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A little late but 10 tropes as promised. 💙🧡💙

His girl

Pairing: Jamie Henson x Plus Size Reader

Summary: You were his secret, but you didn’t want to be anymore…

Note: I’ve been so obsessed with this show another shout out to @halsmultibitch​ for getting me on this show!

Warnings🛑: smut(unprotected sex, slight choking), fat shaming

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1993

Being from a small town has lots of consequences…especially being known as the ‘fat’ girl…

Anonymous asked:

Hey I'm sorry to ask, but do you have updates for korean dramas? I can't find the link to your old one but also maybe some newer suggestions? (It's okay if you don't!)

It’s cool, I can do a new one! These are all in the order that I watched them in!

WARNING: LONG POST AHEAD

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Let Me Give You A Hand

Summary: An offhand comment about you being too heavy for your boyfriend to pick up, offends Bucky more than you thought possible. Now he has to show you how wrong you are. 

Pairing: Beefy Bucky Barnes x Reader

Warnings: Implied smut, fluff

A/N: Prompt based on an ask from @marvelmaree. Not beta’d all mistakes are my own. 

𝘗𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵, 𝘳𝘦𝘣𝘭𝘰𝘨 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 (𝘐 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵)

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The first time you mentioned it, it was a casual remark, you didn’t think anything of it, but Bucky was confused. Very confused. He thought maybe it was some strange saying women from this time said. But it bothered him that you wouldn’t let him help you. 

So he brought it up to Sam, explaining how he tried to lift you up so that you could reach into the back of the top cabinet, however, you gently slapped his hands away saying you were too much, too heavy and he would throw out his back. 

That led to an entire conversation that he never thought he would have. He never considered that you would have any insecurities, why would he when Bucky thought you were perfection.

 He spent the entire drive home mulling it over and the only flaw that he could come up with was that you didn’t think he couldn’t lift you up, that you believed that you were too heavy for him. 

And he did not like that.

 When he walked into the house, Bucky found you sitting on the couch watching Netflix, he studied you for a good five minutes, getting closer and closer until his nose was touching yours. 

You look up from the screen to see an irate Bucky glaring at you, and you can’t figure out why. “Uh, Bucky, you okay?” you ask slowly, moving back into the cushions. 

“You don’t think I can handle you, huh?” he challenges, placing his arms around you, “you think you’re too heavy for me?” His offended tone lingering in the air. 

You stammer out, “well I, I mean, I didn’t want you to drop me or anything.” 

And that sets him off. He has plans already forming in his mind. He nods, his narrowed blue eyes peering into yours, “okay then, doll.” 

He walks away with a laugh, “we’ll see about that.” 

You stare at his retreating body. “We shall see about that!” 

That night, you’re walking out of the bathroom about to go to sleep when he scoops you up with his right hand and holds you in the air, ignoring your startled shrieks, he walks around to your side of the bed and gently lays you down. 

You look up shocked and mildly confused for the second time today, Bucky smirks at you and places a kiss on your lips. 

“Goodnight, doll.” He has a smug air about him, his blue eyes telling you he’s right and you’re wrong. It’s intoxicating, and he loves it. Not as much as he loves you but it’s pretty damn close 

The next morning, the previous incident is forgotten as you drag yourself awake and search for the caffeine you need to survive Monday. You shuffle to the kitchen, a quick press of a button on the fancy machine that Tony gave you, and the familiar aroma of coffee floats through the air. 

Don’t Hold Your Breath

request: “Reader is new to the avengers, she is secluding herself in her room and not making conversation. Everyone thinks she hates them and that they make her uncomfortable. Bucky goes to her room but noticed the door was open, she wasn’t in there but what he found was incredible. Drawings of all of the avengers in a sketchbook as gifts for being so shy and distant. He basically fucking melts when he sees the sketch of him done so beautifully.”

summary: when your shyness gets mistaken for you disliking the team, bucky tries his best to mend the situation.

pairing: bucky barnes x female reader

warnings: fluff, sad reader, one curse word

word count: 2k

A/N: okay so i absolutely loved writing this!!! i also gave a little twist to the request by making the reader a mutant (like the x-men) !!!!!

as always, feedback is greatly appreciated, come yell at me and tell me your secrets here!

You huffed and set down your sketchbook as F.R.I.D.A.Y. informed you that the team’s weekly movie night was soon to begin, not wanting to leave the comfort of your designated room. It wasn’t that you didn’t enjoy the movie nights or dislike the team, it was simply the fact that you felt out of place.

Being the only member of The Avengers who came from a mutant background was tough, growing up in a world where you were a outsider was tough and integrating into a new group of people was tough. Everyone on the team either had a suit, a weapon or a particular skill set that made them different from each other but your skill set was very, very different.

Invisibility wasn’t everything it was cracked up to be in movies and television. If you wanted to disappear from the eyes of those around you, you would have to  hold your breath. No matter how long you needed to disappear for, you had to hold your breath every time if you wanted to stay hidden.

Although you were born with your mutation, it took you a good while to get it to work to your advantage. Hide and seek became the easiest game in the world, you always won no matter what, hiding from strangers who had grudges against mutants was fairly easy and disappearing in the middle of a crowded room was a piece of cake.

