lately I've been struck by the futility of my existence on this site, I've been struck by the fact that all the friends I've made here I've fallen out of contact with, I've been struck by the fact that every time I beat my anxiety and I try to reach out and do something that someone will notice I seem to be told in no uncertain terms that people don’t want to listen to me
that’s fine, i’m judging no one for this, it’s just made me think about time, and the fact that I don’t seem to get fulfillment from this site anymore and I just seem to waste my time here, every second I spend here could be spent working on my novel, doing school work, trying to find a job, and instead I spend it here, doing fuck all, and the times when I try to do something important just end up not making much of a difference
i’m taking a break from this place, don’t know how long, maybe forever, I know if I was to return it would be after completely rethinking what I want out of my place here, it would be to change what I was here to do, turn it into something constructive, and I don’t think I can do that right now
if you want to talk to me, you still can, I’ll still get emails about any asks you send (I don’t get emails about longer messages, only asks, so stick to those) so any offer I made to talk or any friendship I made on this site is still open, just send me an ask
other then that though, i’m done, I've enjoyed my time here in the past, but I don’t anymore, and I've been meaning to do this for a while, I hope everyone here the best, stay safe out there, and goodbye





















