It’s been a long, long time since I’ve memorized your face It’s been four hours now since I’ve wandered through your place

And when I sleep on your couch I feel very safe And when you bring the blankets I cover up my face

I do love you I do love you

And when you play guitar

I listen to the strings buzz

The metal vibrates underneath your fingers

And when you crochet

I feel mesmerized and proud

And I would say I love you

But saying it out loud is hard

So I won’t say it at all

And I won’t stay very long

But you are life I needed all along

I think of you as my brother

Although that sounds dumb

And words are futile devices

“I am homesick for a place I am not sure even exists. One where my heart is full. My body loved. And my soul understood.”