The Truth Will Set You Free- Part 4

Pairing: Bucky x Female Reader, Thor x Reader (other Avenger characters)

AU: Modern

Summary: You dated for two years, and thought he was the one for you. One day you came home and found him with someone else. After running away from you, you return home and found yourself in the arms of Thor. When Thor decides to introduce you to his friends at a dinner, you realize that there’s something familiar about the house you were visiting.

Warnings: implied cheating, language (not proofread)

You take a deep breath as you knock on the door, hoping and praying that he is here. Your heart rates spikes when you hear his heavy footsteps head toward the door. When it opens you see a distraught Thor standing in front of you. When his eyes meet your they get icy. Before he can make a move you step further into the doorway.

to lose a lover (3) | c.e

pairing: chris evans x actress!reader 

summary: you and chris were best friends, he dated jenny until he didn’t, you stayed to pick up the pieces of his broken heart, falling for him and becoming his lover, only for him to leave you for the woman he once loved. (based on this request)

word count: 2.1k

warnings: ANGST, nsfw themes, it’s just painful 

a/n: hello! i’m back with chapter 3, it’s angsty and it took a playlist of sad songs and a full day to write it, so i hope you will like it and if you did, please let me know, thank you! 

thank you for reading, i really appreciate every like and reblog! 

You stared at the Oscar invitation that had been lying on your coffee table for the last two days as you contemplated whether you should go or not, you knew that the news of Chris and you having broken up had spread like wildfire, thanks to the media, and multiple twitter threads online that simply made the news bigger.

“You’re kidding me,” she had said when you picked up your phone only to see what the latest gossip sites had posted, “Jenny Slate the new Mrs Evans?”. That had stung like hell, well, more like hurt because it had been barely a month after you had seen Chris and Jenny at the quaint café that you had once thought was you and Chris’s special place.

It had taken everything in you not to break as you walked away, god, it was hard seeing the man that you loved with the entirety of your heart offering his love to someone else that wasn’t you, and as if to make it worse, you had to find his clothes still buried in some of yours, and as if on instinct, you had taken them out, holding it close to your chest, inhaling Chris’s scent as your tears stained the fabric, that night you slept with it by your side, and as much as you hated yourself for it, you still loved Chris, and simply put, there was just no way for you to get over the one man you had fallen for, pined for and loved for so long.

You had scrolled down the page only to see Chris outside a jewelry store, more specifically Cartier, he had a cap pulled over his face and sunglasses, but you could never mistake that boyish smile that was painted on his face, and you could feel your heart sink into the pit of your stomach as you looked at the picture that was seemingly mocking you silently.

“(Y/n), don’t-“

“It’s fine Nat, I-I, Chris, he was gonna propose to her before they broke up,” you replied softly, tears brimming at the corner of your eyes as you found yourself glancing back at the photo of the brunette, in the fancy store, standing over what you assumed to be rows of different rings, and you couldn’t help but wonder if he had done that when he was planning to propose to you.

It was a fact that Chris had made plans to propose to Jenny, he had divulged to you that he had booked an entire restaurant for a night, he had bought flowers, the one that Jenny adored, planned an entire menu that consisted of all her favourite foods and all he had left was to find a perfect diamond ring that Jenny would say yes to, he had big plans to pop the question, but before he could do all of that, Jenny left, saying something about focusing on her career, on spending more time on herself, of not having to worry about the relationship, she had thought her love with Chris to be a burden.

You remembered that night, it was ingrained in your memories, you had received a call from the bar downtown, Chris was dead drunk, having stayed till closing and refusing to leave.

“His girlfriend won’t pick up,” The bartender had said frustratingly, and you, well, being Chris’s best friend, you had dropped sleep aside, pulling on a shirt and sweatpants as you made a dash out of your apartment, taking an uber down, and god, it broke your heart to see the man you loved slumped on the wooden bar table, tears staining his cheeks and his jacket splayed on the floor, with half a dozen of beer bottles scattered around him, he looked wrecked.

“Jenny, I s-still love you,” he had slurred as you struggled to help him up, which wasn’t an easy task at all, it was nearing four in the morning and it was safe to say that getting an uber was tough, it had taken fifteen minutes before you got one and having your best friend slumped against you as you tried not to fall over was no easy task.

“J-jenny,” Chris mumbled and you could feel your heart ache, you loved Chris, hell, you loved him for a good half of your fifteen year friendship, you had hoped that one day he would see it, maybe even return it, but that was crushed when he met Jenny who he had fallen for with all his heart, even when he was with you, all he could talk about was her, she had come into his life, wormed her way into his heart only to leave a storm behind her with Chris laying in broken pieces, and it was you who picked it up, piece by piece, patching the brunette up, trying your hardest to not show how hurt you were when he talked about her, how he still loved her despite the break up, how he still adored her.

And you, well, you were hopelessly, madly and pathetically in love with Chris that you hadn’t realised that you were a rebound, you were the one person he decided to use to get over the woman who practically stomped on his heart, you were a placeholder, and honestly, you couldn’t blame Chris, no, you couldn’t, after all, it was you who had opened your heart to him, who had allowed yourself to fall in deeper into the hold you dug for yourself.

Forgiveness

Summary: Back in town you find nothing but trouble and memories of a long-forgotten love.

Pairing: Mobster!Sam Winchester x fem!Reader

Characters: Dean Winchester, Bobby jr.

Warnings: angst, language, Sam being an ass, mentions of break-up, almost violence, scared reader, also remorsefull Sam, tears, mentions of arranged marriage and mafia business, comforting (Dean), tension, a hint of making-out, fluff

A/N: As this is a request fill, the kid looks like Sam. I usually don’t describe the appearance of my reader or their kids, but for this one I had to.

