This can be such a lonely thing sometimes... I'm so desperate to just lie on someone's chest, hear their heart, and to have them *truly* understand what their heartbeat feels like to me... and for someone to want to do the same to mine. Ugh, it's so ridiculous that a kink that can lead to such wonderful closeness can also bring about this horrible longing. It should not be allowed to make me feel this empty, lol

And I so wish I could be bold enough to tell people in real life... I've cuddled with a few of my best friends over the years. What I want is in effect not much different than what we've already done. But I can't even begin to think about how to *START* to bring it up. I wish I was braver. :(

It’s such a nice feeling to feel your own heart beating against your hand. Every night before I sleep I put my hand over my chest and just feel the strong pumping of my heart. I wake up hours later and still see my hand right over my chest. Wish there was someone to put their ear on my chest and feel it’s hard work.

Also another amazing thing is when I’m sleeping on my left side I always slide my fingers down to my 4th and 5th ribs and feel my apex vibrate against my hands which is amazing until I fall asleep

Late night cardiophile thoughts

As I’m currently lying in bed, I’m just thinking about how my love language involves a lot of physical contact. For me, at least, I think it’s a beautiful way to express my love and affection for someone.  Not only that, but when it comes to heartbeats, I think it’s super romantic and intimate when you hug your significant other and you can feel their heart beating against your chest, or even if you put your hand on their chest to feel the thumps of their heart and they do the same to you as well. Things like that, are just something I could never get tired of. Then cuddling together in bed, having an ear placed on their chest to listen to the soft and soothing beating of their heart  as you get lost in the rhythm and let it lull you to sleep. Being together in that beautiful moment of intimacy is something very special to me.  Heartbeats are just beautiful, amazing, and sexy. Such a beautiful sound contained in that small organ, pumping life into our bodies.

Just some cardiophile thoughts

I don’t post that often, but I felt like sharing this: I find heartbeats to be relaxing but also arousing at the same time. Especially when it’s the heartbeat of your significant other. Like, imagine you’re laying in bed cuddling with them, and you’re in the position to hear their heartbeat in your ear. Bonus points if they’re shy about it, but secretly love it, but once they realize you’re listening to their heart, it starts to beat faster, and you hear it picking up speed. You comment on their heart beating a little bit fast, and as the heart never lies, it beats even faster in your ear.  But at the same time, their heartbeat can be soothing and relaxing, and can also lull you to sleep easily. Just focusing on the steady rhythm of their heartbeats, and getting lost in the sound of it.  I don’t know, that’s how I feel about heartbeats. I just think heartbeats are sexy as hell. One day I will find someone who shares my passion about heartbeats.