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momento mori.

@his-only-eleven

Elle Ω eightteen Ω The Hopeless Poetic Romantic.

if you see this on your dash,

  • Adjust your posture
  • Get a drink of water or some food if you haven’t ate/drank lately
  • Take your meds if you forgot to
  • Do something nice for yourself and/or someone else
  • Check to make sure you set the phone/clock alarm you needed
  • Take the chicken/pork chops/whatever out of the freezer
  • Make sure your pets/plants have fresh food and water
  • Put on some lip balm/chapstick
  • Do at least part of the assignment/reading/task you’ve been putting off
  • Schedule that appointment you needed
  • Do your skincare routine
  • Toss out any expired food and make a note of what you have to restock
  • Take any dirty dishes or empty cans/water bottles out of your room and wash/dispose of them accordingly
  • Call in that prescription that you need to get refilled
  • Go to the bathroom– stop holding your pee because tumblr scrolling procrastination. It’s not good for you.

sexualities...

Heterosexual- The attraction to a gender different from their own (commonly used to describe someone who is gender binary [female or male] attracted to the other binary gender).

Homosexual- The attraction to a gender the same as their own (commonly used to describe someone who is gender binary [female or male] attracted to the same binary gender).  Sometimess referred to asgay.

Lesbian- Women who are attracted only to other women

Bisexual- When you are attracted to two or more genders.  This term is generally used to describe being attracted to men and women, but can apply to being attracted to any two or more genders. Note that you do not have to be equally attracted to each gender.

Pansexual- When you are attracted to all genders and/or do not concern gender when you are attracted towards someone

Bicurious- People who are open to experiment with genders that are not only their own, but do not know if they are open to forming any sort of relationship with multiple genders.

Polysexual- When you are attracted to many genders

Monosexual- Being attracted to only one gender

Allosexual- When you are not asexual (attracted to at least one gender)

Androsexual- Being attracted to masculine gender presentation

Gynosexual- Being attracted to feminine gender presentation

Questioning- People who are debating their own sexuality/gender

Asexual- Not experiencing sexual attraction (note that you can also be aromantic and you do not necessarily have to be asexual and aromantic at the same time).  Sometimes the term, ace, is used to describe asexuals.

Demisexual- When you only experience sexual attraction after forming a strong emotional bond first or a romantic bond

Grey Asexual- When you only experience attraction rarely, on a very low scale, or only under certain circumstances

Perioriented- When your sexual and romantic orientation targets the same gender (for example being heteromantic and heterosexual or being biromantic and bisexual)

Varioriented- When your sexual and romantic orientations do not target the same set of genders (for example being heteromantic and bisexual or being homoromantic and pansexual)

Heteronormative- The belief that hetersexuality is the norm and that sex, gender, sexuality, and gender roles all align

Erasure- Ignoring the existance of genders and sexualities in the middle of the spectrum

Cishet- Someone who is both cisgendered and heterosexual.  This is sometimes used as a slur.

Polyamorous- An umbrella term referring to people who have or are open to have consensually have relationships with multiple people at the same time

Monoamorous- People who have or or open to have relationships with only one other person at a time.  The term, monogamous, is also sometimes used.

Queer- A reclaimed slur for anybody in the LGBT+ community or who do not identify as cisgender and/or hetersexual/heteromantic

Ally- A supporter of the LGBT+ community that does not identify as LGBT+

GENDER & SEX

Sex- Your assigned gender at birth and/or the gender of your reproductive organs

Gender- Where you feel that you personally fall on the spectrum between male and female. Commonly people identify as male or female, but some fall in the middle or move throughout the spectrum.

Cisgender- When you identify with the gender you were assigned at birth

Transgender- When you identify with a gender different than that you were assigned at birth

Transsexual- When you have had Gender Reassignment Surgery (GRS) to change the sexual organs you were born with to that of a different gender.

*note that you will sometimes see an astrid after Trans (Trans*) which is meant to include both transgendered and transsexual individuals

Male to Female (MtF)- When somebody that is assigned as a male at birth identifies as a female

Female to Male (FtM)- When somebody that is assigned as a female at birth identifies as a  male

Binary- The genders at each end of the gender spectrum (male and female)

Non-Binary- An umbrella term for genders that fall somewhere in the middle of the gender spectrum and are neither strictly male or female.  This can be used as a gender identification without further explanation.  Sometimes the term, genderqueer, is used.

Genderfluid- Moving between genders or having a fluctuating gender identity

Agender- Not identifying with any gender.  Sometimes referred to as being genderless or gendervoid

Bigender-  Identifying as two genders, commonly (but not exclusively) male and female.  Sometimes you feel like both genders at the same time and sometimes you fluctuate.