Divider by @firefly-graphics

“It’s your fault, you-“ Sam tries to get to you, tries to wrap his hand around your throat but his elder brother holds the angry mobster back.

He needs to push his younger brother away, holds him pinned to the wall with all his strength. Dean can see you are nothing but a scared girl and needs to make sure you don’t get hurt.

“Sammy stop,” growling Sam tries to grasp for your jacket, but you flinch away, shaking your head. You forgot how tall and intimidating Sam really is. “Fuck, Sam. Stop fighting me!”

Sam growls like a feral animal, glares at you with darkened eyes while his brother pushes him back against the wall. “She had to come here and ruin everything for me, Dean. Let me punish her! No one messes with Sam Winchester.”

“Y/N wasn’t even in town when your fine bitch decided to ditch you, Sammy,” Dean pants. “She had nothing to do with the shit your ex pulled!”

“Do you want me to believe it’s coincident Y/N comes back to town and Ruby is gone? Why should I listen to a single word coming out of her mouth?” looking at Sam with wide, fearful eyes you clutch your hands to your chest.

“Your ex-girlfriend, the one you chased away came back to town as her aunt died a week ago, Sam. She didn’t want to come here, afraid you’ll do exactly what you just did,” exhaling deeply Dean steps away from his brother. “Believe it or not, Ruby was a traitor snaking her way in your life.”

“C-can I go now?” scared you wrap your arms around yourself, eyes glued to your feet. “I need to go to the funeral parlor. My appointment was half an hour ago. Please.” watching you step away from him when he gets to close Sam huffs.

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Just one more heartbreak

Summary: Being FWB with Jensen isn’t always easy.

Pairing: Jensen Ackles x Reader

Warnings: angst, language, unrequited feelings, FWB relationship, breakup, a pregnancy scare, smut, unprotected sex, hair pulling, dirty talk, accidents, injured reader, a hint of fluff, mentions of abortion (nothing happens but it gets mentioned)

Divider by @firefly-graphics

“Oh, fuck me, that’s a good pussy,” Jensen growls, pushing your face further into the couch. He’s holding your hair in a tight grip with one hand, forces you to just take his punishing pace. “Never had such a wet cunt anytime I wanted to.”

“Jensen, please,” you whine. The edge so close it’s almost painful, you try to push back onto his cock, but he won’t have it. Releasing your hair, he grips your shoulders to hold you down. “I’m so close…”

“I know, my lil’ slut,” he spats, giving you a particularly hard thrust, makes you clench harder around his twitching length. “Be nice and tell me how good my dick feels inside of you.” He purrs the words, knowing you love his deep voice.

He sounds wrecked, almost too far gone to care you start to scream his name.

“So, so good, baby. Please, I need it – ah, ah, fuck,” you are a goner three thrusts later. Your juices soak Jensen’s cock let the man behind you groan audibly. 

“Gonna fill that nasty cunt up, sweetheart. Pump you full of my spunk,” he growls, thrusts becoming erratic.

“NO! I told you I forget to get my shot! You need to pull-“ you feel his cum fill your abused cunt, stuff you to the limit with hot ropes of his sticky release. “JENSEN!”

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Our little bird

Pairing: Mobster!Dean x Reader

Summary: Dean tries to show you he can tame the protective beast inside.

Characters: Benny Lafitte, Sam Winchester, Jimmy Novak, Gadreel, OFC’s

Warnings: angst, language, mobster business, pregnant reader (sue me), protective Dean (overprotective bordering on possessiveness), soft Dean (he tries at least), comforting, fluff, attacks, shooting, mentions of injuries/characters death

A/N: Sequel to Little Bird & My Little Bird

Dean’s eyes are glued to you and Ellen while you try to find new clothes. The ones you brought with you after Dean found you are too small. 

Your bump barely fit into one of Dean’s flannel, so you had to go for a long-needed shopping trip.

Walking around the shop, pressing one hand to the small of your back you look at the dresses while Ellen looks for some pregnancy pants. 

“What do you think? Blue or white Dean?”

“Everything looks good on you, sweetheart. Maybe take both. Nothing fits any longer so we can buy more things for you.” Dean gets up to have a look at the dress you chose. 

“I don’t know, Dean. Look at my huge bump.” Sighing you place your hand onto your belly, rubbing it slowly. “Seven months and I look like an elephant.”

Dean’s eyes lit up every time you run your hand over your baby bump. “Like a beautiful elephant, sweetheart.” Dean wraps his arms around you. His hands onto your bump he presses a soft kiss to your neck. “Our little bird is lively again.”

“He’s kicking all morning, Dean. Maybe I ate something he did not like.” Humming Dean rubs your belly and oddly, your baby calms. “You’ve got magic hands, baby.”

Hidden in plain sight Masterlist

Summary: You were invisible, and you liked it until his eyes land on you.

