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adhd is so embarrassing ur basically like “I have to have fun right the fuck now or I’m throwing myself off the roof” 90% of the time and you also have very little control over this

This was the single most important thing for me to start understanding re: my undiagnosed ADHD, and it's the thing no one tells you except other ADHD sufferers. My brain's reward system is so broken that boredom rapidly becomes indistinguishable from a depressive episode. There's no healthy, normal ability to experience something as simply being a little dull--as soon as my brain isn't getting regular hits of stimulation, I start clawing at the walls. This is what makes working in a structured environment and initiating tasks so difficult for me, not malice or other character flaws.

What makes it worse is that, if you're like me, when you were growing up, the only way your authority figures knew how to perceive this was "they're just goofing off," and therefore, would deprive you of anything remotely stimulating until you'd done your work, thinking that -- if it worked like it would with an NT kid, you'd do your work faster so you could get back to having fun.

Instead, they just pulled the plug on any tiny bit of power you had running to your necessary brainwaves and put you into longterm shutdown mode.

But then....you grew up...with only that method for coping ingrained into you. So no matter how much you may know logically, now, that you have to have the "fun/interesting/challenging" cord plugged in for your brain to have any juice at all, you feel guilty for having to plug that in FIRST instead of as a reward for doing Adulting. So you just sit there, unplugged, not getting anything done.

Or maybe that's just me.

even the most supportive and well meaning people in my life struggle to understand how painful lack of stimulation is, how immobilizing executive dysfunction is, and how i cannot feel satisfaction the way they do. the number of times i’ve been told “won’t it feel so nice to accomplish it and have it off your plate?” and having to explain that i don’t feel relief or pride when i finish a task, just exhaustion, and that’s part of why it’s so hard to even start it

where's that photo of that shepherd dog being comforted by one of the sheep he guards after saving them from a wolf attack

love and gratefulness and kindness on planet earth

I would just like to say, as people in the notes are pointing out, that the blood is the wolf's. The dog is wearing a spiked collar to protect their neck from the attacks.

this is my Anatolian (like the dog in OP)

yall cannot understand estimate the absolute tenderness of these dogs. that's why they're fierce, their bonds to their flocks and shepherds come from a 6000 year long pastoral legacy. I truly did not understand their level of intelligence til i brought two home.

they count and remember their flock members, they have favorites and carry grudges.

that head boop is one my livestock guardians give me everyday when they need comfort, that sheep is that dog's close friend.

HOLD THE LINE!! KEEP PUSHING!!!!!

Sorry babes but as someone who lived lug around 500 cds they can die. To me lps are at least pretty and pretentious like a fine wine. Cds have no point

the point is cds are sexy as hell. sorry you dont know what sex is.

visual diagram btw ^

@danepopfrippery

The real point is that you OWN a CD. You do NOT own anything digital you purchase.

Google Play stole hundreds of dollars worth of music I paid them for from me by forcing me to upload it to YouTube Music (or lose it entirely) which is behind a subscription paywall, requiring me now to pay more money every month if I want to listen to MY music I PAID for without constant advertising.

You do not own anything digitally purchased. It can be taken back from you at any time and it is fully legal for big corporations to do so for some reason.

CDs can't be taken from you unless they come into your house or car in person to physically pry them out of your cold dead hands.

That's why the resurgence. As funny as that person's reply to you was, it's not in fact because they look sexy. It's because you actually own them.

Look- CDs are your friend. CD-ROMs and CD drives with the capacity to burn? Are your friends with benefits.

I was reading something about Whitestown, Indiana and my eyes nearly popped out of my head thinking it was one of THOSE comically racist towns. Nice to know, at least the name, wasn’t that.

Racisttown, named after the abolitionist Stopbeing Racist,

That's nothing. Check THIS shit out

WHAT THE HELL

George Washington Hitler and his son Dr. Gay Hitler,

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The Cöuncil Mêêtingh

say what you will about child protective services but you gotta admit it's a very funny institution. only government department in the world that will just take anything at face value. "umm excuse me are you abusing any children in there? nope? well okay just thought we'd ask lol bye"

department of motherfuckers who would have let the trojan horse in and sucked its wooden cock also

CPS is a particular kind of rotten institution where if it fulfilled its stated purposes it would wreck the fabric of society.