Polygender- When you identify with multiple genders at once.  Sometimes referred to as multigender.

Neutrois- When you identify as agender, neither male nor female, and/or genderless

Gender Apathetic- When you really do not identify nor care about any particular gender.  You are fine passing off as whatever and you really do not have an opinion towards your own gender.

Androgyne- This term overlaps a lot between gender identification and presentation.  It can be used to describe others and as an identification.   This term is used to describe people who are neither male nor female or are both male and female.  Basically anyone who does not fit into a binary gender category.

Intergender- Somebody who's gender is somewhere between male and female

Demigender- When you feel as if you are one part a defined gender and one or more parts an undefined gender.  Terms can include demigirl, demiboy, demiagender, ect.

Greygender- Somebody with a weak gender identification of themselves

Aporagender- Somebody with a strong gender identification of themselves that is non-binary

Maverique- A non-binary gender that exists outside of the orthodox social bounds of gender

Novigender- A gender that is super complex and impossible to describe in a single term

Designated gender- A gender assigned at birth based on an individuals sex and/or what gender society percieves a person to be

AFAB- Assigned Female At Birth

AMAB- Assigned Male At Birth

Gender roles- Certain behaviors an activities expected/considered acceptable of people in a particular society based upon their designated gender

Gender Presentation- The gender you present yourself to others.  This is sometimes referred to asgender expression

Transitioning- The process of using medical means to change your sex

Intersex- A biological difference in sex that is when people are born with genitals, gonads, and/or chromosomes that do not match up exactly with male or female.  Intersex individuals can have any romantic/sexual orientation and can have any gender identification.  Intersex individuals are about as common as redheads.

Dyadic- Someone who is not intersex and when their gentinals, gonads, and chromosomes can all match into either a male or female category

Trans Woman- Someone who is assigned as a male at birth, but identifies as a woman

Trans Man- Someone who is assigned as a female at birth, but identifies as a man

Trans Feminine- Someone who identifies as feminine, but identifies as neither a man nor a woman.  They must also be assigned male at birth.

Trans Masculine- Someone who identifies as masculine, but identifies as neither a man nor a woman.  They must also be assigned female at birth.

Social Dysphoria- Discomfort experienced when acting in ways socially different than your gender or being addressed in ways different to your gender

Body Dysphoria- Discomfort experienced because of the difference between gender and your sex, role, or gender expression

Butch- A term used to describe someone who's gender expression is more masculine than feminine.  This is commonly used in describing women or lesbians.

Femme (Fem)- A term used to describe someone who's gender expression is more feminine than masculine.  This is commonly used in describing women or lesbians.

Binarism- Putting gender strictly into two categories (male and female) and refusing to acknowledge genders outside of male and female.

I wont tell you how i feel. But at least i can show you.

Those unexpected nights were i can just sit with you and talk about absolutely anything under the moon or beyond.

Corner of the Universe.

It was these days spending countless hours doing nothing was so much fun. It was these days i wanted to stay in that little cafe until the manager had to kick us out. It was those days where staying in your arms was the safest ive ever been. Couldnt we have stayed that way. Why couldnt we...

Heres to my best friend. . . I love you. Thank you for sticking with me after all this time. And heres to our pact to be single this 2018.

your eyes have grown tired

in this night or morning of our conversation

a talk that took until 3 in the morning

and again the way we speak is as if i were completely myself

or maybe i am who i think i should be

in another universe, we would make different choices

filled with endless possibilities

but all we have is this universe and this reality

how is it that all this is happening now?

where again the universe is at work

leading us down a path that seems to be endless

as though we were falling down a dark abyss

never quite knowing where we will be brought

a portal to another universe, maybe?

or maybe i have just fallen into your eyes

and unable to rip myself from them

until my own eyes have grown tired.

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“-We need more love, to supersede hatred, -We need more strength, to resist our weaknesses, -We need more inspiration, to lighten up our innermind. -We need more learning, to erase our ignorance, -We need more wisdom, to live longer and happier, -We need more truths, to suppress deceptions, -We need more health, to enjoy our wealth, -We need more peace, to stay in harmony with our brethren -We need more smiles, to brighten up our day, -We need more hero's, and not zero's, -We need more change of ourselves, to change the lives of others, -We need more understanding, to tackle our misunderstanding, -We need more sympathy, not apathy, -We need more forgiveness, not vengeance, -We need more humility to be lifted up, -We need more patience and not undue eagerness, -We need more focus, to avoid distraction, -We need more optimism, not pessimism -We need more justice, not injustice, -We need more facts, not fiction, -We need more education, to curb illiteracy, -We need more skills, not incompetence, -We need more challenges, to make attempts, -We need more talents, to create the extraordinary, -We need more helping hands, not stingy folks, -We need more efforts, not laziness, -We need more jokes, to forget our worries, -We need more spirituality, not mean religion, -We need more freedom, not enslavement, -We need more peacemakers, not revolutionaries...with these, we create an heaven on earth.”

