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I'd Wish Me Out That Door

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Name for Tumblr purposes is Freya. Old enough to have been warned extensively against putting my exact age on the Internet (20s). Certified Human Torch™️ (primary erythromelalgia). This is part autism blog, part subjecting my followers to whatever special interest is consuming my brain.

curious to know abt the correlation between neurodiverse folks and tattoos. bc i as an audhder would simply Never Get A Tattoo because i hate the idea of something being on my body permanently.

(this is also why i want to go on t and have the ftm surgeries but also don't want to anything permanent bc What If I Regret It)

so like nd people. what's y'all's opinions on tattoos.

I'm autistic. I don't have any tattoos because most of the things I would want are related to different pieces of media; I worry that it would end up tainted by something out of my control.

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Having fun imagining alien abductions as higher dimensional beings rescuing us from some sort of comical superspatial hazard we can't even perceive or comprehend, like having to hold a raccoon down and put grease on its neck to get its head unstuck from a peanut jar

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"Fuck, man, I know we're not supposed to touch these things but did you see him? He was totally covered in a Neuemann-Andrugtshang Field and he didn't even know. Just drenched. Did you see how fucked up he looked? Poor thing, scared half to death. I need to go wash my hands."

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taking a class on sex this semester which has resulted in many fun things like "sex activity" and "sex final" being added to my planner. being very mature and serious about this .

obsessed

I had a class called "What is Evil?" The professor called us his "evil students" and I got to say things like: "I have evil class later." and "I have readings in evil to do." and "Well my evil professor said..."

I miss having that class

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[ID: tumblr reply on this post reading "my partner did a sociology degree and one of the modules was on organised crime. very funny to see stuff like "anyone doing organised crime this afternoon" in a uni groupchat"]

Alternative readings are good, I say, while grinding my teeth because I don’t like this particular one

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It makes for a healthy fandom ecosystem to have a variety of takes, I say, while halfway to seethingly daydreaming how I would carpet bomb this take out of existence if I could.

u ever have on mutuals whos so deep in another fandom that u know absolutely zero about and they make posts that look like they speaking another language or some shit

i really appreciate the number of mutuals who are not in any of my fandoms sharing this post. its like a little hello nod as we pass each other in the hall

Dors anyone else's brains have trouble integrating details into a greater picture? Like if I'm read a description of someone, if I don't actively force my brain to compile I'll get flashes of a series of traits rather than a whole person, each dropped as soon as the next arises. Similar things will happen with components of topics I'm trying to learn about, my brain will hyperfocus on a specific aspect or line rather than constructing cohesive understanding. Trying to visualize scenes in stories is functionally a slideshow of things that stuck out to me rather than fluid action. My brain just Does Not Like connecting any kind of shit whatsoever to each other.

It annoys me very much and makes me feel like I'm missing out on some deeper, richer, more profound experience of the world other people get to have.

It's something that's pretty hard to describe but, does this sound vaguely familiar to anyone?

That's probably an example of weak central coherence/local processing bias. Autistic people, relative to NTs, sometimes can't see the forest for the trees. We start with details first and back into the bigger picture from there.

For this Disability Pride Month, I saw a post that was shittybad and it made me angry. So have this

[Image ID: a poster entitled “Intrusive thoughts can and will be about anything” in all caps. The poster then reads “

  • There is NO limit to what they can be about whatsoever
  • They Will be about things you don’t want them to be about BY DEFINITION
  • NO TOPIC is evil or weird enough to be exempt
  • [all caps] None. No line is drawn. The subconscious does not stop [/end caps]
  • It MAY make you uncomfortable to hear about and that DOES NOT give you an excuse to be fucking ableist about it
  • They cannot be controlled , you cannot expect people to try
  • They are NOT indicative of someone’s true wishes or feelings
  • [all caps] Reprimanding someone for having the “wrong” intrusive thoughts will only make them worse, especially for someone with obsessive-compulsive disorder [/end caps]

[all caps, in red writing] You are not better than someone with intrusive thoughts you find gross or morally reprehensible. You are not better than someone whose intrusive thoughts do not make sense to you. Even if you experience intrusive thoughts of your own. It is a symptom that causes enough suffering on its own. Don’t join it. [end caps]”

/End ID]

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okay but the BEST part of the first study discussed (conducted by an autistic person!) Is that it shows that while easy, calm, mutual communication and social interaction is often more natural between two autistic people than it is between an autistic person and a non-autistic person, it is ALSO like this when an autistic person encounters a non-autistic person who imitates the autistic individual’s behaviours- neurotypical parents copying autistic children’s play, for example, apparently receive more positive engagement from their child- which is SERIOUSLY FUCKING IMPORTANT and VERY VERY GOOD because it is, once again, scientific evidence that bullshit like aversion therapy and enforced conformance and FUCKING “quiet hands” aren’t “”“”“solutions to the autism problem”“”“” and that “”“”“problems”“”“ with autism don’t stem from BEING autistic, but rather, from how NON AUSTISTIC PEOPLE TREAT AUTISTIC PEOPLE.

IE, once again, there is nothing bad or wrong about being autistic

It should be a requirement for facilities to be wheelchair accessible and have a functional disability-accessible bathroom proportional to the number of patients for a building to be licensed as a medical, dental, psychiatric, or psychological practice.