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Welcome to the blog of all the things I love. These things include: Supernatural, Sherlock, Doctor Who, Merlin, The Walking Dead, various animes (Osomatsu-san fma, soul eater, hetalia, fairy tail, inuyasha, OHSHC ect.) and video games (zelda, PKMN,...

What's currently fucking me up: Tommy's "Joel" when Sarah dies.

Joel didn't see the life leave Sarah, but Tommy did. There is so much pain in that tiny broken sound, too forlorn and weak to be a sob. A kind of implied "stop", because Joel is trying to stop the bleeding, trying to save her, but it's too late. Almost a plea, "Joel she's gone, what do we do now". Tommy has always looked up to Joel, he looked to Joel for what to do at the start of the outbreak. But he knows now that Joel's not gonna know what the hell to do next.

It actually takes a few weeks before Joel sees that woman that reminds him of Sarah after arriving back in Jackson.

The first time he sees her again Ellie is with him. They don’t go anywhere without each other so it’s not surprising that she is with him when he sees the woman again.

Joel freezes like a deer caught in headlights. Breath trapped in his lungs, chest locked tight and heart clenching painfully in his chest. His eyes are wide and sad, his face goes white as a sheet. His whole body locks up so tight he shakes from it.

Ellie notices immediately. She knows Joel inside and out and knows what his panic responses are. She doesn’t know what has caused it though (she knows about Sarah of course but has no idea what she actually looked like). Ellie starts looking for danger and tries to lead Joel away to somewhere more quiet and defensible then the middle of the street. She literally has to drag Joel away tugging and pushing at him with her whole body weight to get him to stumble after her.

And stumble he does, going to his knees and gasping like a fish as soon as they are out of sight behind a building. A violent bought of vomiting isn’t far behind. Ellie doing her best to comfort him through it, curling against him to offer comfort and holding his hands as he shakes and slowly comes back to himself.

He talks as he settles, in stuttering broken sentences about what Sarah looked like and Ellie puts two and two together about what happened. She doesn’t know what she would do if she saw someone that looked like Riley here, she gets it.

After that Ellie is on what she calls “Sarah clone” patrol, trying to keep an extra eye out for that woman and keeping Joel away or distracted when she notices her coming their way. 

Joel acts like he doesn’t notice what Ellie is doing. He’s more prepared after that first run with the woman. It hurts like a bullet wound anytime he sees her but at least with Ellie at his side he can fight though the painful reminder of what he lost.

addictive-lies asked you: Would you consider drawing some more Last Of Us fanart? Or more Joel maybe? Because I haven’t seen anyone drawing them/him better than you do and I’m so into that game right now.

  Thank you! I’m so into the game right now too :D and afraid to finish it, I don’t want it to end. I hope I can draw more fanart without spoiling any of the story.

When Joel and Ellie return to Jackson Tommy finds himself reconnecting with his brother again. A large part of him thought he never would, after so much of Joel died with Sarah. But this potty mouthed QZ kid has brought his brother back to him.

They quickly grow close again, bickering, joking, small pranks. Joel becomes a huge source of reassurance when Tommy panics about if he is able to be a good father, and how to care for a baby.

This day starts out just like any other, but Maria has decided Tommy needs to get out of the house and away from her for awhile. His constant doting is appreciated but it is getting stifling so she recruits Joel into taking Tommy out on a hunt with him and Ellie.

The hunt goes well. Tommy finds himself relaxing, all three of them are joking and having a good time.

Until a stray runner comes flying out of the bushes, attracted to their laughter. 

The fight is quick and nothing serious but Joel took a bit of a tumble with the thing after pushing Tommy out of the way and ends up with a nice cut on his head and of course blood everywhere as head wounds always bleed like crazy.

Unfortunately this new cut is right on his scar from a certain “flinch moment” all those years ago and when Tommy turns to look at his brother after getting up from where he was pushed he sees the blood at that location and...

He looses his mind. Suddenly it’s the day after outbreak day again, the day after he was too slow to stop a man from killing his niece. The day he was too slow again and Joel ends up bleeding from a failed attempt.

Tommy freaks out, tries to apply pressure to the wound, starts begging his brother to stay with him, apologizing for not being fast enough, crying and hyperventilating.

Joel is completely overwhelmed with his brother’s panic, he was so shut down back then that he really doesn’t remember what happened after and if Tommy freaked out like this then.

Joel works to calm and comfort Tommy. Grabs him and hugs him tight. Tries to soothe him with quiet words and hushes. It takes awhile, a long while before Tommy finally calms. Even longer before he can let Joel go. They head back to Jackson hunt abandoned and Joel lets Tommy take him to the clinic. Seeing the wound treated and knowing it’s not anything severe finally settles Tommy down completely. 

Maria is not impressed when they get home though. What the heck happened out there?