<3 

a violet heart. a representation of my agony and sorrow. caused by the this harsh and cruel world we live in. the only place we can live in. we say we want peace yet dont have the courage to stand for it, we want peace yet we have bombs. we want life but we have abortion, we love life but we kill. what has our world become. just another mind field for another to play on? another battle field for others to fight over. another life lost for a cause forced upon oneself. who have we become? who should we be? who are we?

Walang ginagawa ang mga bituin Kundi pagmasdan ang mga mangingibig.

Isang gabi, kapag ikaw ay umiibig, Tumingala ka sa mga bituin. Malasin mo ang kanilang ningning, Ligaya mo’y sinasalamin.

Mabait ang mga bituin. Sa mga mangingibig Isa lamang ang hiling: Umibig, umibig, umibig Nang may magawa ang mga bituin.

Walang ginagawa ang mga bituin Kundi pagmasdan ang mga mangingibig.

Isang gabi, kung masawi ka sa pag-ibig Tumingala kang muli sa mga bituin; Pati liwanag, nagiging dilim At tamis ng puso’y dahan-dahang umaasim.

Malupit ang mga bituin. Sa mga bigo sa pag-ibig Labis ang hinihiling: Umibig, umibig, umibig pa rin Nang may magawa ang mga bituin.

Kailangan nating maghiwalay

upang malaman natin kalaunan

kung mayroon nga tayong pinagsamahan,

kung buo pa rin tayong dalawa kahit wala na 'yung isa,

kung mabibitbit ba natin ang pinagsaluhan nating mga sarap kahit tapos na ang salu-salo,

kung magaling nga tayong magtanim ng mga halamang hindi habambuhay na aasa sa hardinero,

at kung maisasakatuparan ba natin

at mapalalaganap nang libong doble pa

ang mga sarili at pangarap na

magkasabay nating hinubog.

"Hindi ang isa't isa ang tinitingnan ng mga nagmamahalan,

kundi ang kanilang iisang hantungan." (Antoine de Saint-Exupery)

Sa mundong bilog,

maghihiwalay tayo,

palayo sa isa't isa,

at magsisikap umabot sa pinakamalayo nating maaabot.

At dahil bilog nga ang mundo,

magkakasalubong muli tayo kung hindi tayo titigil sa pag-usad.

At dahil marami na tayong pinagdaanan sa pagkakataong ito,

mas mayaman na ang mga babaunin nating mapagsasaluhan.

At dahil hindi natin binitawan ang tamis ng dating ugnayan,

parang pag-uwi ang muli nating pagkikita,

magbabatian tayo sa lumang paraang nakagawian,

magkakamayan dahil sa kanya-kanyang naging kapalaran,

magkukumustahan upang makahabol sa mga bagay na 'di na natin nasubaybayan,

at saka tayo mahigpit na mahigpit,

tigib ng pangungulila at pag-ibig

at parang kahapon lamang,

na magyayakapan.

Hanggang sa muli...

Hiwalayan lang ito, hindi paalaman,

at kay tamis ng pangako ng hiwalayan!

THIS IS FOR YOU. if you’ll see it in time

sorry but i’ll confess, i don’t know what i’m doing in this place. but maybe you can teach me how to keep living one day at a time. but if you cant that’s okay i’ll just show myself out

maybe i’m failing. maybe i’m gone. but you’ll be fine and maybe i’m six feet under.

i was good and i was fine, but the day i met you you made me realize that wasn’t true. so i’m with you now and i’m crying out “i won’t do this anymore”

someday i wont breath. someday i cannot stay. maybe you’ll never need me as much as i need you.

and they will never be as crazy as you and me.

right now i just wanna breakdown cause i finally realized how broken i was. idk what im supposed to be writing. just a rush of so many emotions makes my heart burst... in other words its to painful... i cant take it anymore. not school. not my family. not my friends. not this life i should be so happy i have (???) in all honesty i hate life. it sucks and people are cruel and there is no one to be trusted. and i mean no one

part one

in the darkness she lived. the light brings me only pain. yet there in the boarder of the light he stood. soaked in bright, shimmering goodness. he saw her in that moment everything was still. and their eyes met. he reached out his hand to her. yet she denied him and left.