Houda Azzouni

The most comforting sentence in Islam:

"If you come to Me walking, I will come to you running".

This is your reminder that you are strong enough to overcome anything and everything that life throws at you because:

“Allah does not burden any soul with more than it can bear”

[2:286]

في الجمعة ساعة إجابة، لا يُوافقها عبد مسلم يسأل الله خيرًا إلّا أعطاه

ادعو لأنفسكم ♥ ♥

كان من دعاء النبي ﷺ :

اللَّهُمَّ إني عبدُك ابنُ عبدِك ابنُ أمَتِك ناصيَتي بيدِك ماضٍ فيَّ حُكمُك عَدْلٌ فيَّ قضاؤُك أسألُك بكلِّ اسمٍ هو لك سميتَ به نفسَك أوْ علَّمْتَه أحدًا مِنْ خلقِك أو أنزلته في كتابِك أو استأثرتَ به في علمِ الغيبِ عندَك أنْ تجعلَ القرآنَ ربيعَ قلبي ونورَ صدري وجلاءَ حُزني وذهابَ هَمِّي.

Dear heart, I know it gets hard to go on sometimes. I won't tell you any motivational quotes or anything. I don't know anything right now that might calm you. You were thinking of how you've wasted your teenage years by mourning the loss of people and their actions. You were thinking how you've wasted your time and exhausted yourself— hating, hurting, and waiting. You remembered how you waited for apologies and never received them, how you let the actions of others define your self-worth. How your self-esteem was crushed, how your world changed, how your young, childlike heart got through it all, how it absorbed everything and was forced to mature perhaps beyond your age. How your failed expectations turned to grief which turned into anger, how you became so defensive. The long duas in sujood, sitting on the varenda, looking at trees and the sky and feeling so overwhelmed as if your heart would fall out it's place, abandoning things you liked, isolating yourself because you felt like a burden, the embarassment you felt the first time you had a mental breakdown in front of the whole family on a family picnic and then you had to makeup a lie for it, and then it happened at school for the first time, how much you craved for a heart, for a friend, someone who would understand what you were going through, the first time you had a panic attack in the middle of the day after you had finished lunch at home, the fear of getting close to anyone ever again, and the guilt you felt for allowing others to control you like that... I remember it all, a thousand other things, a thousand inexplicable feelings. Maybe one of the reasons for being distant and having your gaurd up all the time is that you think perhaps your anger would protect you from being taken advantage of. You crave and value such basic things but you've learnt they are rare so you think maybe you're asking for too much... like respect, loyalty, being understood, valued and prioritised. I feel like maybe you don't give yourself enough credit for being through it all. You sometimes even downplay it. You question yourself all the time. What you consider as wasting time was necessary. How could you have controlled anything? Why are you so hard on yourself? You need to be kind to yourself too. How else would it be possible to be kind to others? Or to love others correctly? Maybe that's where you've to start. From within. It's been a long time, it does feel peaceful this way but it also feels lonely sometimes. I don't know what am I supposed to do and how. But I seek comfort in the fact that as always Allah will guide you through. You'll be fine.

Always make dua. Even if you think everything has been decided and nothing can be done. We are incapable of understanding how Allah handles our matters and a sincere dua goes a long way.

من يتعذر بأنه لا يجد وقتًا للقرآن اجعل هذه العبارة نصب عينك : ”ما زاحـم القرآن شيء إلا باركه“

اكتشفت مؤخرًا أنني لا أتخطى الاشخاص سريعًا،

اكتشفت لماذا لا أهلع عندما أقع في مشكلة،

اكتشفت السبب وراء عدم بكائي لحظة خسارتي أعز أصدقائي..

لم أكُن أتخطى سريعًا كما كنت أظن.. بل إنما انا اراكم احزاني وأكابر، عزة نفسي العظيمة كانت تمنعني أن أبكي، أو أن أستند علي أحد.. أو حتى أن أقول لصديق أنني تعبت ولا أقوي علي الاستمرار..

مؤخرًا وبسبب تلك التراكمات.. أصبحت أبكي وأثور علي أقل الاشياء.. والمؤسف أنني لا أستطيع تغير تلك الصفات في نفسي..

لا أعرف كيف أشارك حزني أحد، ولا أثق في أكتاف البشر، وسأظل هكذا أمرُ بأقسى لحظاتي ولياليٰ الأكثر فزعًا وحدي.

Elaine Feinstein, from Collected Poems and Translations; “Muse for E. T.,”

“i just need you and some sunset”

"عانقيني ياميلينا، عانقيني فالكلام لم يعد كافياً."

- كافكا

أنا لا أتجاهل أنا فقط أحاول أن تبقى روحي بعيدة لكي لا تتعلق بشيء تحبه اليوم ويزول غداً

I am not ignoring, I am just trying to keep my soul away so that it doesn't cling to something that loves today and goes away tomorrow.

- Khalil Gibran

وقفه طويلة هنا ..

'Maktub,' she said. 'It is written. If I am really part of your dream, you’ll come back one day.'

- The Alchemist (Paulo Coelho)

u ever listen to a song n remember exactly how life used to be when u first heard it

Where’s my oscar for acting like everything’s ok?