venus

i burned my feet out of ice frozen ground,

and i started to relate to the chains since i couldn't pull you out;

and all i ever wonder:

is safe to die now?

run, run little girl

if you're lucky enough, you can get there before your soul.

turtles do not win, everything you ever learned was a myth;

"it's not beautiful", i say, "it's not beautiful", i yell

but the enemies walk across your own room

bringing in the pain you cried wondering were did you went wrong

but you were doomed, you were so doomed.

it's only you now, mirrors reflecting their laughs, that are the only not so scary thing that you can make last,

'cause the cuts bled blue

and it was the darkest part of the moon

and you shake your head laying on the stardust you found;

and then you ask:

is it safe to die now?

tell me how! TELL ME HOW!

i'm your most profund poem you never wrote.

i'm empty, and only sadness fits inside me.

i lost vision of who i am, what i am and if i do really exist;

or if i'm dead.

so i'm trapped, i can not do anything

i can't fight, i can't take fighting no more

my sorrow and anger declared war a short time ago,

but it seems like forever.

and i'm just so disconnected and exhausted

i let them take over me

'cause i can die, but i can't freeze in time

to not do anything, or to not wonder if i do really exist.

the thing is

i do not feel sad, i feel so euphoric

like my veins are exploding blood out of my body,

but i feel alone

so damn alone.

And in the moment you realize you're so deeply in love,

That love is so real you can't even tell if it is true.

It's not like water and fire together,

And it's not like fireworks in your heart,

Is so much more you are speechless,

Is so much more it makes you angry to think about being with other someone,

Is so much more in the end you realize you gave up on your life for that person.

But just in the end,

Cause I love you and I knew that,

I just didn't knew it was in the intensity of three cars crashing you can't go back, never.

You are the death of me,

It's so helpless as only one pill could kill.

And I've been wishing in stars and moons

That this is not my end,

Because I need you more than the blood that bleeds for my depressing heart,

More as many others shades of blue;

While you're the one so blue you left me,

I'm so blue I stay.

Because love is so beautiful as wrong as it is,

I just didn't realized it until now,

Maybe that's why I still think you're right somehow.

Let me be a fool and fight with my heart,

A huge war it's so synchronized it could make your heart beat with mine again.

Love had never truly seen us, and she said she was alone when she dropped her tears on Venus;

Maybe there we would last forever.

Love is just so complicated that it’s too hard to close the book. It’s like you just wanted to read this book forever cause it's your favorite.

You love this book so much that it looks like you’re the protagonist where everything works out in the end. You wait for it, and in the final pages it doesn’t happen, and you can’t go back, you can’t turn the page cause you know it’s a beginning you don't want. You’re frozen where you left the marker and you’ll always leave it there. You'll never stop reading the only page you can cause it's still you're favorite book.

She was looking at the moon

Following her,

She talked to her and had dreams

They were so far, but yet, so close.

"I think you're the prettiest moon in the universe" she told the moon everyday,

Yet, she never answered to her.

But she kept dreaming and dreaming,

And thinking how good they were together

Cause she was following her, at the same speed.

One day, she yelled at the moon to come closer,

She wrote a poem for her that day

But that night the moon wasn't there,

So the girl cried and cried waiting for her lover to come back,

To the day she found out, the moon was always standing in the same place, and never moved.

They were so close, but yet, so far,

I was just too naivee to understand that.

chasing down death at every corner, but it keeps slipping from my hands

you live in a different insane world that no one would dare to get close to

just me, i would.

The ocean's calling me

The ocean's setting free

And it's a sin to say my feelings are stronger than the ocean

But say the truth as it is.

My urge to let the waves take me far away,

Until no one or anything can see me.

I don't care if I drown and die,

The ocean speaks in which

No language or moviment could ever exist.

The waves, and mist and rain are stronger as the chain you should've never thrown away in the sea,

When I turn away you can see her, when I cross the line you can feel me and I kill what's left in foresee

But as my unattraction to rare things as it is

The ocean's calling me.

So I was wrong

Cause I always am

I still love you

Even with those ugly scars you or I put inside myself.

I wish you were with me

Even as the winter

And cold as hell cause you would be hot like summer

Or you could act like spring and autumn,

But as seasons pass I'd go at these little spaces

Where I can see Venus to get lost and don't find you,

Where my curtain is always open now

So I can see the horizon once I found my future in your eyes,

Where my heart is open but closed at the same time

And I'll never be nor drunk nor sober in my mind,

But I'd take you back as my whole life

Once you were the worse

Right now you never was.

I don't know if we got the same time

But your clock is always paused

So how could I do not mind?