Pairing: Alpha!Mobster!Dean x Omega!Reader

Characters: Crowley, Mobster!Sam Winchester, Mobster!John Winchester, Mobster!Mary Winchester

Warnings: angst, human trafficking, mobster au, possessive alpha, scenting, true mates, scared reader,fluff, kidnapping, light dub con touching (not really), abo, abo dynamics, virgin reader, smut, claiming, knotting

** contains smut

The new beginning

Title: The new beginning

Square Filled: mobster AU

Ship: Mobster!Dean x Reader

Characters: Charlie Bradbury, Jo Harvelle, Sam Winchester, Mary Winchester, John Winchester, Benny Lafitte, Ofc Liliane (Abaddon’s daughter)

Rating: mature

Warnings: angst, language, pregnant reader, comforting, fluff, arguments, threats, mobster business, attempted murder, implied torture, violence, blood

Summary: Danger around every corner you flee to Dean’s house. Dean to navigate between winning you over and keeping you safe.

Word Count: 1,8+

Written/Created for @spnaubingo​​​​

Last sequel to  The Affair & The Aftermath

Divider by @writeyourmindaway

“Girl, that’s not a house, it’s a goddamn palace,” Charlies gasps running around the huge entrance hall of Dean’s house. “I swear, Dean Winchester. You’ll never get me out of here … like ever.”

“You are welcome to stay,” Dean smirks looking at your belly, “to be our babysitter, Charlie.”

Charlie nods, giving Dean a thumb up before she starts running around the entrance hall again, bumping her hips against Jo’s who tries to fix her hair.

“I assume you followed my advice?” Benny tries to wipe the lipstick off his lips while Jo gives you a nod. “Great. Can we all come back to the current problem? The crazy and dangerous woman who is determined to ruin my life.”

“Sorry, Y/N,” Charlie pipes, casting her eyes downward. “I was just overwhelmed, never was in a house that big.”

“Benny, Jimmy, and Garth will stay at the manor, my other men will guard the house. I will try to talk some sense into Abaddon, doll,” John gives you a worried look, hiding it behind a soft smile. “Sons, I suggest you and your mother stay here for the time being. I want my family safe, together and work on their relationship to our newest member.”

“Mr. Winchester,” you try to stop John. “John, please be careful. If that woman is dangerous and mad as Dean refused to marry her daughter she could hurt you.”

“Y/N, that’s sweet of you, but I’ll not go alone, okay,” John squeezes your hand, jerking his head toward Dean. “All you have to worry about is your life, the baby, and my son who looks like he will cry anytime.”

“Be careful, John. Please don’t let me be the reason for anyone hurting you or your family.” Mary smiles, slinging one arm around your shoulders. “My John is too stubborn to die, sweetie. He’ll talk to Abaddon, try to calm the angry bitch, if not, it’s war.”

“Mary be careful,” John pecks his wife’s lips, a frown on his face when he feels her trembling hand touching his face. “Sons take care of your mother until I am back,” nodding at Benny and Jimmy the mobster clears his throat. “My family is in your capable hands, men.”

The Aftermath

Summary: You are dealing with the aftermath, while trying to find out who sent you the pictures…

Pairing: AU(mobster)Dean x Reader

Characters: Charlie Bradbury, Jo Harvelle, Sam Winchester, Mary Winchester, John Winchester

Warnings: angst, language, mentions of domestic violence, pregnant reader, remorseful Dean, annoying Winchesters, comforting, fluff, arguments, threats, mobster business 

A/N: Sequel to The Affair

It’s always calm before the storm. People tend to say.

But what happens after the storm came and went doesn’t matter. No one likes to write poems about the aftermath, the ground-shaking, life-changing experience when you realize you survived.

Love can be like this. It’s life-changing, full-bloom romance or – devastating catastrophe.

You had both and now you stand in the middle of a house which isn’t yours, surround by people telling you to make a decision.

“I told you, I am not ready to talk to about a wedding or baby names! I am like one month pregnant. The man I love agreed to marry someone else and I got degraded to his mistress. 

Excuse me if I am not in the mood to look at wedding cakes or crap.” No one ever dared to talk to Mary Winchester like you just did, but, to your surprise, she starts laughing.

Little rat & her mobster

Summary: You are his little rat, he’s your tall mobster in return…

Pairing: Mobster!Dean x Reader

Characters: Mobster!John Winchester, Mobster!Sam Winchester, Ofc’s

Warnings: angst, mobster business, language, age gap (Dean is 27; reader 21), mentions of sex, comforting, fluff, shitty father, mentions of gambling, I used the word ‘rape’ a few times (but nothing happens), angry & protective Dean, threats

Final sequel to: 

Three months later, …

“Did you try to wreck me, Dean?” watching Dean roll off you, a smirk on his lips you pant, grinning cheekily. “Can you finally take off the handcuff or shall I wait for round three?”

“Oh-sweetheart, I could give you round three and four, but I can’t ruin my little rat. She only started to have sex like three months ago,” humming you watch Dean open the handcuffs. “You know, I never had a sexier girl in my bed.”

You snicker, moving your hands over his chest while Dean cages you with his arms, starting to kiss down your neck.

“Did John tell you my father is back in town? He…he called me on my old phone, the one I kept if he ever tries to contact me.”

“Y/N, I will not allow him to hurt you again. You’re my beautiful fiancé, my little rat. Dean Winchester always keeps his word, baby. He loves you, you know,” your eyes flutter shut feeling Dean’s lips against your pulse point.

“I love you too, dirty boy,” snickering Dean hides his face in your neck when you wrap your arms around him. “I wanted to see my father, but I don’t know if it’s a good idea. I’m still mad that he let me work for you only to gamble once again.”

