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wip intro | willows in gold

"Do you trust her?" Damian shouts over to where Yemele kneels in the dirt, her hair a mess, arms up to her elbows smeared with blood.
"No. But I trust her anger."

genre: fantasy, maybe high fantasy

status: writing the sixth draft in five years (help)

"Let me out," whispers the willow. For a few hours, Asja had slept in its endless shadow, but now she's awake and the tree tries to trick her again, just like it did the night before. The bark seems to be moving in waves — like the lake behind it does — and Asja wishes she could give in to its begging.
"Release me and I will end your curse. I can do it. Release me and I will do it."
Asja takes a step forward without actually realizing it. The grip around her knife tightens, making her knuckles turn white and her fingertips red. She knows this small blade won't withstand the wood.
"I am not cursed."
The willow laughs. It's merely a rustling in the wind that's coming from the lake and carries the promise of snow and ice freezing it over.
"A stray daughter? Impossible. The curses stick to them all. And the gold as well."

synopsis: Damian and Asja have been through a lot together. Talking trees, violent kelpies, and other evil things like soldiers or arrest cells — they've seen it all, and successfully weaseled their way out. But this new job brings not the usual disappearing mountain imps, hexed children and dry wells. Nothing that's easy to solve or find or break. This time, they're forced to travel across the continent and right into a kingdom Asja vowed to never set foot into ever again. Soon, Damian begins to wonder; what connects Asja to the capital and why does she fear the ocean? What keeps her from sleeping and why is she adamant in keeping her past a secret? And why does she pick fights with their employer all the time? He doesn't know that the source of it all lays in Sillave, a small peninsula in the south that has recently gained independence — and that Asja is about to reveal his own secret.

Her dreams will start a war between gold and silver, and they're both trapped in the middle.

She can't bear the sun anymore. The blinding gold of its light, the warm brightness that welcomed Asja only moments ago now burns on her skin. Back into the darkness, that's where she wants to go. Friendly, smooth darkness that softens around her, keeps her save, loved, forgotten. Darkness that can't touch her heart and cannot revive the memories. Don't die, yes? Don't. Too little, too late.

snippets:

Yesterday I almost cried because my baby cousin ran up to my grandmother and was like. “Ha! Buhbuh ba ha.” And she said okay you want to show me something? And he led her over to the garden patch and crouched down and pointed at rocks and plants and was like. “Ah. Habah ba ah” as she listened attentively.

And I was like that happened 1,000 years ago. Probably 10,000 years ago. Maybe 100,000. The youngest human in a group went to the oldest one and said to the best of their ability “come see.” And the adult went.

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this is such a beautiful post it doesn't need my dumb addition, but i can't fit this in the tags. at the archaeological site Dolni Vestonice in the Czech Republic there are a bunch of really really fascinating finds and I'm only going to tell you about one tiny detail of one of the most interesting sites in the world.

at this settlement 20-30,000 years ago there lived a person who appears to have been a sort of sorcerer-grandmother-ceramics artist and her workshop was preserved very well in the sedimentary layers. her hut where she had her kilns was full of little sculptures of animals and people that seem to have been made to explode in the kiln on purpose, we're not sure why but nevermind. the relevant detail is that when you sculpt something with your hands and then fire it, your fingerprints can be preserved in the surface of the clay forever, so we have fingerprints of ancient ceramics artists that have survived for tens of thousands of years. and one of the major artifacts from Dolni Vestonice has a fingerprint on it that is so small it could only have belonged to a child

so this shaman-grandmother-sculptor, who was buried with her pet fox by the way, had children running through her workshop and touching everything she made while she was at her mysterious work of creating the world's oldest ceramics, none of which appear to be bowls, bottles, pots, or any "useful" items at all, but rather a collection of animal and human and sometimes anthropomorphic figures, some of which appear to be self portraits. exactly the same as sandersstudios' grandmother being led to the garden by an excited baby. we've all been the same for 30,000 years.

meet the writer tag

i was tagged by the lovely @emelkae (thanks for tagging me & getting me out of my slump!!)

rules: use this picrew to make yourself and answer the questions

here's me!! (my freckles are growing and axpanding rn they be wildin in summer)

three fun facts about me!

