- i wonder why my life is in shambles that's weird
- i'm going to redesign my room and paint a portrait and binge watch six shows and dye my hair and start a makeup brand and write a novel and read poetry and clean my whole house and
- i Can't Get Out Of Bed
- uh oh sisters! *showers with the lights off*
- cries in the car and almost crashes accidentally
- tv static noises
- *wakes up* [redacted] *goes to sleep*
- i haven't slept in 72 hours and i'm talking a lot about ophelia and reciting hamlet's soliloquies and everyone around me is worried
- trying to sleep but there's Something In My Room
- *texts abuser(s)* oh this is a fantastic idea
- i'm horny and angry about it
- i'm horny and sad about it
- masturbates and then cries
- If You Touch Me I Will Kill You
- *thinks about trauma* oh that sucks for whoever that was
- oh, wait, that actually happened?????
- Shame
- i'm going to starve myself until i'm so small no one will want me
- i'm going to overeat until i'm so big no one will want me
- *throws up for unknown reason*
- talk about trauma, but make it funny
- I CAN'T DO SOMETHING REALLY SIMPLE AND INSTEAD OF WORKING THROUGH IT I'M GONNA YELL AND HURT MYSELF UNTIL I GET TIRED
- i have forgotten every single coping skill i've ever learned
- hnnnnnnng
- *listens to music from That Time and gets weirdly nostalgic*
- i Want To Be Abused
- i will never love again! ever!
- confuses platonic and romantic emotions because anything that feels Good is confusing
A movie
Litterally answer every system ask in the post you reblogged
1: We have two littles! Lily and Cassie. Lily is fun and enjoys playing simple games while Cassie loves to do anything that will leave us very tired after she fronts.
2: Well we did have a pair, Aria and Sophie, but Aria recently seems to have gone dormant and it’s been really hard on Sophie.
3: Oh wow okay so Tak loves everything spicy and the littles can’t get enough Goldfish even if that would be all they ate! I mean the cracker too not the actual fish.
4: As for non-humans we have Glitch who is essentially a Glitch and who’s form changes rapid fire which makes for a headache when fronting. Then we have Tak who is a shape-shifter but prefers to look like a 4ft tall goblin. Cassie is also some variation of human? We aren’t really sure but she says she isn’t human. We also have a member who doesn’t like names and is only really seen as a shadow but is really lovely and very clingy to some people.
5: We don’t really have much in the way of style or understanding for it so we just wear whatever we have, but in the future when we can explore it we know some members are going to have some very different tastes.
6: Okay so fighting in this system happens in bursts as we just had a big fight between Aria and Tak before Aria went dormant. Wrenn also got into it but realized she was in the wrong to do so.
7: We have one fictive and it is of Swain from League of Legends, but he mostly keeps to himself and we don’t have to cater to him much. We do have a factive as well but ve is a factive of someone from our high school time. (Jamie uses ve/ver just for clarity)
8: I would say Tak can be pretty scary as well as the member with no name, but they wouldn’t intentionally scare someone unless they knew them pretty well.
9: Our headspace is a big apartment building with no way to get to the outside. We are on the second floor in a big room that changes to suit new members. Sophie has Aria’s room right now. Wrenn shares a room with Cassie to keep an eye on her. Glitch stays in the living room area. Jamie has a room that I think Lily has been staying in. Everyone kinda moves from room to room every night or stays in the other apartment we have, but Swain has mostly taken that one over.
10: Alright so as for music, Wrenn really likes this weird kind of music called murderfolk which is this depressing country, her favorite artist is Amigo the Devil. Aria likes metal. Jamie likes some metal and rap. The littles love anything like electro swing. Tak likes electronic music like Carpenter Brut. The rest of us kinda bounce around to whatever the others are listening to.
11: We are out to a few friends actually and it has only gone wrong once. I think three people irl know who are okay with it and one who didn’t understand it.
12: Most of us rarely front right now except for Wrenn, Tak and sometimes Jamie. The rest of us kinda come and go for short bits or come to co front and then leave.
13: Someone has a phobia of a bunch of holes? I don’t know who exactly, but we can all feel it when we see it.
14: Our main fronter right now is Wrenn, but it was Aria before. Aria was our host for a long time but after declining mentally finally gave it up to Wrenn.
15: I believe we are at 12 now.
16: Our newest member is Swain as he came around a few weeks ago.
17: I would say Tak can be a caretaker as they are good with the smalls. However Tak can be very vulgar and mean if not being careful. I would consider myself a caretaker, but I usually act from the inside reminding others about things (Tyler). Connie was a caretaker but she wasn’t around for too long unfortunately.
18: Wrenn is a protector for sure and is quick to do what she needs to do to keep us safe. Tak can also be seen here but more as a persecutor from this angle.
19: A good bit honestly, but we can usually keep ourselves together enough to get somewhere where we can ground and keep going.
20: I would say its early high school maybe? We became aware of each other there and it was a bit of a shock for Aria, but we managed.
