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@hungerpunch / hungerpunch.tumblr.com

they/them. 32.

SOS fellow queers why can't i conjure even one iota of joy or excitement ab pride this year... help me... fairy godmothers fix me.. :'/

oh wait i think i figured it out. i think it might have something to do with facts such as 1) the always-dubious COVID reporting is complete misinformation at this point as the accessible at-home nasal test kits' accuracy is much diminished yet the much more accurate saliva test kits will run someone over $100, so no one is testing accurately even as new strains surge through 2) i have anxiety attacks in crowds like i never did pre-pandemic 3) i've watched wealthy white cis gay men cannibalize just about the last of our queer intersectional neighborhoods and spaces leaving nothing but white heteronormative big box shopping strips in their wake 4) pride is more policed than it has been in my lifetime 5) i've been beleaguered by an endless news cycle of anti-trans attacks both in the form of hate crimes and policy and the only fury i ever see comes from other trans people but love is love is love is love honestly fuck you and up yours i wish you cis queers would hit the pavement to protect us as hard as you hit it to legalize gay marriage i do not feel solidarity with you right now. i think those might just be contributing factors

using @astronomical-light's mention of my discord pfp (heroin bob, slc punk, pictured on the right below next to his best friend, stevo, whom the film revolves around. stevo is matthew lillard's defining role to ME btw)

to finally talk ab the fact that kb got a tattoo for me. well, for us, rather. see kb is the person who introduced me to slc punk back when i was 18. and since then, to this day, we re-watch it together at least twice per year. stevo & heroin bob (who does not do drugs [besides cigs]) are the movie's main protagonists and are best friends. there's a line in the movie that we love, that stevo says when most of his friends have moved out of salt lake city: "then it was just me and bob. bob and me. the last two punks in salt lake city. first two punks, last two punks."

kb & i have been together now for over 13 years. i never wanted matching tattoos bc it's supposed to be bad luck but also, it's just not for me to be matching. but they wanted to get a tattoo for me and i said as long as it wasn't my face or name, to go for it. so they designed their own tattoo secret from me and came home with this:

which is obviously the line from our favorite movie, plus a pair of cranberries (because ~our song~ is dreams by the cranberries).

HOW CUTE I ALMOST CRIED MY FACE OFF ; ; it doesn't make any sense to anyone else, it is literally just for us, and that's why i love it so much!!!