Prince Stolas references of him as a dragon
Hi everyone. I've started a series of recordings with people from the Floraverse community to go over issues and stuff, and talk about our feelings and experiences. They're all heavy subjects so far.
If you'd like to discuss these with me or others in the Floraverse community, please check the Floraverse Owel Discord out!
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This is the next VN in the Althar VN set! This one sets up some information about the leaders of the various Althar religions, and a bit of information about Teslic Yard as well. This is in prep for the first major RP event on March 11 in the Floraverse Owel Discord server.
Help on this VN from @zuckerbeere @pengosolvent Pajou @lexyeevee and Japhet!
Floraverse update!
14 page comic by River!
So, The Art Pyramid event was the last RP event, and ran from Sept 26 to Nov 6-7. It was a lot more intense than I (or anyone) expected it would be! It was an extremely fun event overall, and we learned a lot about how to manage RP. This event is going to be longer! This comic serves as a little intro to what Althar will be like. There will be more updates going forward - such as a 35-40 minute VN to be posted today, and maps and whatnot to be posted later either this month or next month.
The Althar RP event should be running from today (Feb 14) to Sept 26, with the first major event in the story for others to participate in occurring on March 11-12. Over time, each of the major religions in Althar will have their own events for characters to participate in. We'll be getting forms and such ready within the week for participation!
Please join the Floraverse Owel Discord if interested!
I'll be talking about this a lot more as time goes on too!
Floraverse VN - The Spirit of Art
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Hi everyone! I'm running an event along with my friends from Sept 26 - Nov 5-6, a weekly set of classes for beginners...! It's an RP event in the Floraverse Eastar server, and the goal is to learn together and have fun expressing together.
There are 5 different kinds of classes available: Art/color theory, Abstract thinking, 3D modeling, Pico-8 Programming, Creative writing. These will be classes for beginners, but you're welcome to join even if you're experienced in order to make things together!
Please check the site update and update description for more details!
Please join the Floraverse Eastar Discord if you're interested in joining!
They're finally here! It's been a while!
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Content warning: non-sexual boobs/emetophobia
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I've been kind of busy lately! This update has been finished on my end for a bit, but Eevee has been working on the editor. Currently working on different games, but hopefully we'll be releasing a shorter one "soon" -- I started it two years ago, but I'm not sure when it'll be finished. I'd like to finish it before releasing Part 3 though (which I've been looking forward to making for over half a year now).
Overall though.... this story is finally going in directions I've been wanting to go for years. I've been doing a lot of work behind the scenes, both on my own feelings and life and also concentrating the kinds of messages I want to make stories about, so it's been a little slow to get back to posting the VNs like I used to, but they're more attuned to what I want to be making and I feel very good about it overall. I hope you enjoy!
Floraverse: Looking back on Marl, BigFluff, and hidden abuse/grooming
THIS POST IS A PERSONALIZED APOLOGY, CONTEXT FOR FEELINGS, AND AN EXPLANATION OF ACTIONS FOR APRIL 2018, WHEN I LEFT TUMBLR AND TOOK A BREAK FROM POSTING TO FLORAVERSE DUE TO GROOMING ALLEGATIONS. I TOOK THE PAST FOUR YEARS TO SORT MY LIFE OUT AND UNDERSTAND WHAT HAPPENED. THIS IS NOT A COMPLETE ACCOUNT OF MY FEELINGS ON THE SUBJECT.
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BigFluff:
To start, I understand if this is hard to connect with. I do not expect you to connect with it, nor do I expect a reply. I am writing this because I feel it is necessary, and because it matters to me to try to accurately talk about issues. If there is any point of this that feels inaccurate to you, I request that you please understand that it is not written that way out of malice, but out of ignorance – or not understanding your point of view. While I am asking for your understanding in this way, I also acknowledge that you do not owe me anything, and so it is up to you whether or not you reject my request for understanding.