“I won’t leave you alone with him, sweetheart. If, and only if, you want to talk to him, I’ll be by your side all the time. No one messes with my girl,” you smile when Dean assures you he’ll stay with you. “When you are ready, tell me so. We will make an appointment, meet up with him and you can punch his face.”

“I’d like to punch him, Dean. All those years I worked for you and he just went out there, enjoyed his freedom, and forgot about me. That bastard didn’t even call me, Dean,” you sigh, resting with Dean in your arms. “I want to hurt him.”

“You can, Y/N…you can, sweetheart,” Dean pecks your lips, making you smile. “Love you, my little rat.”

Ruined For Good (Part 2 to Ruined)

Pairing: Steve Rogers X Reader

Warnings: Angst

A/N: THIS IS IT! This is what you have all been waiting for!! Prt 2 to ruined is now here ladies and gents. I’m so sorry for taking so long but I guess here’s your early Christmas present ❤️❤️ enjoyyyy

Anger.

That is all Steve could feel. He had spent his life dedicated to this woman and she cheats on him, and with Tony of all people.

How could she?! Not only was he mad, he was disappointed. This was (y/n), the woman of his dreams. So he just did what he knew others  to do. So he took the Asgardian mead from Thor and downed the whole glass in under three seconds. Straight away he could feel his body start to feel light and he can start to feel the alcohol reach his head and move around his body sluggishly.

(Y/N) runs down the stairs after returning from the room that Tony had dragged her inside of. Her face was red from the tears that were falling from her face and the hiccups making her body shake in fear and disgust. All she wanted was her loving boyfriend, to snuggle up in his big, warm and safe feeling arms. 

Reaching the bottom, she expected Steve to still be sitting at the table that she left him at but instead found him in the arms of Bucky, crying to himself. What had gone on? What had she missed?

She cautiously approached him, scared that any sudden movements would startle the man, even if they were in a room with hundreds of people and music loud enough for the deaf to hear.

Reaching him, she placed her hand on his shoulder, for him to turn around, look shocked and shrug her hand off as if her touch scorched him. She could see the fire burning in his eyes and she knew right then that he knew. 

She could read Steve like an open book because he was so open with his emotions. This is how she knew what he thought.

“Steve, it is not what it looks like.”

“You kissed him!”

That caught the attention of all the party goers, and all their friends. “Steve, not here.” she mumbled so quietly that no one heard her, but she knew he did with the way his eyes lit up with so much anger that she knew he would burst any moment and hoped that it would be in private. But as soon as she saw that fire expand in his eyes, it disappeared just as fast. Just blank and cold was all she could see in his eyes and all of it directed at her.

“Baby, you don’t understand!”

She was desperate to make him understand that she didn’t do it willingly, that she was forced.

“Do not call me that, you… you… cheater! And with Tony of all people!”

At once, she heard all the guests and her team gasp. By now she was sobbing trying hard to get words out but all she could do was run, run away from her problems. She ran away from all the curious and shocked eyes of the party, and the smug eyes of her abuser. When she arrived at her shared room with Steve, she flung herself onto the king bed and just sobbed. She was tired, sad, she felt as if everything and everyone was against her, and that the one man that was supposed to support her was not there because he was against her too. She had no one, she was ending the way she started, alone.

Just like when she was only a child of 4 years old she had everything she loved torn and taken away from her - like when her dad decided to steal her mothers money only to gamble it all away in the next few hours.

She felt broken, just like when she was 14, when she found out that her mother had passed away in the middle of the night surrounded by empty liquor bottles and empty syringes.

And now the cycle of heartbreak starts all over again for her - drink her sorrows away and sleep and hope that she never wakes up.

That night, while everyone was outside having fun, Nat flirting with Bruce, Clint with Thor and Bucky kissing the brunette woman that he just met, and Steve Drinking his sorrows away with Asgardian mead,  (y/n) left. She left them all behind because she realized that she was only ever going to be alone because nothing good ever came for her. 

All she knew was that she was ruined.

Ruined for good.

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College!Chris Evans x POC! Plus Size!Reader

(College!CEvans x POC!Plus Size!Reader)

A/N: ah yes! My first CEvans fic. I just love the idea of Chris being a goof in college. He’s so cute lmao. Anyways this started off as a joke. My best friend Aliana found the picture below from an insta post about Chris in “The Perfect Score” and then when I said the prompt she gave was like actually pretty good she said I had no choice but to write it 🤷🏾‍♀️ I took some liberties with the prompt but I think y’all will still like it.

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‘A common misconception is that JFK was the civil rights president, when in fact it was LBJ. JFK only brought up civil rights because his brother Robert pushed for more civil rights issues to.....’

Furious was the hand that held the pen, and you were that hand. History was a pretty standard subject, you had your opinions but didn’t want to risk upsetting the less... melanin-ated people of your class. Honestly you weren’t really focused on the subject, it was all about your notes.

You may have not been an academic scholar but god damn could you write the hell out of some notes. The way your various colored gel pens came together to create an easy to follow and organized masterpiece was the essential key to you passing this class. Honestly if you weren’t such an amazing note taker you would have been fucked.

‘Alright, don’t forget to read pages 165 to 210 by Friday. Tomorrow we’ll talk about the Kennedy Assassinations. Yes, Assassinations PLURAL’

With a deep sigh you closed your notebook and threw your gel pens into your pencil bag. You were about to put your (godly) notes into your bag when you felt a tap on your shoulder.

