I must confess, this is uncharted territory for me. To have someone who loves so unconditionally, who cares without suspicion, who smiles so freely. I’m terrified and elated, nervous but thrilled.  Contradictions are something I’m used to, but not to this extent. I’m trying not to let my natural suspicion get in the way, let my nerves ruin this, but I fear a misstep might run me off this ledge. Although, it’s ignorant to think that. You’ve made it clear I couldn’t simply ruin this in one move, but that does little to scare these feelings away. I know I’ve said it a thousand times, but I’ll say it a thousand more so you truly understand. I love you.

I think about you too much..

Too often too much

You're always on my mind

Not by choice, its something I can't fight

Feels like heaven

But for real it's purgatory

I need to find a way out

But do I really want to let go?