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Hey I’m A Mermaid

@heyimmermaiding-blog

I am convinced different people awaken different beasts in you
At the start, before the privilege of meeting you fell, I thought hopeless was the pattern. I was callous, so it seemed. Everyone looked elated, exhilerated. All I experienced was regret and grief, much much grief. Day by day this thing known as the black slug swallowed every bit of ecstasy leaving nothing but a bunch of despair. Yes, I despised every inch of it. No, I did not choose this life, who would? However, the inevitable happened...You appeared out of the void. Since that sight, not even vodka could paralyze and numb those thoughts. On the contrary, day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute, the memory of your face took shape in my mind more clearly than before. How could i have forgotten you?Whether my eyes were open or close, whether i was sleeping or awake, you were always before me. Even though the caress of your gaze and the profound delight i had experienced had been only momentary and devoid of reciprocity, yet i felt the need of those eyes. Terrified, I took a decision which altered my life. What seemed as a curse, turned out to be a blessing. I made a step towards the blue where my expectations where exceeded. Hence I started waking up with a smile ever since, for the thought of you kept haunting me. It was you, the reason I move forward, the remaining light in my miserable life, the person I would die to impress. When I managed to earn your love, a feeling took over. That feeling when veins go numb, when tears leave a mark, when words fail to express. It was exotic to adapt, I never encountered someone who would cherish me. You made it seem so simple, yet your face made me go mad. I would never replace a hug from you, nor could I ever forget the moment our lips touched. The sweetness of your kiss left me feeling stranded for days,how could i ever not recall each second of it? And as I pour my heart and tears for you sweetheart, I am certain you are worth all this and beyond more.You deserve all the praise i could give, and all the fondness I could provoke. Even though i spend most, if not all, of my time thinking about you I feel like it is not enough. I am forever in your debt darling. And no, im not squandering my time,for me it is a need. I need you, I freaking need you. I need that beautiful smile of yours, those eyes, those lips,everything you behold. I got addicted to you so easily... The thing is, i want us to last, i cant handle the thought of losing you. I want us to grow wrinkles together, to share the same ceiling, and above them all, I want you to be the one to have my last name. No matter how much words i utter, nothing would depict my insides. From being on the verge of falling of a cliff, to claiming the unreachable, all due to you. You are my all. Would you grant me the honor, of claiming you mine? -PY

(@heyimmermaiding on tumblr) Passage from my unwritten stories “El Amor”

remember my little friend, if you want to be successful, you will be talked about, so if you're not ready for the later, don't dream of success

(@heyimmermaiding on tumblr) Passage from my unwritten stories "Des Experiences de la Vie"

I wonder whose arms I'd end up in if i was desperately drunk in a room with the two of you

(@heyimmermaiding on tumblr) Passage from my unwritten stories "A love not given a chance - died before living"

She was sugar, and he was acid and when they collided; they formed black crap

(@heyimmermaiding on tumblr) Passage from my unwritten stories "My Dark Plantations"

Pain changes people, so the next time you see me, don't tell me i changed, but know that you caused it

(@heyimmermaiding on tumblr) Passage from my unwritten stories "My Dark Plantations"

I wonder when people will choose me, then i ask myself why i don't even choose myself

(@heyimmermaiding on tumblr) Passage from my unwritten stories "My Dark Plantations"

Forget him, he wouldn't sacrifice one of his stars for you when he had a whole galaxy in the palm of his hand

(@heyimmermaiding on tumblr) Passage from my unwritten stories "Deliberately chosing yourself over others"

No one does anything if they don't want to. If he hurt you, he did it willingly. If he cheated, he consented. If he fucking broke you, he knew about the pain he'd inflict, he just didn't care enough to stop

(@heyimmermaiding on tumblr) Passage from my unwritten stories "Deliberately choosing yourself over others"

As a child i was convinced that bullies bully because they have been oppressed and hurt and treated just like their victims in the past, and that this is their coping mechanism. But now that I've grown up, i realize that was the idealist 'me' trying to see the good in people even when there was no good. Bullies are monsters and there is no excuse as to why they do that. How many suicides will it take for people to realize the shit they say hurts?

(@heyimmermaiding on tumblr) Passage from my unwritten stories “Des Experiences de la Vie”

One day his eyes shone like the sun; the next, he had become my sun

(@heyimmermaiding on tumblr) Passage from my unwritten stories “A day in the life of a hopeless romantic”

Take a second to realize how many beautiful memories you've made and how many gorgeous people you've met, how many stunning sunsets you've witnessed and how many more you will, if you just hold on. Please hold on

(@heyimmermaiding on tumblr) Passage from my unwritten stories “Des Experiences de la Vie”

What's the tea flavor of the bags under yours eyes?

(@heyimmermaiding on tumblr) Passage from my unwritten stories “Purple skies and bubblegum oceans”

He drinks and she smokes and i fall in love, we're all dying slowly

(@heyimmermaiding on tumblr) Passage from my unwritten stories “A day in the life of a hopeless romantic” 

first loves are too overrated, they break your heart, leave and you remember them forever. What about your second love that proved to you love still exists? That's a better deed to be remembered for

(@heyimmermaiding on tumblr) Passage from my unwritten stories “A day in the life of a hopeless romantic”

While you were too busy saying let her dance, thinking i'll come back into your arms, i found someone that took my hand and danced with me beneath the stars

(@heyimmermaiding on tumblr) Passage from my unwritten stories “Deliberately choosing yourself over others”

It's a difficult choice, the person you're crazy about versus the person crazy about you, my opinion? They should be the same person

(@heyimmermaiding on tumblr) “A day in the life of a hopeless romantic” 

I don't know how to flirt to make her fall in love, i'm really bad at this thing, so i make her laugh and hope she falls for me, but every time she laughs, I'm the one that falls in love

(@heyimamermaid on tumblr) Passage from my unwritten stories “Purple skies and bubblegum oceans”

I remember dancing around in my underwear last night, singing at the top of my lungs about how much i don't care about you and how i'd never get back to you not even if the stars and moon collide, yet I'm here today waiting for a call i know i won't be getting, wondering and hoping for you to be just as bipolar as i am

(@heyimamermaid on tumblr) Passage from my unwritten stories “My Dark Plantations”

Why are girls never warned about beautiful boys with eyes as deep as the ocean and smiles that make her heart beat so fast that she wonders if it will burst out of her chest. Why are girls not warned about gentlemen that go from opening doors to slamming them in her face, with no previous acknowledgements

(@heyimmermaiding on tumblr) Passage from my unwritten stories “Des Experiences de la Vie”

He was perfect in every sense i can imagine. A perfect mystery and a perfect man, but he was also a perfect disaster and i was perfectly sure i deserved better

(@heyimmermaiding on tumblr) Passage from my unwritten stories “Deliberately choosing yourself over others”