I can’t stop thinking about midnight mass
Who am i?
Like. Wtf. How am i just supposed to figure this out on my own??
My new very short haircut is giving me absolute gender euphoria ✨💕
A large part of growing up and being autistic is getting punished for not meeting the unspoken expectations of neurotypicals.
I'm so tired of not feeling good enough
Does anyone else get too tired to have emotions? Anytime I mention it to a doctor or therapist or something they just go “That doesn’t happen”. Yo dude, I’m Autistic. Having emotions requires energy and effort and when I’m exhausted, frankly, I don’t give a damn.
I hate it.
I'm autistic. After 20 years of wondering what's "wrong" with me. Why i keep losing friends. Why i keep being told off, being told I'm too loud, too much, no one understanding me. Being bullied for years. And many many many more things.
And now I can't do anything with that diagnosis. Atleast it feels like I can't. I barely know myself anymore. I've lived with a mask on my face my entire life. And i can't take it off, cause i don't even know what's behind it. I'm these million different versions for a million different people. Each fitting their preferences of me.
I can't even tell my parents what's going on. They don't even know about my therapy.
I'm so burned out and tired. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm all alone. Again.
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Fuck I’m at a fencing tournament and literally a minute after I reblogged this my dad told me that he talked to the point people and I’m probably going to win a medal.
BURN BAGEL BURN
OH WHY NOT?
I need to follow up to say I reblogged this last night, and this morning I got some of the best news of my life, like, a life dream come true news thing.
Bagel what are your powers
FUCK, I though it was just another lucky meme but LISTEN. Since a week ago I was waiting a phone call to confirm me if I got a job or not in my university. I reblogged this yesterday’s night “just for fun and because I don’t want any bagel to be mad with me”, and today’s afternoon, while I was losing my time as always, the professor I was supposed to work with called me and asked me for my personal information to start working with her.
THE BAGEL POWERS ARE WAY TOO MUCH FOR THIS WORLD
It. Worked. Wtf
i am tired. i am exhausted. from my head to my soul to my bones i am so fucking tired.
If I got a € for everytime someone accused me of faking my (diagnosed) mental illness, i could dress up as a bat and fight crime. 🙂
THERE WAS SOMETHING IN THE AIR THAT NIGHT THE STARS WERE BRIGHT FERNANDOO
I was rewatching some episodes of the nanny today cause it was on TV.
How did I get a crush on CC and Mr Sheffield?
What does that say about me? 😅
Alonso overtaking Gio was the exact same way I do it when i play F1 on my Ps4.
He really chose violence today didn't he.
I watched Black Widow last night and i loved every second of it. You could see it was directed by a woman (Cate Shortland). Amazing. Watch it if you haven't yet.
Also. I'm in love with Yelena Belova and extremely bitter about what happened to Nat in Endgame.
actually, growing up is feeling like i turned sixteen two days ago. i’ve been eighteen for years. fifteen year olds seem so young. wasn’t i fifteen just a few weeks ago? all my friends and i are still twelve. i’m closer to thirty then to being a baby. i never got to be a kid. i never grew past eight. i can’t talk to my mom. i want to sit in her lap forever. the week is going by so slow. an entire year has passed. i want to decide everything for myself. i need someone to tell me exactly what to do.
Slowly coming to the realization I might have a crush on Toto Wolff. Including, saying he surely must have a daddy kink (cause look at him) and realizing i might've been projecting my daddy kink onto him 🥺
I just don’t feel like this fandom gives *enough* appreciation to Sir Lewis. Not only is he the sexiest beast on the track, but he uses the rest of his energy (how does the man have any left?!) into channeling positive energy via both his music and campaigning for SO many important areas of social change.
This sport will forever be in debt to his skill, his positivity and his relentless drive to transform both on and off track for everyone. Even if you believe he has been too dominant over these past years, you can still appreciate what he has done for the sport. The changes he has made for the better. He has faced adversity from the beginning and still only brings positivity and light to so many.
Whether he wins the championship or not, I don’t even care. I will forever be proud to be a Lewis fan because of the truly inspirational person he is.
Now that we know for sure that Loki is a bisexual disaster who'll do anything for power and/or validation can we get a confirmation that he was the Grandmaster's sugar baby or