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life of an anxiety-induced stresser

@hidden-existence

You are strong as fuck and brave as hell. You are beautiful and worthy to be loved. | I'm just trying to love myself and find a little good in the world while I'm at it. | 21 | She/her | Lesbian | Destiney ❤️
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Number one best character trait you can give to any character is profound kindness. Number two is huge bitch. Number 3 is dumb of ass. They should all be the same person.

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fandom spaces should be fun for trans girls too

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there’s like… never any good fanart of fanfic about trans girl headcanons (especially not in femslash stuff) and that’s so heartbreaking, because i thought it would be different by the time i was an adult and it just isn’t. while people make other LGB and nb and transmasc fanfics/fanart/etc it feels like trans girls are always left behind. i wouldn’t care so much but i know so many young trans girls with no avenue to explore themselves and their identities in fandom spaces. doesn’t that break your heart?

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do u not ever wonder why there are so few openly transfem people in fandom spaces comparatively to how many transmasc people there are? it’s because we don’t feel valued or treated like people enough to feel safe to be in these spaces to begin with, let alone openly and visibly

ive said it before, ill say it again. the only kind of pasta i like has a red sauce. i dont care how well made your shrimp alfredo is, i cant stand the consistency or texture. i dont like the creaminess. i want that sweet sweet marinara, baby.

jesus fucking christ man

just fuck off

one of us still stands. remember this lesson.

i know people are good because of this: the universe often assigns me side quests. in a circular strangeness; despite my inability to locate my-own-anything, i am almost-always finding someone else’s lost things. dogs, coats, phones, cash, laptops. it happens so often it’s almost tiring; suddenly being looped into a tiny amount of detective work.

but when i’m with other people who are not used to this: the response is almost invariably delight. yes, maybe they are simply thrilled by the mystery. it’s just… they light up so much. i think maybe more… i think they like the opportunity to do something kind.

a few weeks ago, i was at a bar and i found a wallet as soon as we stepped outside. i felt nervous to ask for help, worried i would be holding up the night. i picked it up and said go on without me, i should help this get back to its home.

instead, three people pulled out their phones - to find him on facebook, to help cancel his credit cards. two people went back into the bar to tell the bartender, two others went calling down the street. group texts, facebook posts, instagram stories. people, without even seeing what happened, start offering help to me. fifteen minutes and: someone knows someone who knows the guy. the cheer that went up - just for finding him, just for this small thing. someone gets him on the phone. strangers dance around me, hopping on their feet - are you the girl that found that wallet? good for you, that’s a good thing you’re doing/same thing happened to me and somebody did what you’re doing and i thank god everyday for people like you/i can’t believe you found him so fast this is so exciting

i gave it back to him in a parking lot. i watched his shoulders sag with relief. there was cash in it still - he checked the pocket, and then sheepishly held the money out to me. i didn’t take it. i held up my hands. “it’s no problem, man. i know you’d do the same for me.”

i don’t know him, to be honest. i don’t know if he is the same kind of person i am. but he nodded at me.

and i know people are good. i know people are good, because the way this story ends isn’t surprising. we wave goodbye awkwardly. my friend loops their arm around me.

“i can’t believe we got it back to him,” they said. “i’m going to be riding that high for weeks.

"how do you know your friends don't secretly hate you/find you annoying" baby i've said things in discord servers that would make any other human being get a restraining order and move countries to never encounter my presence on this earth again, and they haven't even blocked me

if my friends hated my guts they simply would not keysmash in response to some of the worst sentences ever put together by the human mind

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Deeply deeply perverse watching US reporters and politicians praise Ukrainians for resisting Russian troop advancement. Not because they shouldn't but because of how complicit the US has been in portraying any act of Palestinian resistance to occupation; even as small as a child throwing a rock, as justification for that child and their family being massacred by the IDF. remember this the next time Palestine manages to make it into American news. Remember this if Yemen ever makes into the news.

African students fleeing Ukraine aren’t being allowed into Poland or are being met with difficulty. There is a literal war and white people are being racist as hell, still. There is absolutely nothing that can excuse or explain that. 