21: Free space woooo! We are actually fairly good at metal art and metal related things! We know how to weld and use many machine shop tools. We have forged a chefs knife before from a piece of metal and we have casted our own cannon that actually fires.
dealing with people who are spacing out
DON’T: -hit them -yell at them -wave in their face in excess
DO: -say their name once or twice -tap them gently and if they don’t respond, -wait patiently for them to snap back into reality

this still applies yo
As someone who disassociates quite a lot, this is useful information
I was high off my ass last night and had this dream where I was in this dense ass forest and sitting there was a tall woman. She was so tall I couldn’t see her face but she was wearing gold and I was like “uh…hi?” And she said “I made you, do you know that?” And I nodded and she was like “I hear your thoughts. Why do you hate my creation? Why do you try to destroy yourself? I made you perfect as you are. Please don’t break my heart”. Then she started crying and it flooded and I woke up with fucking heart palpitations like what does it Mean™️????
polar opposite of this post
inspiration struck and would not let me go until i drew this
This is really beautiful!!!
Oh fuck
Jabbas, rated
There are many Jabbas in this world, but not all Jabbas are created equal. Some Jabbas are better than others. Some… are worse.
Jim Henson Puppet Jabba
This is it. The original flavor. The Ur Jabba. The definitive Jabba from which all other Jabbas are derived. You can fit so many fucking dudes inside this puppet, it’s wild. There are like four guys inside him making his body wiggle, it’s like a frat party. Very impressive. Despite the production quality and the effort of the puppeteers, I don’t find him to be a very believable alien design because… is he a vertebrate? He’s built like a vertebrate, but his entire lower body and tail sit at a 90 degree angle. I worry about his sacroiliac. 9/10
Forbidden Jabba: The Wonderful Human Being
Northern Irish actor Declan Mulholland is the actual Original Jabba. This scene was shot but cut from final release when the stop-motion intended to replace Declan didn’t work out, and he was a very different character. I love that he looks like a Star Trek guest character portraying Friar Tuck in a low-budget costume someone fished out of a bin. Sadly, the forbidden nature of his existence is the only interesting thing about him. 2/10 for design, personality, and execution, bumpted up to 5/10 by virtue of being Forbidden.
1997 Restored CGI Jabba
Oh god. What can I say about this Jabba? A picture says a thousand words. In 1997, George Lucas re-released A New Hope with some infamous changes, including the restored original scene with Jabba, replacing dear old Declan with… with this. A shambling, poorly-textured, deflated husk of a slug that clipped through the scene and wore an expression of heartbroken terror. Don’t you just love him? I adore this Jabba. This Jabba is a monument to man’s hubris, a portent of doom and the folly of he who reaches further than his grasp. You look at him and you are filled with pity and a desire to protect him from the man who thought he was fit to be released into the world. Oh, right in my pathos! This Jabba is my beloved ward, and I will hear no ill of him. Look at him. He was never meant to be removed from the depths of the sea.. he’s wilting… he needs help, and love, and a synthetic exoskeleton that will keep him from caving in upon himself and crushing his own organs. He’s like a mildewed paper bag that you could put your foot through. Please don’t hurt him. 10/10
MORE JABBAS UNDER THE HUTT
UPDATED: NOW WITH MORE JABBAS!
please stop, ship
my eyes can only take so much
Good news: I think this most recent update may be the last. I have rated just about all the canon Jabbas there are to be rated. My work here is done…
Mermay 2020 by Solene Chaudois
— Coping with Trauma-Related Dissociation by Boon, Steele, and Van der Hart
the quote is from a post by @stoffberg
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system ask memes by yours truly!
🖍: how many littles are there? 💋: are any of your headmates dating? 🍎: what are y'alls favorite foods? 👹: how many non-human members are there? 👠: how difficult is it for y'all to agree on one cohesive outfit? 💥: how much in-system fighting is there? ✴️: how many fictives do you have? 🎃: are there any headmates that could be considered scary? (demons/ghosts/vampires/etc.) 🌆: what does your headspace look like? 👂: what kind of music do y'all like? 🤝: are you out as a system to anyone? 😶: any headmates that rarely front? 😱: do your headmates have any phobias? 🗣: who is the main fronter? 🔢: how many headmates are there? 🆕: who’s the newest member? 🛌: which headmates are the caretakers? 🌪: which headmates are the protectors? 🌫: how often do y'all dissociate, if at all? 🕸: what’s your oldest memory of being a system? 💬: free space! tell one cool fact about your system
All systems are valid!
this list is not complete in any way as i just wrote it out at once; this list is about DID/OSDD (diagnosed or not) as that is the only way to have alters
- Systems can have 100+ alters or 2
- Switches can be very noticeable to outsiders or completely invisible
- All alters can have distinct names, ages and birthdays, or not at all
- Alters can have different genders or sexualities, or not at all
- Switches can be abrupt or take as long as hours
- Sometimes you may know who you are, sometimes you may not know at all - either because you’re a blended blob or because you just can’t figure it out
- Systems can switch tons of times in one day or not switch for stretched periods of times (weeks, months)
- Systems can have a distinct host, or not
- Responses to trauma or triggers can be very explicit or hardly noticeable
- Flashbacks can be visual, sensory (smell, sound, taste), emotional, or body-related (and i’m probably forgetting some)
- It’s okay to want to integrate and it’s okay to not want to integrate
- Losing time can be obvious and noticeable to you, or you can be completely unaware to your own amnesia - but remember, not all OSDD systems even experience amnesia
- That being said: amnesia for the past is also a very real amnesia
- Some systems can talk about their traumas, some can’t. Some alters can, others may not. That’s all valid.
- In hindsight you might realize you’ve always “felt plural”, but it’s also completely valid if you never felt anything like that
- Alters in a system can be very different (e.g. handwriting, food preferences, …), but they can also be very similar and have the same preferences
And anything else that’s anywhere between either two things i mentioned









