There's a fire burning, and I'm learning to be

So much more than my tiredness

So much more than that old witch sleep wishes

She kisses my eyelids

And I breathe

“It was the case once. Later my opinion changed. Later, I was grateful to you.” THE WITCHER BOOK QUOTES #2 Andrzej Sapkowski ▸ Blood of Elves

not long after artur’s death, come the nightmares. the queen and the magician find each other then; and while they don’t quite fit together, not really, never will, the new emptiness never filled, holding each other at night keeps them sane enough.

the nightmares still come, of course, and arthur’s still dead at the bottom of the lake. but he remains, in a way, in the two people he loved; and they guard him, his love forever safe between their warm bodies.

So according go google:

The feeling of anxiety is physiologically almost the same as the feeling of excitement. Both feelings produce an elevated heart rate and a feeling of butterflies in your stomach. Both might make you sweat.

Imagine, geralts going in for a kiss. But then he senses jaskiers increased heart rate, he smells the adrenaline spike, he can see jaskiers hands trembling.

Oh.

Of course.

Of Course this sweet bard, with eyes shining brightly with life would be afraid of geralt. He's a mutant, a butcher, a monster.

Thank melitele that geralt saw the signs of jaskiers fear before he pushed jaskier into something he didn't want.

Meanwhile jaskier saw geralt lean in, ready to kiss him. But suddenly hesitating and pulling away with a shake of his head.

Oh

Of course.

Of Course geralt doesn't want to be with a pathetic human. He's been with beautiful and powerful people. He is beautiful, powerful, and destined for greatness. Why would he settle for a humble bard?

Thank melitele it didnt go any further, after all, he's shoveled enough shit onto geralt already, without adding his unrequited feelings to the list.

Mmmm OP I’m gonna need you to take this ALL THE WAY BACK.

It gets better.

Jaskier becomes alot more anxious afterwards. Now geralt knows how jaskier feels and he pulled away. So now jaskier is terrified that he's going to lose geralts friendship forever.

So he talks less, doesn't reach out to give geralt friendly touches anymore.

Geralt assumes it's because jaskier is disgusted by him for daring to attempt to turn their friendship into romance.

So he reverts back to the geralt he was before he met jaskier. High walls around his shattered heart. Surly, rude, angry at the world. And even more angry at himself for daring to believe for even a second that someone could love him.

@0dde11eth …….

This is it.

Today is the day I'll finally let him go.

For good this time.

it kills geralt as he comes to the realization. Jaskiers been smelling more sad every day. At night he can smell the brunettes salty tears, and it makes him wish he was capable of weeping.

Its yet another thing the mutations have taken from him. Perhaps it's the cruelest part of his lost humanity, the inability to wash out the sorrow he's feeling with tears.

He decides to be selfish. To give himself one last golden day with the bard. Something to tuck away into his heart, for those nights when the loneliness wants to devour him, and the pain is seemingly endless.

Jaskiers face lights up when he sees the waves lapping at the sand. His laughter is unaffected by any past sorrows. When he turns to geralt, the sparkle in his eyes matches the shimmering ocean.

Jaskier leads their frolicking. They build sand castles and watch the waves knock them over. They wrestle in the water, geralt inevitably winning every round. But jaskier still giving it his all until he smells of salty tears, from laughing too hard.

Geralt gathers seaweed, while jaskier looks for pretty shells, and rocks. Together they make a portrait of roach. Geralt teases jaskier that it looks more like a kikimora and laughs when the bard swats at him in mock offense.

They float in the blue waters, peacefully until one can't resist annoying the other and they both end up half drowned from a splashing contest.

Jaskier naps on the warm sand, his heart beating steadily, a rhythm that Geralt commits to memory. It'll be a steady tune for him to carry when the bard no long walks beside him, but rather pursues his own, better path.

As the sun sets they sit around a campfire, leaning against eachother, marveling at the way the colors dance around each other.

Geralt closes his eyes, wishing he could live in this moment forever. He breathes deeply and tries to prepare himself to tell the bard that he is free to leave. That geralt won't stop him from pursuing what pleases him.

There's the smell of wildflowers interlacing perfectly with the salt of the sea. It's subtle at first. But the smell has grown stronger by the end of the day, until geralts head is practically swimming with the wonderful smell. He can't help but look for the source, and he ends up leaning into jaskier, the dark strands of hair tickling his nose as he breathes in the scent coming off the poet.

Oh.

Oh

That's what he's been missing this entire time. He's been so lost in his own self hatred that he has completely missed the obvious.

The sweet scent of wildflowers, it's the way jaskier has always smelt around him.

Its the smell of happiness.

It's the smell of friendship.

It's the smell of Love.

Geralt pulls back from jaskier and gazes at him. Geralt moves even slower this time. Carefully watching and noting every one of jaskiers physical reactions.

