I have really bad depression and I have tried to kill my self 5 times and my mom only knows about one time... I don't know how to tell her I want to go to the doctor and get help with out scaring her or making her mad.. Please help

Please go to your mom and tell her how you feel, because I’m pretty sure that your mom will understand why you want to see a doctor and will not be angry or disappointed in you. Just tell her about your depression and about how you believe that you need help. Be clear and repeat if you have to. Also life is not just misery passing by day by day, life is a way to just do what you like and to really experience the greatness that the world has to offer to us humans. So please talk to your mom and try to walk away from the negativity because how you feel about something reflects what your mind will hold.