Talks To Much

It’s getting hot in here! Lalalalala laaa

I jumped rope for 55 minutes tonight! Yay! I swear I didn’t pee myself.. it just looks a bit like I did lol!

Beat my Apple Watch goals too!

Idk , I feel really good about showing up for myself tonight.

But I do desperately need to find a new pair of shoes because I have really used these ones well and it’s starting to feel like it.

5/6/24

Pickles Pie back on March 29th

He’s such a love bug!

Ugh so PRETTY!

NOT MY IMAGES! I take absolutely no credit for these!

You guys know the drill by now. lol!

Hope I’m not scaring you away.

Nelly in her Eddie Bauer coat

Out on one of our short walks earlier today.

5/5/24

5/5/24

How is it May already?

Anyone else find that to be wild?

Anyway I was a little short of beating my Apple Watch goal today but I still made time and dedicated myself to some movement and I feel very accomplished, I could have easily just sat down and played the sims or sat down on the couch and browsed the internet for that time but I didn’t! So yeah, that’s worth something.

2 short walks with my dog Nelly and my love.

Then about an hour of yoga, hips and core mostly

And I added a picture of our cat Princess looking very small for some reason,

5/4/24

Things I hope to accomplish this month

1: make an account so that people can donate to my rats if they would like.

2: try to workout at least 3 days a week

3: alternate between painting and playing the sims before bed if I only have time for one of them that day.

4: call a friend

5: make a list of plants I hope to have for the vegetable garden this summer

6: walk around the block by myself (issues due to seizures)

7: make a list of ideas that might improve my life with non epileptic seizures

8: practice playing my guitar and singing

9: achieve my Apple Watch fitness goal

10: go through two bags of things in the pet room

5/4/24

Heeeyyy! Yallll!

I jumped rope for 36 minutes today and achieved all my Apple Watch goals today!

Yippee! I’ve been truly sucking at making my fitness goals this week so I really needed this. lol

It’s so late because I took a late nap but I STILL worked out and that is exciting to me.

I have had a habit since I got sick where I’m taking late evening naps that sometimes last two hours and then I wake up and realize I’m not going to have enough time to paint and workout and I’m tired and so I’ve been unfortunately not working out very much, I think part of this might be mood changes from my medication changes being underway, it’s been causing me to feel deep feelings of worthlessness and inadequacy.. I’m really hoping this will pass and isn’t an effect that stays with me, meaning I’d have to change drugs yet again.. anyway, I feel some pros and cons with this new med but I’m not sure I wanna talk about that yet really.

My point is that I haven’t been planning my days out well enough and my workout time keeps getting pushed aside, I’m not particularly happy about that so I’m doing my best to practice better time management and getting my priorities straight.

I am debating going for a trip either my friend tomorrow, I’m incredibly nervous tho, I have seizures just about every day still and even though my friend is very supportive she is also going through a lot of stress herself and is going through a big move right now.. my love thinks I should go , but I’m still debating weather it’s smart or if I’m too overwhelmed by the whole situation?

I’m really feeling a pull to make leaps and bounds towards the life I used to have or something that feels more like ME, I need to have more independence and more individuality.

I miss a life where I am free and brave and independent! I miss going places and feeling safe . Life is such a messy process that involves so many ups and downs, I want to come out of this down so far up that I’ve never been so much of ME ever in my life, I want it all to be worth it.

Anyway.. if I go on the trip I can’t take my pets and I won’t have my regular routine or comforts for a few days .. what to do

5/3/24

My tip toe tulip

She is such a delightful little creature and loves to sit in her little nests and look out at the world around her 💖

Yeah, I know you guys are probably sick of my pretend shopping or day dreaming of the day I’ll have any money and if I did have money it would of course be spent first on absolute essentials!

Can the universe bless me with big comfy poncho??

Or that beautiful light green sun hoodie?

lol I know I’m silly but I’m having fun.

Again I DO NOT OWN or take ANY CREDIT for any of these images!

Just from various stores.

Are these amazing or what!?

How do you deal with your really harsh thoughts? Do any of you struggle with a hateful inner dialogue?

I feel like I’m already spiraling and I just got up after sleeping in after having seizures this morning.

5/2/24 ? lol idk what day it is s

My love and I with some of our beloved animals

Is he flipping us off??

lol

Tater and pickles just before cage cleaning started.

My aunt passed away from cancer, my mom who is currently struggling with cancer and in an extreme amount of pain daily wasn’t able to go say goodbye since she lives in another state, I guess my aunts daughter told her how much my mom loved her.. along with that my mother won’t be able to go to the funeral because she will have just had a serious back surgery due to her own cancer treatment.. Some Devine and pure beautiful yellow and white light needs to come down and bless my mother with something that makes her really happy and fills her heart and soul with joy and purpose and peacefulness.

I don’t understand how someone as sweet and beautiful and loving as my mother can have such things happen to her in life.

And my poor grandma.. and the rest of the family.. so much to grieve right now.

If everyone could think one good thought for my mom, a thought of happiness and good health. I would be so thankful.

Emmitt and Tobias haven’t shown their faces on here in a long time so where are the Emmitt and Tobias lovin people at??

I’m feeling so much better after being sick last week but also the construction next door is taking a time on my mental state, I did how ever manage to go make a return with my sister and go grocery shopping as well so today is over all not too bad, plus these sweet boys are always making me smile ❤️💖💕❤️

4/30/24