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20 she/her, this was 'sweetinvisiblewriter' but now imma just be horny on main too, the bi in succumbi
Hi! This is SweetInvisibleWriter / Nerdy Nurse. I finally overcame my procrastination and made my side blog my main. I will still remain anonymous and to any people that know my name: don't use it on tumblr.

I still have my other account, but from now on I'll probably post over here about my personal discovery, the other account will become my nerdy/geeky/kinky reblogs probably.

I live in europe, english is my second language 😊, please be nice! I'm bi and probably polyamorous :)

I talk about my mood, sexdrive and kink discovery for my own good. This blog and my side blog will be my anonymous diary of my sexual discoveries. People who know me are not allowed to talk about this blog without permission.

I am studying to be a nurse and have a big interest in sex-ed (+the stuff you didn't learn in sex-ed), kink and biology. Also I'm a girl/female with a very open mind so I don't judge and even dumb questions are very welcome!

Things I do not like (they are not in order, just in what comes up in my mind):

- being called babygirl.

- rape play, knife play, blood play, actual pain (excl. spanking).

- cigarette smoke.

- being mean.

- people who do not read or argue with boundaries.

- sexists (if you're not a feminist then fuck off. If you're the feminist that thinks women are above men? Fuck off you're sexist too)

Also hello for everyone who got a nice spam there. From here and below it's mostly my side account posts so if you go there it'll be less cluttered and in chronological order.

New update tho!

I haven't been online much since my boyfriend at the time and I had been going steady. After we broke up I needed some time to recover and was less active in responding to any messages that came in.

I have been busy tho and discovered a whole lotta new things about myself, so a new kink test shouldn't be too far away. There are also certain people that gave a helping hand with that 😉.

Anyway I've been getting to know a dom that lives in the Netherlands and it's been going great (he's gonna read this so imma be discreet haha). I am at the point where I want to meet up with him, so nearly all my friends know about it.

Some are more interested then others and I noticed that two days ago when a close friend of mine (hi, I know you'll read it as well) and I hung out. Me being a polyamorous/poly open person said that if she had an interest in him, I wouldn't mind if she pursued it and her being into the same things as I am, did.

Then the night took a turn when the three of us started chatting together (lotta fun) and at one point he asked out genuinely if we were interested in eachother.

We always had been close and joking about it but I never really considered it? Anyway we talked about it and joked a bit but at fhe end of the night we'd kissed twice 🙈.

I'm still jittery but it looks like this is turning into a really fun dynamic!!! I hope I still dare to post more updates..

To the people mentioned in the story:

If you don't want to, let me know. I'll delete or edit around it. However I'm keeping you all anonymous anyway.

Update!:

I am officially not a virgin anymore and I'm not single anymore😋.

Had a lot of firsts last night and my boyfriend is such a sweetheart and a bit kinky. We're both switches and for now he initiated most things but he hasn't really dommed yet but neither did I. Which I like for my first time! It was wonderful and when I think about it I can still feel him everywhere. It took loong for me to cum but he insisted and helped me and 🥰🥰🥰. He knows I have tumblr and while I doubt he'll see this I do keep the details to a minimum. All I say is that my first time went well and I am no longer very sexually frustrated.

I also deleted the post of when I whined about being sexually frustrated and my complications with my friend cause many people understood it wrong. I did and do not wanna take advantage of my friend, that was the whole point. Either way that whole post is solved now.

I might post more slight frustrations about my guy soon, we'll see :)

Update! I'm doing a lot better! I asked around a bit and found a place 'fetlife' that has really nice features that makes it a great place to find other kinkers nearby☺. I've been having a lot of fun chatting with others and finding things nearby where I could go to! Feeling a lot more confident to investigate ;). It's for the whole world so don't be shy to check it out yourself I def recommend it!

Too shy to text people, too horny to be silent and too busy to do something about it.

Wearing my garter belt beneath my pants since they are thing so I need high socks. Guaranteed I get horny throughout the day, but now I also found a great song that I had stuck in my head. Now add to that I'm the only very single (kinda desperate) girl in my friend group and thinking about getting tinder.

