Almost every night I go out on my trampoline and I just stare at the stars, but tonight everything's a little dimmer and darker than usual.

I'm eternally sad.

My heart is sad.

And I'm trying to understand. Trying to understand how I misread the signs. How I unmistakably believed that for one second you actually felt as if you needed me. But you didn't. And even though I didn't want it to, it broke me. Sad to say, it didn't hurt as bad as the first time. The first time, I was literally heartbroken. I didn't want to eat, couldn't sleep, and couldn't even think about you without my stomach twisting into knots and having tears blur my vision. And I missed you. Even though you hurt me, I missed the fuck out of you. I couldn't let you go.

When someone you hate tries to make a joke

Stuck in Love

Starring Role by Marina and the Diamonds