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Queer Trans Man Fan Wiccan

@goatguy7399

My opinions: dysphoriacourse is stupid, ace-neutral, pro-nb.
Diagnosed: ADD, Major Depression, Generalized Anxiety.
Undiagnosed: gender dysphoria.
Just putting that out there to piss off two specific people not using it as some excuse.

my friend just told me that there's a secret second dashboard that solely contains posts from people you've turned on post notifications for, and when i click the link in the messages it opens it within the tumblr app, so the tumblr app also has a secret second dashboard for post notification blogs, and the only way to access it is to open the link for it within the app.

i literally love tumblr

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i have a private pinned post that just has a link to this dashboard on it, it's great. two dashboards for life

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wow! i was really hoping someone would organically reverse-engineer this and find that dash.

here are a few other "secret" dashboards:

these are all just taking existing feeds of content and putting them in a dashboard-like format... the "Stuff for you" tab/feed is the same idea.

So I’m in contact with a mortgage broker and real estate agent to get my own place and what you’ve done to your house is amazing if you have any advice for someone’s first time home from what to look for or avoid or pack or whatever I’d appreciate it

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This is my first home too!

I would say that be most mindful of the things you can't change--location, lot size, light, etc; and then following that, the things you don't have the budget to change, like major structural problems and so on. And be aware of what you can live with. I personally like my house to be an ongoing project, so I'm fine with gutting and redoing one room at a time, but that drives some people crazy.

As far as packing--buy yourself a bunch of heavy-duty plastic tote bins, ideally a matching, stacking set. You'll inevitably reuse them for storage after the move, and it's worth it to have ones that are durable and can be nested when not in use.

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i think that… approximately 100% of the time, parents, teachers, etc… have this misconception that neurodivergent kids & teens don’t know anything about how to handle their neurodivergence.

for years, i suffered through people making suggestions of things that were things i had done, and either weren’t worth the effort or they actually made things worse. i told them this, and if i was still having any issues with the same problem they’d say something about “well if you’re not gonna listen to any suggestions…” when I did. they’re the one who didn’t listen when i told them that doesn’t work for me. They assume that because I didn’t try it in front of them (which is often impossible), I never tried it. I tried doing my homework as soon as I got home. I tried doing my homework at the table, I tried working where I was comfortable. I tried listening to music, I tried working in silence. I tried using a planner, I tried setting reminders on my phone, I tried. I tell people that I have executive functioning issues and they say that I have to work on it like I haven’t been doing that as long as I’ve had to do things and it’s so much better than it was before. I’m as able as I am now because I’ve spent 18 years working on it.

One of my friends has ADHD, and at one point when her grades dropped her parents took her phone, despite her telling them that the only way she can focus on her homework is to listen to music, for which she needs her phone.

I was in a study hall with another friend, who also has ADHD. Sometimes, they would be able to focus and do their work. Others, they would end up being entirely unable to and would do other stuff. The “instructional support” person would start bothering them about it, insist that they try. As if they hadn’t already done so.

I am tired of watching people assume that neurodivergent people aren’t trying, or we haven’t tried. We’re always trying.

Fucking this

Also: after thirty-mumble years of living with autism, I CAN in fact usually tell right away when trying - trying AT THAT PARTICULAR TASK, AT THAT PARTICULAR TIME, IN THAT PARTICULAR WAY - is going to be useless. Just like someone who’d been living with chronic pain for an equal amount of time would be able to tell the difference between a “I can manage if I’m careful and conserve energy” day and a “not going to happen” day. 

It’s not being “lazy” or “defeatist” or “not showing the right attitude”. It’s being unwilling to throw good energy after bad in order to satisfy some NT person’s need to make sure we’re “trying hard enough”. 

Tragic news like half the ways people talk about magic in fiction could irl be applied to maths

"magic is the threads that tie the world together, the unspoken web at the heart of the universe" that's mathematics babey!

You ever think about how when you gauge if it's safe to cross the road based off how fast and far away the cars are you're actually doing difficult calculus subconsciously? Almost like maths is something you have an inherent understanding of in many ways but in order to advance in it and truly understand it you have to learn it in an academic setting? Almost like many magic systems?

tags from @inneskeeper are SO GOOD

The walls didn't bleed, but the black sludge that slid down them at the first hint of rain had no plausible source. The cellar smelled of death, and yet the rammed earth had been swept clean. Doors slammed. The hot water was either ice cold, or a hazard. The stairs were... agile and greasy.

"Do you remember when Grandma got sick? When her feelings got too big and she got tired and sad?" She said, softly and quietly to her children, holding their hands. "I think the house's feelings got very big. I think the house saw some really scary things like Grandma did when she was little, and it's feelings are too big to carry. I don't think houses are supposed to feel things like that. It doesn't want to be mean, it's just tired and sad. We don't have to let it be mean, but we can't be mean back, okay?"

Ashleigh would read the house bedtime stories from her thick, cardboard, books. Stories about the moon, and kittens, and even one about a friendly spider. She still saw shadows sometimes, but they only stood in the doorway now. They didn't try to reach for her ankles in the dark. That was okay, because she didn't like to sleep alone anyway. She would tell the shadow goodnight, and that she hoped it had good dreams.

Bryce knew to use the infra-red thermometer to check the water before showers. "Hey, it really hurts when you try to burn me. Okay? I just don't want to stink like a-... like butt after band. I don't know why you don't want us to shower but like... see these things on the floor? They're rough so you can't slip or nothing, okay? Please don't burn me." And it didn't. Sometimes the temperature shifted a little but never as badly as before.

Sometimes they prayed with the house. They weren't sure what else to do. They didn't pray at it, and it wasn't exactly Christian or ... anything else really, but they just ... just... sat with it, and said words of gratitude and peaceful contemplation. They wondered if it missed that moment of familial togetherness around the table. Each of them would note something good about their day, and something that maybe had been bad but had taught them something important, and there was always mention of being grateful for a roof over their heads... that shelter, togetherness, and safety made it a Home.

"I like it here, Mommy." Ashleigh had said once. "It was scary at first but you were right... the house was just scared. We were new, and different and I think the house was scared we might tear it up and change it. But I like it here."

"I like it here too, Baby." She had said, quietly. She liked that she could afford to feed, clothe, and house two children because the house had sold for pennies on the dollar. She liked that there was room here for hobbies and game rooms, for a home office and a real dining room. "I think, deep down, the house likes us too. We know some sad things happened here, and that's a lot of big feelings. I think that as long as we're good to the house and show it that it doesn't have to be scary, or scared... that it'll get better."

That night she stared at the spot of damp threatening to leech through the fresh coat of paint. "House... or... whoever you are. My kids have been through a lot. And we're going to keep having this little talk for as long as we have to. Please just love them the way I love them. Love them the way they love you. You see how they walk in the door after school and the world falls off of their shoulders because they're home? That's not just us, that's you too."

The house settled, almost sighed. It, the amalgamation of suffering and grief and love and joy and birthday parties and funerals and breakfasts and beatings and... life... emotions... feelings... It, the House, considered the wisdom of this Mother's words. It could run them away and sip on their fear and rage or it could love them fiercely, and grow strong with them for generations.

That... wouldn't be so bad.