Saw your post about how nothing makes sense and how it seems like all you are doing is messing up. I couldn't reply to that post but I wanted to tell you it's gonna be ok.
Honestly most people go through this. I definitely did. That's what your twenties are. A long string of f**k ups and mistakes. But you know something? It may not seem like it, but you are learning from those mistakes. One day you will wake up and it will all click and make sense. I promise. Hang in there and keep your chin up. Better days are ahead.
You are most definitely right. I am so hard on myself and most days I just the most overly critical person on myself for simply existing. That’s something I really need to work on that and just letting things be- accepting that sometimes things go wrong and the world still turns. I am waiting for the day things click for me. Thank you angel. 🩷
Nothing like spending 10 minutes a day whitening my teeth and then smoking a cig after I’m done
There is an intense modern obsession with working on yourself in the most counter intuitive ways. Tik tok is all about shadow work journaling so I’m assuming it’s an increasing trend. Prepare for the absolute worst person you know working their abandonment and guilt wounds into conversations while flipping through their 20% off purchase from the tik tok shop use my code for free shipping yawn. If I still worked with that one homicidal self proclaimed empath from my last job she’d be stuffing it in her locker while side eyeing me just begging me to ask. There is nothing inherently wrong with wanting to be your best self/working on your hang ups but there is a such thing as too much awareness and analyzation of self. Marketing to a distorted younger demographic that are obviously desperate for some sense of self-understanding, identity, and rationale while still so underdeveloped and established as a fully formed person just breeds eternal misery and a dull generation. It’s almost as sinister as the interpolation of expressing interest in someone and it’s modern equivalence to ‘love bombing’. Therapy-speak is a societal parasite.
I hate out of town weddings enough but out of state weddings are so presumptuous. I once had a bitch I hated in high school ask if I was gonna carpool with other bitches I hated in high school just to go to her tacky Florida ass wedding. A 13 hour drive of autistic misery just to get sand in all my crevices posing with girls who called me fat only to buck up for another 13 hours back. No ma’am. Don’t even get me started on those who have out of country weddings like seriously suck my balls. Who the fuck can just RSVP for a midweek in Greece paying out of their own pocket for some couple like you are exponentially fucked in the head. Buy my flight and hotel tho and we’ll talk.
Happy September thank god fall is on the horizon I am searching for holiday peace and I must rewatch Gossip Girl asap. It’s Friday and a 3 day weekend for me all is well. Have a lovely day to all 🫶🏼
I would happily show anyone my internet search history like what am I protecting. Crochet patterns for beginners. Free ePub books online. The land before time Judith Barsi story. Itching when withdrawing from Seroquel. Harley Quinn hbo. Teen wolf fanfiction. Teenage mutant ninja turtles mutant mayhem action figures. Telehealth virtual appointment logins. V C Andrews incest obsession. Panera bread pastries. Where to watch preachers’ daughters reality show in 2023. Fiona Gallagher crying crazy gif. Cruella 2021 ending meaning. Is there gonna be a Cruella 2. Lana Del Rey hd photoshoot scans. Most of these are from the last few days. I am nothing if not a shamelessly curious girl and if that’s a crime then lock me up.
Whenever I’m talking to someone (usually at absolutely any job I’ve ever had) I find myself fake smiling and putting on the most likable persona and the moment they look away or leave I just drop into a stone face. I’m not even saying this in a boohoo I’m so different I’m American psycho coded like this has been my life since middle school. Just a constant forced character for myself. It’s so exhausting.
I don’t know what it is but it seems the older I get the dumber I become or maybe just feel. As a teen I was (still) suicidal but at the very least didn’t constantly fumble and fuck up so religiously like I always seem to do in my twenties. I used to be so excited to grow up all for the prospect of finally being taken seriously; feeling like I was always too old for my age anyway. Now I just feel like a big dumbass overgrown kid faking her way through every action, dilemma, relationship, etc. Nothing ever makes sense, people are so very hard to read, and life is becoming too difficult for me to even navigate. It just all feels like one huge performance that nobody gave me a script to.
My (25F) werewolf boyfriend (28M) is mad at me because I showered immediately after he scented me but I had to get ready for work. Later, I gave him a handmade glittery heart-shaped card that said ‘you bring out the beast me in me’ but that only made things worse. Now he’s sleeping at the foot of our bed and ignoring me. AITA?
Sorry if this sounds weird but you have the most beautiful nose I've ever seen!
Stoppp this is the sweetest compliment. I used to hate my nose as a kid but I grew to love her in adulthood!! Thank you baby 🩷
This year has been so incredibly awful for me. Praying that with the law of averages that the rest of the year balances itself out and I am shown some grace