  • i love eating and eating well. 80% of my money are spent on good food or cooking ingredients (the other 20% on books). after struggling with illness-related underweight for 12 years i developed illness-related diabetes right when i started to love eating, call me fucked by my pancreas ♡ now that i've got a grip on my insulin therapy (thanks to guesstimating everything) i'm slowly gaining weight again so i'm officially no more underweight!!
  • i'm so bad at (online) dating it's getting ridiculous (i'm still trying though because i refuse to deny myself the joy of being known etc pp).
  • the motto i follow with almost religious devotion: if you have tats, tits and hairy pits you don't need any more accessories

fav season — spring or autumn but never the one we're currently in

continent where i live — europe

how i spend my time — i'm a full time archaeology student since i quit my last waiter/gastronomy side job in april and don't intend to work service agsin anytime soon, and i have two big presentations coming up. i'm living in the library 8am-10pm seven days a week so....not much writing or reading is getting done on my part sadly. when i have more free time i'm doing various arts & craft activities and sit by the river near my apartment before movie nights with my friends :)

am i published? — if fanfictions on ao3 and a few writing contests throughout high school don't count, then no. hoping to have articles published after getting my degree next year maybe🤞

introvert or extrovert? — i'm a very easygoing person (i've been told i'm sociable and friendly even around new people and at parties) but my social battery is empty very quickly and i can't stand smalltalk haha so i stick to my friendgroup. so extroverted with short shelf life?

fav meal — gnocchi al pomodoro but only homemade ♡

leaving an open tag!! enjoy & have a great day <3

so disappointed & sad rn bc i've been alone in our apartment all week and i deepcleaned it on tuesday all by myself bc my flatmate was in berlin with her new boyfriend and they came back tonight two hours before i got home from studying and she didn't say thanks for cleaning or even acknowledged it and instead said they'd sleep in tomorrow and i have to be quiet (i always am in the morning i don't even go into the kitchen) and they'll go to bed now because they're tired good night and now i can hear them watch a movie (which is fine ofc but it still hurts that she'd lie about going to bed and being too tired to talk) and i can't sleep now because i'm so lonely it hurts AND the bathroom is dirty again even though i wiped down every surface after using it this whole week. they've been home for 3 hours man i'm so tired

one time last year i was on the phone with my mom and she talked about cigarettes and how bad they are and she paused and said "swear to me you won't ever smoke" and i was like "of course i won't smoke" while on my third cigarette of the day

this was the same call where she was like "tattoos are so ugly i don't want you to get even one!! i could never look at you again" and i was like "sure i won't get one" while trying not to scratch my freshly done tattoo

one month later she said "NEVER get another piercing you'd look like a hooker" just as i'm switching the phone from one ear to the other because the new ear piercing hurt. i am Sensing A Pattern here

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one time last year i was on the phone with my mom and she talked about cigarettes and how bad they are and she paused and said "swear to me you won't ever smoke" and i was like "of course i won't smoke" while on my third cigarette of the day

this was the same call where she was like "tattoos are so ugly i don't want you to get even one!! i could never look at you again" and i was like "sure i won't get one" while trying not to scratch my freshly done tattoo

one month later she said "NEVER get another piercing you'd look like a hooker" just as i'm switching the phone from one ear to the other because the new ear piercing hurt. i am Sensing A Pattern here

one time last year i was on the phone with my mom and she talked about cigarettes and how bad they are and she paused and said "swear to me you won't ever smoke" and i was like "of course i won't smoke" while on my third cigarette of the day

this was the same call where she was like "tattoos are so ugly i don't want you to get even one!! i could never look at you again" and i was like "sure i won't get one" while trying not to scratch my freshly done tattoo

one time last year i was on the phone with my mom and she talked about cigarettes and how bad they are and she paused and said "swear to me you won't ever smoke" and i was like "of course i won't smoke" while on my third cigarette of the day