I am this close to getting tinder, I just really wanna fuck😩

Oliver Marinkoski

*disclaimer, I am not a sex worker, sugar baby or anything. I am simply a normal girl with interest in kink. This is a joke.*

I shared this post with a friend of mine and accidentally ranted. So here's the paraphrase of that:

'If I ever get a dungeon you bet your ass I'll put stuff like that in it

They are all sooo pretty🤤

Especially the first and 4th

Not that I've thought about it but now I'm imagining having like a fancy ass sex dungeon I'm like 'Imma marry a rich old perf that would be willing to buy that for me and then pay me to watch me get fucked by a hot ass dom while in a gorgeous ass place.

I've never been interested in house decor but fuuuuck I immediately got so many ideas ♡♡♡

If everything else fails imma become a stripper, sugarbaby and then a "dominatrix" (for as for as I can as a switch) of my own sex dungeon with selected company and high ass parties 🥰 the dream

Orr ofcourse, I find a man who wants a dungeon and lets me help him with decor and filling it🙃'

Her reactions were fun but not very adding so I left m out.

Did the test again, huge difference from before 😂:

== Results from bdsmtest.org ==

98% Boy/Girl

96% Pet

94% Submissive

93% Primal (Prey)

93% Slave

93% Switch

92% Non-monogamist

92% Exhibitionist

87% Ageplayer

85% Rope bunny

85% Experimentalist

82% Degradee

80% Daddy/Mommy

68% Dominant

66% Brat

61% Primal (Hunter)

61% Voyeur

60% Rigger

58% Masochist

53% Owner

42% Brat tamer

32% Vanilla

27% Degrader

22% Sadist

21% Master/Mistress

Lowest is freaking 21%! Also 20 above 50% 🙈. If your results match mine well feel free to dm!

Did another kink test :)

Overall you are a Switch. (49% Dom, 70% sub.) The kind of kink you enjoy most is Restraint.

More detailed results are given in the graph. The graph is divided into Dom/sub halves, so if you have a high "Pain" rating in the Dom half, you are a sadist, but a high rating in the sub half shows a masochist.

Below is a compact graph in a canonical order which can be used to more quickly compare your results with someone else.

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I'm also 100% Exhibitionist and 71% Voyeur by this test.

This one's a bit less accurate than the other one but shows my switch side better!

2 of my 3 friends are now dating and I can't fwb the last one since she has had a crush on me and I don't wanna take advantage of her :(.

I'm this close to downloading tinder.

Like I don't want a serious relationship, just someone to fool around with. Yet I'm also kinky af so having a steady healthy dom would be great... just hard to find 😩

Fml the last one started dating as well! Now all three are dating boys and I got no one! While I'm happy being single I would loooove to hookup dammit.

Hi, it's been a while. Rant incoming :) might be all over the place.

My switch is acting up so I really love subbing but sometimes.. 🥴domming yknow?

Since the last posts luckily loads of people have just been kind to me so I def don't mind the dm's. It's a lotta fun talking with people about sex and kinks since I'm very interested in those subjects and also know *a lot* about it.

So much so people have start calling me 'the sex nurse' 😂. I'm quite proud, if you ever have questions on things: I'm studying to be a nurse! So I'm not embarrassed, judgy, prudish or anything of the sort. I always keep an open mind and fact-check my answers!

If you don't feel comfortable sliding in dm's, you're always free to go to my asks!

Mods are asleep post forbidden tits

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Perfectly balanced as all things should be…

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forbidden tits hehe

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Tits must be even

i was fucking around rbing it mutiple times to ruin it and my tumblr crashed

Gotta love forbidden tits

Laying in bed, listening to cute music, on good headphones, being happy about my body, thinking of cute and sexy outfits, confidence growing, feeling light hearted, happy, feeling my heart grow, wanting to flirt, kiss, admire, be admired, near stressless, just content and greedy for love, but not having someone to love but myself

And just knowing that after my month of being down I will fall in love with my confidence again and feel this way more often just ♡♡♡♡♡

So good news! A random update on an account no one follows :D.

I found out I'm a monsterfucker. Not even the vanilla kind🙈, like vampires, or werewolfs. Nah bitch give me cthulu or mothman. Sure I'm still into shapeshifters (monsterfucker community knows how to do werewolf incredibly good. Like I love almost all their versions) and halflings (idk if I use that term correctly but I meant like mermaids, centaurs, naga and half humand half animal) and demons/angels.

But give me a warrior orc lady or cthulu dream or h.p.lovecraft or luca's uncle idk.