When you looked up, you were met with a smile and “hey” from a boy who screamed ‘boy next door who pretends to be a pool boy to fuck the cougar from next door’

“Uh hey? You’re Chris right?” His eyes lit up in shock. You assumed it was probably because 1). He’s never talked to you a day in his life 2). He’s never been awake a day in this class.

“Oh...yeah I’m Chris. Listen can I ask you somethin” the second thing you noticed about Chris besides his charming aura, was his thick accent. You wanted to say it was maybe a New York or Bostonian one, but you couldn’t quite place it. You quirked your eyebrows at the sound of his request. He’d walked up to you all confident but he seemed unsure all of a sudden.

“Sure, whats up??” Chris scratched the back of his neck and a boyish grin appeared on his face.

“So.. I uh, I heard you were like the master at taking notes. And well, our Professor says if I don’t start paying attention she’s gonna fail me. So I was wondering if you would ya know, let me see your notes. That way, I can compromise. I could still pass, and do my thing ya know?”

I mean, you had to laugh. You couldn’t hold in your chuckle, looking up at Chris whose grin went from boyish to confused. He laughed out of awkwardness and confusion while you put your notes in your backpack and stood up. You had to look up at him as his stature dwarfed you.

“No.” You stated simply before attempting to walk away. Chris quickly grabbed your arm before you could get too far.

“Awe come on!! Look, I really need your help to pass and I don’t have any other options. I’m too far behind for tutoring and everyone else even says you have the best notes. I’ll even pay you! Name your price.” You looked up at him, and I mean really looked up at him, analyzing his pale blue eyes and pink lips drowning in panic before you sighed.

“Alright fine. But I don’t trust people with my notes, so if we do this I’m gonna be there and I’ll help you organize and copy them by hand. You can pay me 10$, I’m not gonna bleed you dry just because you’re struggling.” The load of stress had been lifted off of Chris’s shoulders as he thanked you profusely and began to walk away. You shook your head, slapping the palm of your hand on your face before yelling out his name. You laughed as he stopped abruptly and turned around jogging back to you.

“Oh uh, whats up? Did I forget something?” You nodded a slight smile on your face. It seemed hard not to smile at the bumbling dummy.

“You don’t know my name, how to contact me, or when and where we’re gonna do this Chris”

He looked genuinely dumbfounded, but before you could speak you began filling in the missing information

“ I’m Y/N, here’s my phone so you can give me your number, and we should start tomorrow after class. I guess the Starbucks or Library could work.” Chris paused while typing in his number to look at you.

“Well see, I was wondering if we could do it at my dorm because well, I’m really hyper and public places make it hard for me to concentrate. I’m afraid we won’t be able to get anything done I have the attention span of a peanut, and I don’t want you to get mad at me.” For the millionth time that day you sighed.

“Okay I guess. Your dorm tomorrow after class. Buy a big notebook. You have a lot of work to do. “

And thus a routine had started. Everyday for the past month you and Chris would saunter off to his dorm and spend hours copying notes and helping him make sense of them before guest hours were over. The first week and a half really tested your patience as Chris really did have the attention span of a peanut if not worse. You helped him concentrate (mostly by threatening to leave if he didn’t stop “going to the bathroom” and “getting something to drink”.) and he mellowed out after awhile. You couldn’t quite place when it happened, but you and Chris had become sort of like close friends. Chris had some crazy magnetic energy that made you always want to be around him but never be able to stand him. It was a friendship forged in fire (well, gel pens).

“Hey y/n, we’re gonna have to adjust our study location today” Chris jogged up to your table where you had just finished zipping up your backpack. He grabbed your bag and slung it over his shoulder like he’d gotten used to doing for the last few weeks (he may have been a big oaf, but he was a sweetheart. He would deny it every time, telling you not to call him a sweetheart for being a decent human being but you digress.) You paused and looked at Chris confused.

“Yeah my roommate just got this girl and they’ve been going at it like cats in heat. I mean they’ve really been fuc-“

“Okay Chris I get it. “ You choked on your laughter. “I was thinking we could start studying at your dorm instead since I’m not sure when they’re gonna let up”. You shrugged “I mean I guess, but you sure you don’t want to do it a Starbucks? We have a shit ton of notes today and I know how sleepy and restless you can get.” He shook his head vigorously. “Nah Y/N it should be fine, plus you know how I am in public spaces, we’ll never finish even with all the coffee in the world.” You sighed and nodded. He was right, the poor baby couldn’t concentrate in public to save his life. It’s probably why he slept so much and zoned out during class.

“Yeah love, you’re probably right. Lemme text my roommate and tell her. Make sure she knows we’ll try to be out of her way.”

You texted Valeria, you best friend and roommate about the situation.

Of course the first thing her little messy ass had to say was ‘oh the hot one who looks at you like you’re the moon to his stars?? I’m cool with that.’ You groaned in irritation which prompted Chris to try and sneak a peek at your text. You snatched the phone away from his view before he could see it.

“Heyyy!” He tried again and you shoved his shoulder.

“ ‘Heeyyy’ nothin! Get your nosey ass away from my phone!” You giggled, and Chris couldn’t help but do the same. It seemed like nowadays your laughs and smiles were infectious to each other. “What?! I’m just trying to see what Val said! That’s my -what do you call it?- oh yeah that’s my dawg!” He was grinning like the shit eater he was as you looked at him dumbfounded.