Like, when you read about failed attempts to outsource jobs overseas, one of the big complaints from capital is about the difficulty of getting people who aren’t already immersed in wage labor to work like people who are. They show up late, they argue, they band together as conspiracies or clans, they disappear without notice to do seasonal work or return to subsistance living. It takes decades of incredible violence to prepare a population for capitalist wage labor, and decades of training and indoctrination to hide and subsume the violence.

Actually protecting children from family violence, outside of ‘well heres another potential caregiver hope you get lucky with this one,’ would require giving children a degree of autonomy and agency that would be intolerable for their training as future workers. A key part of childhood is that you don’t choose where you live, work, eat or sleep, you have no freedoms that aren’t granted by your guardians, and that once you’re an adult you are free to buy those freedoms, if you are willing and able to work for the wages to afford them. If children know they can be safe and happy even against the wishes of their guardians, the state will need to break that mindset to make them good workers.

It’s like that line about buying pencils for the state department or bullets for the military, you either spend $10 on blindfolds and earplugs for CPS or $1,000 on nightsticks and CS gas for the Pinkertons.

They. They forgor

Just looked up what time I was born and I'm so relieved that I can finally clear some things up! For those who have been asking, I'm an INTJ sun and an ENFP moon.

While I profoundly dislike astrology I can recognize that the vast majority of people who are into astrology are probably just having fun.

MBPI is a different story. If you're someone who is really into your Meyers Briggs type and are, like, assigning celebrities Meyers Briggs types you are exhibiting Behaviors (tm) that tell me you are at all times five seconds away from recommending that I watch a video on body language analysis.

Being really into MBPI types is like saying you think astrology is bullshit so you rely on scrying to get a feel for new people.

"I'm an INTJ so I'm suuuuuper unbiased and rational."

I do not think those words mean what you think they mean.

I had an employer that made us do those tests. Like they paid a company real money to analyze all of us and tell us what our strengths and weaknesses were.

I purposefully picked all the "wrong" answers to avoid getting the one I always get (INFP or whatever the 'mediator' is), and I wound up with the 'executive' (I don't recall the designator). The one that's good at administration and keeping everyone around them on task no matter what.

And despite having worked with me for five years and knowing I was an absolute chaos gremlin (thanks, undiagnosed ADHD) my supervisor was like, "Oh wow, yeah, you totally are. I see it now. We should reassign you."

Like Karen (her actual name), I just took the equivalent of a Buzzfeed personality test rooted in white supremacy and eugenics. For the love of god, do not restructure the company based on this. Just ask me my star sign and project your biases onto me like a normal person.

Disabled peeps applying for welfare make sure u say a prayer to our patron saint Samuel L Jackson first

a lot of pieces of media will show characters catching fireflies with just their bare hands. in some cases they will just land on the persons fingers. to gently be placed inside of a jar..

for people who live in areas who don’t have fireflies, i want you to know that is not made up or exaggerated for those scenes. fireflies are really like that. they are slow and not cautious at all. while camping i would just walk up to one flying in the air and grab it. and it would sit on my hands like “oh ok.” they are my friends.

also i think it’s funny when fireflies are portrayed as round light bulb-ish shapes. they are skinny.

also their butts are yellow even when not lit up. they’re not just all black until suddenly lighting up yellow! they always got little yellow asses!

they are such friends

fireflies our beloveds <3

Thought people might appreciate this video I got of a firefly that landed on my mom’s ring and sat there flashing for about a good minute or two. They really are just like that

I've had to let a couple people know that fireflies are in fact real.