His pupils are dilated, and they are staring at geralts lips.

His heart is beating quicker than usual, but it's not the same rhythm as when jaskier is truly terrified.

His hands are trembling as they cup geralts face, yet they pull him closer.

His lips are tentative, but grow bolder as they kiss.

Jaskier wants this. He wants geralt. This realization rocks him to his core. There's a soft tickle on geralts cheek, and he brushes his fingers against it, surprised when they come away wet.

A tear has slipped out. One of joy, and hope, and love.

They'll be OK. It'll take time, effort and communication. They'll have slip ups and set backs.

They'll need to work through their insecurities, past heartbreaks, and traumas.

But they love each other, and that will carry them through every low, and lift them higher than they've even been before.

For everyone's heart I broke, I did fix it for them ,

But I will break it again! >:D

woahg.. gay ppl....

Reblogs are absolutely appreciated!

Stuck in a box with an angel

i'm on twt

been fighting this one and am giving up so here is the wip

Batman last knight on earth. 2

Lilly Evans was probably snarky as hell, that’s why she got along with Snape. Where do you think Harry inherited all that sass? His dumbass father???

When I was a kid I heard that Alan Rickman took the child actors out for milkshakes to help them not be afraid of Snape, but then they ended up spilling the milkshake in his car. I have no idea if it’s actually true but it’s always been on my mind :’)

Some time in the future…

dear jkr's radfem and terf defenders,

how did it make you feel when hermione was objectified at 11 years old and the boys weren't?

how did it make you feel when ginny became a plot device?

how did it make you feel when trelawney was reduced to a crazy woman?

how did it make you feel when lily's entire character arc was her decision between two male harassers?

how did it make you feel when lavender became the 'other girl' to hermiome?

how did it make you feel when hermione vs lavender was a legitimate sub plot in hbp?

how did it make you feel when half the gryffindor girls were mindlessly obsessed with harry to the point that ron was poisoned?

how did it make you feel when viktor krum chose hermione not because he liked her for her, but because she wasn't constantly thirsting over his fame, giving her the "she's not like other girls" complex which pushed the idea that all the other girls were mindless drones?

how did it make you feel when fleur and tonks' strong female roles were abandoned once they were married?

how did it make you feel when cho was forced into a new relationship only a few months after her boyfriend died?

how did it make you feel when every single adult female character with a significant part in the story except mcgonagall adhered to gender roles?

how does it make you feel everyday when jkr pushes gender roles by enforcing gender conformity?

stop kidding yourselves. jkr is not a feminist.

sincerely,

aficionadoenthusiast

since we all don’t like harry potter and hate jk can we change the cultrual meaning of the word snape, instead the defult image of snape being professor snape it should be snail tape

MOONY

spread the word

You look like you play Hogwarts Legacy (derogatory)

Rant moment 🗿 if you like jkr or harry potter you wont like this...also fuck off LMAO.

"stop harassing people for playing a game!!"

it's not fucking harassment when you've been trying to tell others that a games main creator is a terf/antisemite/etc just for you to ignore it & go on about your fucking day.

i deserve to be upset at this. you claim that playing this game dont affect reality when jk has said HERSELF that all royalties she gets is directed funding her and her views.

it also pisses me off when my fellow queers and when other jewish indv play this game and go "i bought it and i like it :)" like they're either a troll...or....get this...also a fucking bigot and antisemite.

"there's bigger things to focus on" sure there usually always is.

BUT

if a REAL LIFE ACTIVE TERF is getting MONEY CONSTANTLY to FUND ANTI-TRANS BILLS

i think that's a pretty big thing to focus on.

yall mfs are insufferable and ive never hated the words "it's just a game" and "it's fiction" more.

just say you hate trans people and jewish people. you'd get your goddamn point across easier.

i literally feel gaslit for how some are taking this, usually this is coming from cis goyim.

im not over reacting or being "too much"

if im straight up being called a tranny or a troon or having "49%er" being replied/told to me over trying to explain how this OBVIOUS precious game (/sarc) is a fucking mess...

there's a problem.

We all know that Jaskier is all woah a Witcher until he's not but I take that and raise you a "oh you're a Witcher... fantastic good for you." Heavy sarcasm and lute plucking. "I bet you get covered in guts and sleep on rocks all night. Very impressive." And Geralt finds himself like not trying to prove himself but he just killed 2 werewolves like 5 days ago dammit that's not easy and actually very impressive thank you very much. So Jaskier follows him like "I'm only sticking around to see if you're as good as the rumors." And Geralt kills some screeching thing in the woods and Jaskier finds himself begrudgingly agreeing that he is in fact very impressive and maybe he'll stick around just in case that was a one off. Geralt is absolutely Not Preening^tm. But he totally could. If that was a thing he wanted to do.