"going out would be more fun if it sucked ass"

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i think this would be very enjoyable and enriching for a pet 1980s businessman, or Jerma

My university’s student bar did this at the end of our term, it was called “stocks and shares night” and it was fucking spectacular.

Every tv was set up with screens listing the prices, and it would update with every sale, and the goal was to clear out the bars stock by the end of the night.

It wasn’t just beer, it was every spirit, wine and cider they had in stock. It was beautiful chaos. You’d start off ordering rank shit you’d never had before (tequila rose wtf) and within an hour you had groups working together to strategically tank or raise prices.

At one point everyone had stopped ordering jäger until It was like 50p a shot and then one person would go up and order 30 shots for £15, thus triggering it skyrocketing to £3 a shot. Ive never seen such impressive organisation and teamwork in a bar before. I have never had a worse hangover in my life.

most damaging idea of the 21st century: the conviction of vast numbers of people that human history will end within our lifetimes

climate change represents world-altering tragedy if unchecked, but not even in the worst-case scenario does it mean “literally everyone dies”

yet so many people have jumped already to “it’s over, the world is going to end, we can do nothing about it” and are just paralyzingly cynical. How do I explain that the power to imagine a future is essential for creating it

you know the thing where trauma can cause you to just. not expect to live much longer so when you get to 30 you don’t know what to do because you thought you’d be dead by 25

That is happening to all of us right now on a society-wide scale

A lot of people are like. REALLY angry at me for suggesting that “be depressed and do nothing” isn’t necessarily the only response to climate change.

this, this, this, this, this, this, and like, 700 other sources will tell you that most of the effects of climate change will be reversible even if we pass the ‘threshold’ of a 1.5 degrees Celsius increase in global temperature

BUT. Even if the worst happens, it will be important to be doing things other than wallowing in misery???

I’m not trying to be callous but for people living today it’s wildly unlikely for the results to be “literally immediate death.”

People will get displaced from their homes by rising sea levels. We have like, years, probably decades, before that happens. It seems so fucked up to decide that we should do nothing, because we’ve already decided they’re going to die anyway????

If a bunch of us are going to die, why not die trying to help each other? Why not try to make sure fewer people die? Why not do something that might reduce someone’s suffering or give them food or clean water or a place to sleep?

I don’t know how to explain to you that people need socks during the apocalypse

Important.

Literally even in the most severe, cynical, and immediate predictions made by scientists rapid climate change is far away from now. If it does happen it’ll take effect over the span of a decade or so, no a day.

And there’s still hope! Did you know the hole in the ozone layer is closing? It was actually caused by one specific chemical that’s been banned. A lot of endangered wildlife populations are growing because of so many efforts to protect them. Many mining companies are being prevented from mining in our remaining clean waters and forests. We have all the technology we need to reverse this crisis, it’s just a matter of implementing it.

It will be ok. Things are improving. People are getting on board. Don’t lose hope while we still have a chance to use it.

My mom was just reminding me earlier about Copper Hill, Tennessee, which I encourage y'all to look up

In the 1980’s, the area was absolutely devastated by copper mining, to the point that the land had a “Martian” appearance. It was utterly devoid of vegetation and wildlife. No trees, no grass, no frogs, nothing.

I own a historical fiction book, A Bird on Water Street, about how the area was restored. The astonishing thing about this place is that people were able to fix the damage.

In a lot of ways in the 80’s and 90’s, many species and environments were successfully saved from the brink of disaster.

Does anyone remember DDT? As the above poster said above, CFC’s contributing to the ozone hole? Do y'all remember how saturated the 1970’s were with lead and asbestos and all sorts of toxic shit? Getting specific chemicals banned or working to save specific species DOES HELP.

I’m begging everyone to research conservation projects going on near them, like, in or near their hometown. The state of Kentucky very successfully reintroduced elk to the mountains after they went extinct there. There are examples like this everywhere.

Things look bad and they’re scary but they would be a lot worse if the people before us hadn’t worked their asses off trying to preserve the world for us. People are out there working hard to save the world right now.

There is still time.

Conservation success stories of 2021. Last year, several species believed to be extinct were rediscovered, long-dead preserved specimens of endangered ferrets were cloned, and several species that nearly went extinct had population explosions.

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How do I explain that the power to imagine a future is essential for creating it