. It is also the first in a planned duology.

Sign-ups last until: April 15

The actual time frame for beta reads is: From April 20 to July 31. If you don't finish before July 31, don't worry! Any help is appreciated!

What I'm asking for:

  • Please have at it! Grammar, characterization, issues with story—nothing is off-limits. Get as thorough as your spoons will allow.
  • That said, a few specific points that I'm curious about: tense (everything should be in present tense), characterization (whether or not everyone's motives are clear and whether or not they work together), and plot (we play it loose with plot here, but there is one, and it should make sense).
  • Sensitivity readers: The main character is half-Black and occasionally discusses self-consciousness regarding his own identity. (For context: The character in question is from ancient Egypt, but identity is still relevant here.) Readers able to/comfortable with commenting on the language he uses to discuss his background would be deeply appreciated!
  • This beta will be done through either BetaBooks or Google Docs (depending on how many readers sign up/what readers are most comfortable with), but you're free to provide feedback through any means you'd like.

What you get in return:

  • Return betas! I'm willing to beta read one large, chaptered project (any size) or a bunch of short stories/poems (adding up to 45k words) for you. This offer is good at any time, so don't feel like you need to have something on-hand!
  • The chance to read AtB before it hits the shelves!

CONTENT WARNINGS: Always the Bridesmaid focuses heavily on depictions of depression. In certain chapters, the main character will question his sanity/sense of reality and engage in emotional (non-physical) self-harm. If any of this would trigger you but you're still interested in betaing, I can provide a list of chapters to skip. Otherwise, please don't feel obligated to fill out this form.

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Anonymous asked:
Hey hey long time no talk, I don't remember exactly what my anon tag was but I think it was something like Anon 🌌🧭 so hello again!
I actually wanted to answer your question about how people come up for their wips. For me some of it just comes to me in the form of a vivid dream while other times I take inspiration from things I find around me.
My current work in progress has an MC who is non-speaking and I started thinking about it after my best friend and I were talking about how her first language was sign.
Or something else I'm working on came to me after I had the thought of how overwhelming kissing someone would be if you hadn't done it before. I took that concept to the extreme and now alchemists aren't allowed to touch or be touched by anyone.
And I was talking to my mom about fate and how my role in fantasy would have to be the oracle and she brought up tarot cards. I was in need of a theme to give the magic of the word and it just felt so perfect.
All the little things of this world could be the concept you are looking for, I find my best stories hidden in colorful rocks.
Also 🐭 definitely, but maybe that's just because I'm nervous to talk to people. Oh and thanks for reading through this, keep up the good work♡

Hello dear anon! I've been wondering when I'd hear from you again since it's been a while 😄

I'm hearing a lot of people say their dreams are a source of inspiration for their wips which I find really fascinating! I never remember my dreams and if I do it's usually something totally bizarre involving people in my life so...not the ideal inspo (personally) for a story lol.

Oo your wip ideas sound really cool! How does the lack of physical intimacy impact the alchemists in your story? And what happens if they attempt to touch someone (or vice versa)?

"I find my best stories hidden in colorful rocks" 🥺 you are a poet anon. But you're totally right, inspiration for stories can come from a multitude of places. I think my life just feels so stagnant and routine (and lets be real stressful) most times that nothing about it has really gripped me to the point of striking up an idea. But I'm happy to say that after listening to a podcast recently (and being failed by multiple authors' attempts to write on said topic) I've finally drummed up a new idea that feels right for me to pursue. It only took 😃 12 years 😃. But hey better late than never I guess!

this is a semi hot take mixed with some genuine curiosity but...

I don't know if I quite understand the practice of listing what genres you like to read in writeblr intros, 'looking for writeblrs to follow' posts etc. Because as someone viewing that post - even if it isn't the OPs intention - I immediately read that and go 😃 "welp there's yet another person who probably won't be interested in hearing me talk about my [*insert non-conforming genre here*] WIP!". And subconsciously I know that's not OPs intention, it's more often than not simply about listing what genres you prefer to read or enjoy to engage with (because everyone has preferences!). But in a space where it's already kind of scary and nerve-wrecking to convince yourself that anyone could possibly like or be interested in your story, I feel like reading that is just juicy confirmation bias for my depressive, pessimistic brain.

the constant battle between wanting to post about my wip’s but also wanting to actually just work on them without sharing like it’s my little secret

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