“Absolutely not. I don’t ever want to hear you say that shit again.” He threw his head back in fake annoyance as you continued walking towards your dorm.

“Awe come onnnn! You say it all the time. Maybe it’s only cool when you say it. “ you chuckled and reached over to pinch his cheek. He whined and swatted your hand away.

“Awe! Little Evans wants to sound like me. That’s so cuteee!” It was Chris’s turn to shove your shoulder. He almost made you tumble over, but he caught you by the waist and steadied your balance. “Ugh Y/N don’t do that you know that’s not what I meant! Sometimes you just say stuff and it’s kinda... it’s kinda cool ya know? Like the way you talk.” As you continued your trek towards your dorm, he kept his hand on the side of your waist very lightly. “All I’m hearing right now, is that you wanna be like me, and that’s all I’m acknowledging.” Chris threw his head down in defeat knowing that if he kept going you’d keep embarrassing you. You were on him like white on rice with the comebacks at all times.

“Yeah whatever. You continue to have selective hearing if you want to, but it’ll get you nowhere.“ He shrugged as you used your key card to get into the lobby of your dorm. You both flashed the front desk your key cards before signing in and approaching the elevator.

“After you, my favorite note taker” Chris ushered you into the elevator while you rolled your eyes. “I’m your only note taker. You don’t even take notes dingus. That’s why we’ve been doing this for two and a half months.” You told Chris to press the button to the 5th floor then he leaned back against the corner of the elevator while you stood beside him.

“That doesn’t mean you’re not my favorite note taker.” He reached over to boop your nose, and you scrunched it up in response. “You know what? I don’t like you” You poked his chest and all he did was smile while leaning closer to you. “That’s cool. You don’t have to like the people you love anyways.” You stood wide mouthed and shocked, but before you could retort the elevator doors opened and Chris began walking away.

“Come on Y/N it’s hot as shit and you said we have a lot of work to do.” You reluctantly stepped out of the elevator and found Chris, stepping ahead to lead him to your room. “Welcome, to the most comfortable place on earth.” You very dramatically threw your arms in the air to get him to marvel at your room. It was a good thing you’d cleaned it up earlier in the week (it was a disaster before). Chris walked around looking at the various nerdy posters you had on your wall and the pictures of friends on your desk while you went to turn on your fairy lights for better lighting. When you finished, you turned around to see Chris splayed across your bed and you scoffed. “At least you’re considerate enough to keep your dirty ass shoes off my white marble comforter. It would have been a shame if I had to end you today.” He sat up and reached for your arm, pulling you with him to sit down on your bed.

“It’s because I’m nice like that. You’re welcome.” You ignored the cheesey smile on his face while he passed you your backpack so you could get your galaxy spiral note book. Chris reached into his bag and did the same pulling out the notebook he bought to match yours (more receipts to prove that he wanted to be like you). “Shush. Your mouth wastes time and I don’t wanna hear you complaining to me when it’s twelve years later and we’re still organizing and going over these notes.” You pulled out your gel pens and the work began.

Three hours. Three whole hours. That’s how long you and Chris had been organizing his notes before he tapped out. “Good god I’m fucking wiped OUT!” Chris exclaimed. He threw his pencil down and plopped his head down on your thick thigh. “Y/NNN, can we please take a break?? I’m dyin over here. My hand has never cramped harder in my life!” He looked up at you with pleading eyes and a pout. He was a human puppy dog. You couldn’t deny that the action had caused a heat to rise in your cheeks and your heart to flutter, but you played it off, amused at his exasperation. “Fine! Your whining has won me over. And you’re also right we need a break. But I get to pick the show!” Chris did a little victory fist pump in the air and you patted his head. He jumped up and sauntered over to the pantry, looking through it before pulling out two bags of Extra Butter Movie Theater Popcorn and a bowl. While he put the first bag in the microwave, you got up and looked in the fridge, pulling out two bottles of Mountain Dew.

You walked over to your TV and turned it on grabbing your Roku remote. “Hey Chris, since you think the way I talk is so ‘cool’ I’m making you watch The Boondocks.” You yelled over to him while he poured the popcorn into the bowl and walked over to you. Your TV was placed purposely in front of your bed, so you both popped up on it, with Chris getting comfortable on the corner of the wall that the bed touched and you sitting crisscross besides him. “Here” you handed him his drink and he said thank you before placing the popcorn bowl in your lap. “Okay so The Boondocks is probably the best cartoon made in television history. And I know that sounds dramatic but it’s true.” You looked over to see Chris laughing quietly. “I trust your opinion. You’ve never been wrong before. “ he shrugged and you shook your head in agreement. “You’re damn right. I’m glad we’re on the same page.” You hovered the remote over to the first episode titled “The Garden Party” and clicked play. “We’re only gonna watch THREE episodes before we get back to work okay??” Chris smacked his teeth and tossed his head on your shoulder. “That’s lame. What if I really like it?!” You pushed his heavy head off of you playfully. “What’s lame is you failing class when I’m supposed to be helping you do the opposite. We can finish it another time fool.” You vaguely heard him say ‘alright alright’ before the familiar theme song came on, you silently rapping along.

When you got to episode 2 “The Trial of Robert Kelly” Chris was dying laughing. When Huey got to his speech he was aggressively clapping, while you were aggressively pointing at the screen hollering “THATS WTF IM TALKIN ABOUT!! LET EM’ KNOW HUEY”. By episode 3, you and Chris were fighting to stay awake. Somehow, your head had drifted onto his chest, and his arm had shifted to around your waist. Your legs had been comfortably strewn on top of each other as you listened to Granddads crazy girlfriend drone on. You didn’t make it to episode 4.