I do not feel you deserved any of the pain or invalidation you received from me or anyone else, whether they be close to me or a stranger to me, over your pain in what happened to you. I feel that the pain you received in general was at times cruel, be it from me, Marl, or anyone else. I'm sorry that I invalidated your pain over Marl grooming you. I'm sorry that this invalidation took the form of aggressive discrediting, such as dismissing you as a liar. Invalidating pain in this way is deeply harmful, and while you do not have to believe me, I do regret having invalidated you and I do try to go forward keeping the pain I've caused in mind.
I'm sorry that I made you uncomfortable when Marl invited you over without telling me he was doing so. He kept a lot from me, and so I did not realize a stranger was in the house when I walked out nude. Had I known anyone but my housemates were present, I would have put clothes on before exiting my room. So, I am sorry that I exposed you to my nudity without your consent, regardless of the fact that I did not know you were there. I never would have wanted to do so to you or to anyone.
I am sorry I did not take the time to understand that you had felt uncomfortable at that time and wanted an apology. I did not know you, nor did Marl tell me much of anything about you, so I did not realize you were uncomfortable during the time meeting you took place. By the time you posted on KF about it, you worded your discomfort about my walking out nude in ways that, to me, felt like you assumed malicious intentions I did not have, and I felt very hurt by this due to my history, where I had been deeply hurt by Pengo misremembering many of my actions as actively malicious (where now we both know that this came from Marl having said much to him about me that was not accurate, including that I did not care about him).
Marl pushed me further into this narrative that you were a liar, actively pushing me away from resolving the issue with you, as he benefited from this. I feel pain when I recall this, because I put stock into him when he had already hurt me and lied so many times. I do wish I could have broken away earlier and listened earlier, but I also recognize I did not at the time, and so I try to deconstruct why I did not so that I can watch out for signs going forward.
Regardless, I wish I could have stated my hurt feelings without projecting anger and aggression on you, and I am sorry that I did not do so. I am sorry I did not ask more to understand your pain and discomfort. I truly thought you were misrepresenting me and my intentions out of malice, and not because Marl misled you, but this does not justify the anger and aggression I showed in return. Regardless of Marl's hand in the situation, I am still sad to have shown you that anger and aggression.
I was told by a friend who reads the thread that you wanted apologies for what I did to you, personally. So, I tried to do that in the above section. I am not going to apologize for anything Marl did, as those actions are on him and are his responsibility. I feel deep pain over what Marl has done, but it is important to me to keep my actions separate from Marl's, as acting like they are one and the same was what Marl did. I want to be accountable for what I have done, I want to understand my impact, and I register that Marl has been conflated with me and I register that he had even told others that I agreed with things I never agreed to, or wanted things I never wanted, but I cannot agree with what Marl said.
Marl does not speak for me, nor did he at the time, so anything he said to you about me is not a valid representation of how I felt or how I feel. I understand that what he said has affected you and affected how you viewed me, and that he used me as leverage for gaining your trust, and I do not want to belittle that that was a huge part in all of this.
I wish Marl had not spoken for me to you, and I do not like that he essentially manipulated you using words he spoke for "me". I hope knowing this very directly will help you in your processing of what happened, both in how he acted and in how I acted. I hope it will help you make sense of things. Genuinely, I would like for you to be able to feel more understood in this pain. Understanding various aspects of this situation and of other painful situations has helped me process pain, and I hope it can for you too.
I was told you did not want an apology that was "about me", so I tried to focus on your pain while retaining both of our contexts in the above paragraphs. If I have missed something that is important to you, I would be glad to write something about that as well. I do not read the thread, though, so please do not assume I would see a public message there. I understand I mentioned a friend of mine has read the threads, but they do not actually tell me much about it generally unless it is relevant to preventing harm to my community.
I will trust that you would find another way to convey your feelings to me if you wanted to, but I will not assume you have anything to say.
If you do not want to read more than an apology, then I suggest you either stop reading here or take a break to prepare yourself, as the rest of the writing will be my own understanding of what has occurred and my feelings that align to my understanding. Reading feelings from someone you do not trust not to hurt you further can be very painful and upsetting, and I do not want to cause unnecessary distress to you, so this is a warning just in case you need one.