I wish i was different i wish it all was different . *cleans and does laundry *
one thing i need to start living by is “become the thing that you want” if i want friends who throw themed parties maybe i should start throwing those parties. if i want someone who writes me love letters maybe i should start writing letters for the people i love. if i want to hang out at museums and pretty cafes maybe i should invite my friends to these places. and maybe even then i won’t find the kind of people i want to be around. but then i would have become the exact person i want to be around. and maybe that’s good enough.
Dont forget to think about good things that happened today before going to sleep ꕤ
hits the bong and immediately becomes aware of the narrative
hits the bong again and looks directly at the camera knowingly
good things to pay attention to more often
- the color of trees
- clouds and how they look different throughout the day
- the different colors the mornings can have. sometimes it's an orange hue and sometimes pink and sometimes it's too misty to tell
- pretty color schemes in random places (the trees and your neighbors wooden patio and the color of their car)
- the states of the vehicles passing you by, dents and scratches and the different trinkets suspended from their rearview mirrors
- the sound of silence
- the shadows the lights cast in your home, like how sunset looks different than sunrise, and the shadows the sun casts look different than those of your lamps and candles
- pretty details in buildings and houses like certain types of windows or doorknobs or archways
- the movement of things in the wind. flags, leaves, flowers, people's hair and coats
im like when a girl consumes too much media but doesnt have enough real life interactions



