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Oh, but self-loathing was just so enticing, so holy, so unassailable! The cynic in him cried, Take my hope! Take my life! Who cares? As if surrender could make up for his failures or help the people he loved. What a lie to think he could whip himself to redemption. What a loathsome lie!

From The Hod King by Josiah Bancroft

People get from books the idea that if you have married the right person you may expect to go on ‘being in love’ forever. As a result, when they find they are not, they think this proves they have made a mistake and are entitled to a change — not realizing that, when they have changed, the glamour will presently go out of the new love just as it went out of the old one.

By C.S. Lewis

because fuck this prissiness. I am lonely, you are lonely, there is nothing pretty to say. Because fuck the stars, fuck the metaphors, fuck me, fuck you, fuck the walls, fuck it all. We’re all just characters in a nursery rhyme waiting to fall down. because this is over, and I throw away all these pointless, stupid words except one. Why?

From The Constant of the Universe by Andy Weaver

And so it’s springtime and every fool has his lips pursed for the kiss, the world has spattered on love like a cheap cologne. But let’s chop through the false fronts, peel off the plaster and open the walls to the bare slats—the meat of the matter, as they say. Loneliness is the only constant in this universe.

From The Constant of the Universe by Andy Weaver

I am so ashamed before my friends–to be known to be left by the one who supposedly knew me best, each hour is a room of shame, and I am swimming, swimming, holding my head up, smiling, joking, ashamed, ashamed, like being naked with the clothed, or being a child, having to try to behave while hating the terms of your life.

From Known to be Left by Sharon Olds

Just when it has seemed I couldn’t bear    one more friend waking with a tumor, one more maniac with a perfect reason, often a sweetness    has come and changed nothing in the world except the way I stumbled through it,    for a while lost in the ignorance of loving someone or something.

From Sweetness by Stephen Dunn

A is for Amy who fell down the stairs B is for Basil assaulted by bears C is for Clara who wasted away D is for Desmond thrown out of a sleigh E is for Ernest who choked on a peach F is for Fanny sucked dry by a leech G is for George smothered under a rug H is for Hector done in by a thug I is for Ida who drowned in a lake J is for James who took lye by mistake K is for Kate who was struck by an axe L is for Leo who swallowed some tacks M is for Maud who was swept out to sea N is for Neville who died of ennui O is for Olive run through with an awl P is for Prue trampled flat in a brawl Q is for Quentin who sank in a mire R is for Rhoda consumed by fire S is for Susan who perished of fits T is for Titus who flew into bits U is for Una who slipped down a drain V is for Victor squashed under a train W is for Winnie embedded in ice X is for Xerxes devoured by mice Y is for Yorick whose head was knocked in Z is for Zillah who drank too much gin

The Gashlycrumb Tinies by Edward Gorey