I have to go on anti - depressants .... The doctor says that the side effects will be feeling uneasy. I hate vomiting, but lets hope this medication makes me vomit. If I can’t purge then this sure will help!!

Im beginning to eat too much!! HELP I gotta get down to 48kg!!! 

I wish I had a knife to slice off all the unwanted fat on my gross body.

So so sorry I haven't been active and not replied to the people who sent me messages! Im still here, its just life has been a bit hectic recently and i have had some check ups with the doctors and counsellors. It has been confirmed that I have anorexia.. I have been referred to an eating disorder clinic and i am not too sure what will happen, but I am kind of shocked. I don't think I'm skinny enough to have an eating disorder, but the doctor sees that I am losing weight and that my attitude towards food and body image and weight are leaning towards an eating disorder. Again, sorry for not being active. I’ll be posting some updates once in awhile. ❤️

Treat day Thursday. ONE treat out of the whole week. I’ve been good and haven’t had any junk food till now and when my friends offer me some I say no and I’m proud of that. Still feel like crap after eating this but it’s not too bad if I have one right?

Update: I just found out this had sooooo many calories, but i’m going to make thursday binge day too. For the other days of the week i’ll restrict and only have forced meals and maaaybe little snacks if I get bad cravings, but only like 1 cherry tomato or a 1/4 of apple so yeah. Do people with eating disorders do this?? Because when I eat I feel like im just failing at reaching my goal and then people don’t think I have an eating disorder and that i’m faking it and i’m not!

Arms today.