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Alive Together; ‘In the Thriving Season’ by Lisel Mueller

[ID: love grows by what it remembers of love.]

anne boyer “the harm will come: it never doesn’t” / julia armfield “to watch a horror movie is to know that something bad is going to happen. to have a body is really the same thing” / hilary mantel “we don’t have to invite pain in, it’s waiting for us: sooner rather than later” / marie howe “you know how we’ve been waiting for the big pain to come? I think it’s here. I think this is it. I think it’s been here all along” / gregory orr “I want to go back to the beginning. we all do. I think: hurt won’t be there. but I’m wrong” / toni morrison “the hurt was always there” / torrey peters “pain that had to be endured, withstood, pain that was the same as being alive, and so without end”

#that one line from sharp objects … #do you ever feel like bad things are going to happen and you can’t stop them? you can’t do anything you just have to wait?

#THE lake mungo quote #I feel like something bad is going to happen to me. I feel like something bad has happened. it hasn’t reached me yet but it’s on its way

on shame and yearning (pt.2)

Sources:

Anne Carson, Plainwater: Essays and Poetry

Richard Siken, from "Wishbone", Crush

Virginia Woolf, from The Waves

ronan is better than me because if my family, friends, and partner all left me behind, alone in my hometown, i think i'd do more than almost set the world on fire but personally that's just me

neil hilborn, numbered days

my five year plan? read a lot of books. visit museums. walk through woods. stand in a river. adopt a little kitty. drink lemonade while sitting in a rocking chair on my porch.

Richard siken / dave eggers

breakfastless behavior

does anyone know when we get to stop being afraid

Call Down the Hawk, Maggie Stiefvater // Greywaren, Maggie Stiefvater // Maggie Stiefvater // The Raven King, Maggie Stiefvater // Maggie Stiefvater // Take Me to Church, Hozier // Church, Chase Atlantic // Church, Fall Out Boy // Blue Lily, Lily Blue, Maggie Stiefvater // Young God, Halsey // Coming Down, Halsey // Alexandre Haefeli // Unknown // Heaven, Troye Sivan // Take Me to Church, Hozier // Memento Interlude, Dinos and Charlotte Cardin // Take Me to Church, Hozier // Heaven in Hiding, Halsey

on shame and yearning (pt.1)

You're trying not to tell him you love him, and you're trying to choke down the feeling, and you're trembling, but he reaches over and he touches you, like a prayer for which no words exist, and you feel your heart taking root in your body, like you've discovered something you don't even have a name for.

― Salma Deera, Letters From Medea

need a cup of coffee. an excellent therapist, some wiser older human to cry to. a poem that’ll have my neck between its teeth, a million dollars, to go somewhere far. to retreat, to overcome my fear of trying and of facing a blank page. etc, etc

—longing for love

what i could never confess without some bravado by emily palermo // nickie zimov // homosexuality by frank o’hara // normal people (2020) // the unabridged journal by sylvia plath // holly warburton

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