You woke up before he did, groggy and confused. Your eyes were still closed as you tried to shift around only to be met with resistance. You felt a tightening around your waist as a still sleeping Chris pulled you closer into his body, nuzzling is face into your neck. “Oh shit...” you whispered, your eyes no longer closed and in fact, wide ass open. “Chris. Chrissss. CHRIS!!” Chris shot up involuntarily tightening his hold on you before looking down into your concerned face.

“Shiiiit. Y/N what time is it.” You searched the side of the bed for your phone before turning it on and checking the time. It was 7:46 A. M. “Oh fuck! We didn’t finish the notes!! Oh fuck Chris we slept past guest visitor time! How imma sneak you out?! Oh god I don’t wanna be the reason why you fail and get kicked out! I’m gonna lose my closest friend because I-”

“Hey wait...” Chris placed his hand under your chin and pulled you into him, looking up and down your face with hooded lids. All you could focus on, was him. The way his lashes brushed his freckle dusted cheek. The way is eyes peered at you mixed with a haze of sleepiness and something else more intense. “ Y/N look at me... everything is gonna be okay, I promise...” The room, the air, the god damn particles around you stilled. It was like all of time froze except for you and Chris.

You didn’t remember you had the ability to breathe until he licked his lips and leaned towards you, pulling you closer, completely halting your ability to breathe. Your lips intertwined in a soft battle of heat and passion. It was slow and intimate, you didn’t know you could muster up so much passion in a kiss. Before you knew it, Chris gripped your left thigh and swung it over the other side of him making you straddle his waist. The pillows of his lips never stopped their assault and only got more aggressive as he palmed your ass. Your body felt hot, and you NEEDED more. You rutted your core against Chris’s lap causing him to pull on your bottom lip with his teeth and smack your large thigh.

“Don’t play with the fire if you can’t put it out.” He groaned out, his voice strained as you both breathed heavily. You moved your lips down to his neck and began to nip and suck softly before smiling into his neck. “When have you ever known me to be afraid of the fire?” You heard the sharp intake of his breath before he flipped you over, slamming your back into your bed. Chris placed soft kisses all over your face making you giggle before he continued his tirade on your mouth. Maybe Chris was a good kisser. Actually, a phenomenal kisser. You gripped the back of his neck, your hands tangled in the nape of his hair. Chris’s hands were inside of your shirt feeling on your soft stomach before you both heard the snap of a camera. You both jumped up at the intrusion and sat up, banging your foreheads together on accident.

“Ahh shit!! Fuck!!” “God damn it! Fuck!” You and Chris both exclaimed as you heard the culprit, your roommate Valeria, laughing hysterically. You groaned rubbing your head and shot her the dirtiest look you could muster.

“HA! You got mad at me for saying he looked at you like you were the moon and stars in the sky, but you’re borderline fucking AND he stayed past guest hours!” You threw your head back on your pillow while closing your eyes and sighing. You could feel the pressure and warmth of Chris’s body leave you as he got up to sit on the edge of the bed.

“Val!! How’s it going big dawg?!” Valeria cringed and shook her head. She approached Chris and pat his head. “Hey Chris I think you’re great, but I don’t ever want to hear you say that again okay?” Chris grumbled an ‘okay’ and despite everything you couldn’t help but laugh.

“Anyways you guys can continue doing the do. I actually came in here to ask how note taking was last night, but I see it was pretty good.” Valeria winked before shuffling to the door and closing it, cackling after she closed it. Before you could even process what had just happened Chris took your chubby cheeks into your hand and rubbed his thumb along your bottom lip.

“Hey Y/N... you know how Val said I look at you like the moon and the stars?” He trailed off and his eyes darted down to your lips. All you could do was nod, too entranced in the way his lips moved and the shine in his eyes.

“Well, she’s not wrong. I don’t know exactly when, but for awhile you’ve been the sun and moon and the stars and everything in between. And god, every time you smile I wanna kiss you until my smile becomes as bright. Every time you laugh I can’t help but join in, because even when it sounds like a Windex spray bottle it’s the only sound I wanna hear.” You softly smacked his chest and buried your head in his neck running your hand down his chest.

“I love the way your cheeks puff up when you get irritated at me, and the way you look at me when you have no idea what the fuck I’m trying to say.” some how, you moved impossibly closer into his neck.

“You gonna let me take you out some time doll?” Chris sounded so soft and unsure of himself. It reminded you of the first time you’d ever talked to him. When he didn’t know you knew his name. You rose up from his neck and placed a long soft kiss on his pink lips.

“Of course Chris. I can’t say no to my favorite note copier.” Your foreheads pressed against each other and you both stayed completely still, trying to make the moment last. Chris moved first, taking his forehead off of you to place a kiss on top of your head and pull you into his embrace.

“I’m your only note copier.” He couldn’t help himself. You both started to giggle into each other.

“And it’s gonna stay like that. Just like I’m gonna be your only note taker.” Chris squeezed you tighter and pulled you into his lap, placing one last kiss on your curls.

Noted.”

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Bloop! I’m finished. This took all day man yeesh. Anyways y’all know I’m a slut for comments so please for your favorite comment starved plus size POC writter, leave a comment.

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