I think the hardest thing for people to understand about me is that I’m incredibly emotional. Emotions are me. I am emotions. It’s just idk, I’m just scrolling through past friends I’ve had in high school and I’m thinking. Wow. Time has flown by. This is my second year out of high school. Everyone is going around, traveling to places and actually living a life. Whereas I’m still trying to create mine. That’s where I get emotional and I start thinking of every single memory I have of these people. The interactions with these people. I have strong connections with each of them. I never thought I had. The chance of meeting them is amazing. But seeing them living their life, I just. I wanna be there with them ya know. Not physically, but like, idk. Just knowing and seeing how the progress through their life. I wanna know their story. God I’m obsessed with the stories of other people. But I feel like it’s because I don’t have a story of my own. Well it feels like I don’t. I know i do. It’s rather uninteresting. Maybe it’ll get better. But I see my classmates and it’s just like. Damn, everyone has just spread out in this world and became literally just another face. It’s crazy. Idk I’m not making sense lmao but whatever. My thoughts though

It’s funny how like 5 years later. Reading this. I still sort of feel the same. It’s more now of. Okay, I know these people. I’m glad they’re doing what they’re doing with themselves. It’s cool to see but what am I going to do with MYSELF?

Like, I’ve actually came quite a long way since this post. I was working at subway still. Only making probably $11.25 at the time. I believe that was minimum wage at the time. To then maybe 4 years later becoming the manager of a subway. That was exhausting and probably the best.. worst decision of my life. Lmao. It honesty helped me get to the Bank job I have today. And I bought my first ever car with my own money. I also live on my own.. kind of

I tend to forget everything that i have and are only reminded when I see things like this. Like I’m grateful for the place I’m at right now. I even have a boyfriend lol coming up on a year. Like I feel like of low right now cuz money is tight already and I’m not spending it wisely. But I feel like everything else. It has kind came into line. It’s just wow. I like hearing stories of other people. But I’ve had to work on my own. I still don’t know where I’m headed but I’m trying so hard to get up.

I found this again, and I guess now I feel obligated to update this. Peoples and their stories don't interest me much anymore. Yeah it's cool to see what everyone is doing now with their lives. But now, I could see them and think. "Wow, good for them" or "oh god, what did they do." But that's about it. I have a wonderful boyfriend, whom I should treat better. I have that bank job still and I've ranked up a few positions with only being involved here for about a year and a half now. We own a home. Our own place to live. I think Ive finally got the hang of budgeting as well. It's crazy. To read these past posts and remember how much farther I've gotten since I last typed those words. It's crazy to think that I could be even further down the path I'm constantly creating for myself. And to think if more people join, then so be it. I mean I could always use more friends lol but I think I've done quite a bit for myself and I'm realizing how much I've actually done, and I think that makes me a bit happier

— J.M.P

— J.M.P

I think the hardest thing for people to understand about me is that I’m incredibly emotional. Emotions are me. I am emotions. It’s just idk, I’m just scrolling through past friends I’ve had in high school and I’m thinking. Wow. Time has flown by. This is my second year out of high school. Everyone is going around, traveling to places and actually living a life. Whereas I’m still trying to create mine. That’s where I get emotional and I start thinking of every single memory I have of these people. The interactions with these people. I have strong connections with each of them. I never thought I had. The chance of meeting them is amazing. But seeing them living their life, I just. I wanna be there with them ya know. Not physically, but like, idk. Just knowing and seeing how the progress through their life. I wanna know their story. God I’m obsessed with the stories of other people. But I feel like it’s because I don’t have a story of my own. Well it feels like I don’t. I know i do. It’s rather uninteresting. Maybe it’ll get better. But I see my classmates and it’s just like. Damn, everyone has just spread out in this world and became literally just another face. It’s crazy. Idk I’m not making sense lmao but whatever. My thoughts though

It's funny how like 5 years later. Reading this. I still sort of feel the same. It's more now of. Okay, I know these people. I'm glad they're doing what they're doing with themselves. It's cool to see but what am I going to do with MYSELF?

Like, I've actually came quite a long way since this post. I was working at subway still. Only making probably $11.25 at the time. I believe that was minimum wage at the time. To then maybe 4 years later becoming the manager of a subway. That was exhausting and probably the best.. worst decision of my life. Lmao. It honesty helped me get to the Bank job I have today. And I bought my first ever car with my own money. I also live on my own.. kind of

I tend to forget everything that i have and are only reminded when I see things like this. Like I'm grateful for the place I'm at right now. I even have a boyfriend lol coming up on a year. Like I feel like of low right now cuz money is tight already and I'm not spending it wisely. But I feel like everything else. It has kind came into line. It's just wow. I like hearing stories of other people. But I've had to work on my own. I still don't know where I'm headed but I'm trying so hard to get up.

Some friends, even though you haven’t spoken in months, don’t go anywhere. Some friends, who you see once in over 6 months, see you at a bus station and hug you so tightly in hurts to breathe. Some friends, though distant, have thought about you as much as you’ve thought about them. Some friends are worth everything. Send them a message with a smile. They will respond. It is these friends that will make you cry. Not because they’re mean or have hurt you, but because you’ve missed them that much. And they’ve missed you.

Do u ever have that one person that you don’t speak to anymore but their humour was literally you’re doppelgänger and the memes I find so funny you can’t send them to anyone bc they won’t find it as funny as u and this other person that’s no longer in ur life ?

Yh

The Friend Break-Up Playlist

We Use To Be Friends by The Dandy Warhols

In Spite of the World by The Ataris

Little Differences by Save Ferris

Ignorance by Paramore

The Real You by The Dance Hall Crashers

If You Hate Your Friends You’re Not Alone by Pretty Girls Make Graves

Your Friend by Save Ferris

Jacked on Green Beers by Alkaline Trio

C’mon By Go Betty Go

Sorry My Friend By Save Ferris

Forgive and Forget by The Get Up Kids

My Imaginary Friend by Reel Big Fish

Friend is a Four Letter Word by Cake

The Uselessness of Friends by The Reputation

Fake Friends by Joan Jet and The Blackhearts

You Don’t Know Me Anymore The Methadones

Ghost In The Bottle by Versus the World

White Houses by Vanessa Carlton

Not a Worry In the World by The Ataris

Response to Griot by Defiance, Ohio

Friends Forever by Old 97’s

Calling Old Friends by Defiance Ohio

In Spite of the World Covered by Versus the World

We Use To Be Friends Covered by Dashboard Confessional

I couldn’t find all the songs listed above, but there’s the playlist if anyone needs it.

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/2JStgpGi9LAtqAMG9Z3rY5?si=80f4123c076746c4

https://savemyonlinefriendsfromghosts.com/2021/06/15/the-friend-break-up-playlist/

meeting old friends is so bittersweet bc it's like... hey i knew you, i spoke to you, now you're this whole other person w this whole other life and it's kinda amazing but also like... how did we get here? how were we so close, and how did we become strangers?? it's incredible, but also scary and kinda sad idk