If you're one of todays lucky ten thousand, i'm happy for you. The world is a marvelous place <3

What surprises me always is not that they are real but how shockingly bright they are. That's a whole ass LED. How does he power it? What a beautiful boy

thr funniest part of therapy to me is when you first come in and you're exchanging niceties and they say "hello! how are you" and you say "im fine how are you :)" and then 30 seconds later they put on their therapist voice and say "so how are you doing?" and you go well lisa. believe it or not im doing Bad

I'm still trying to figure out what to do about this. The second session we had I just straight up said "It feels weird to exchange pleasantries and then immediately contradict them, but when you ask how I am, I don't want to just launch into The Miseries". We technically have an agreement that Pleasantries are part of the format and it's okay if I say "I'm good, how are you?" and then thirty second later talk about what's Not Good, but it still feels absurd. Very Title Of The Song.

People really struggle with the whole WE thing. WE would be the WHOLE UNION not just the millionaires.

this may be an Unpopular Opinion (even on tumblr) but like the 8-hour workday is just Too Gotdamn Long

like even sitting in an office for eight hours a day isn’t particularly pleasant (or healthy, as we are beginning to see) but when we’re talking about doing *actual work* for that same amount time it gets pretty fucking brutal

doing literally *anything* (even leisure activities) for eight hours straight tends to be less than enjoyable but when we’re talking about things like construction, landscaping, factory work, and hell, even foodservice and retail, eight hours is a fucking ETERNITY

i might just be a lazy weak-willed bitch but honestly i think i’m not entirely wrong

this was being worked towards by leftist labor unions way back in the day after the time of FDRs new deal. people in the 40s and 50s were already starting to realize that we no longer actually needed an 8 hour work day or even a 5 day work week.

even with the comparatively primitive factory tech of the time we were already creating a huge amount of excess production back then and companies were making massive amounts of profit. So it already stood to reason that companies should either let their employees work less and thus each employee could work a shorter shift without lowering the yearly compensation of each employee, or in cases where businesses provide an active service they would shorten the shift but hire more people to cover the necessary operating time. but of course that would mean less money for people at the top so companies fought back hard and we ended up with nixon’s bullshit and so on and now its considered the norm for us to spend the vast majority of our lives doing work that really just amounts to waste. 

The IWW realised this and were fighting for it all the way back in the 1930s. This is a take with a lot of historical and theoretical grounding, OP, so you’re standing in good stead.

I’d also like to add it’s also been studied and scientifically proven that after 6 hours, we have an extremely noticeable drop in productivity. Sweden saw nothing but benefits from a 6-hour work day, including worker productivity, happiness, and half the amount of sick-leave used when applied to nurses.

https://onlinemasters.ohio.edu/the-six-hour-workday/

Just gonna add that the IWW is still kicking and basically anyone who is not an employer can join.

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These pictures are killing me

There are many animals I expect to see in caves, but I can confidently say that this was not one of them.

This hack will save your teeth: there are no “right” and “wrong” times to brush your teeth.

It gets in your head that you brush after eating when you wake up and when you go to sleep. Yeah that’s all well and good, but those are times that don’t have a lot of motivation and control…So just…brush your teeth at a different time. 

You go to the bathroom in the middle of the day and are like “I should brush my teeth” DO IT!!!! Don’t listen to the other half of that sentence that says “shit but it’s not the right time” 

I don’t care if you’re about to eat, or get coffee, or whatever. 

If you are there and you want to…do it. 

Honestly this hack will solve most of problems. Just stop assigning meaningless “right” and “wrong” to tasks and start saying “I can pretty much do whatever I want whenever I want and society and its expectations don’t really matter to me”. 

If there’s no barrier in the first place you don’t have to get over it. 

huge ADHD hack. if you can get over the “all or nothing”, moralizing, judging aspect of every action you “should” take, you’ll discover you can get more done than you expect.

I’m a big fan of the 2 PM shower. spend a whole morning feeling lazy and guilty, then just decide to start the day over again, even if it is lunchtime.

you can always begin again. any hour, any moment can be the beginning. you can choose that. the clock doesn’t run you, you run the clock

you can always begin again. any hour, any moment can be the beginning. you can choose that