my spotify playlist masterlist for all your quarantine needs
- for lazy hazy afternoons
- for when it’s past midnight and you need to dance to something trashy and pop
- for when you can’t remember why you are still here
- for rainy nights where you think too deeply
- for when you’re only fifty percent human and the other fifty percent is something more feral and monstrous
- for anxiety attacks and breakdowns
- for when you only want to listen to sad white men singing about sad things
- for when you’re drinking soda and the bubbles make your nose tingle
- for feeling weightless
- for when you’re walking on an uneven pavement and the sun is beating down your neck
- for simultaneous crying and bopping
- for when one more sad song might make you scream
- for your bruised and tender soul
- for pretending you’re in an upbeat indie electropop band with your three best friends and you’re all gay
- for unconventional alternative love songs
- for when you need a reminder of what living feels like because everything feels grey
- for pretending you can afford all the things you added to your cart on sephora
- for when you’re breaking your own heart
- for drifting off into another world at night
- for when you’re feeling stuck but also hopeful but also tired but also excited
- for when you need your heartbeat to slow back down
- for believing in love again
- for daydreaming on a hillside under a soft sunset
- for when you realize she has the most beautiful smile and looking at it hurts
- for when you need the warmest coziest hug
- for feeling as small as dust and as infinite as the universe, all at once
- for when your heart needs to feel soft and easy and happy
- for seeing the person you’re in love with and realizing you need to let them go and start moving on
- for when you feel like you’ve been set on fire
- for putting on makeup in the morning even though it feels like there’s no point but also you just want to look really fucking cute for no reason
- for when you need to be eased into pulling yourself together
- for summer days laying outside on your front lawn daydreaming about lemonade
- for pretending you’re a depressed mermaid who lives in the arctic ocean
- for when you’re daydreaming about the future so that you can forget for a moment how unhappy you are
- for being transported back to 2012 when you were trashy and emo and cringey as hell
- for staring in the mirror in the dark and thinking about the experience of womanhood
- for punching walls and smashing people’s heads in
- for cutting fruit to make into a cobbler because fuck you want to eat something cozy and comforting then
- for when things are … not going quite how you thought they would
- for when your life feels like an actual movie and you need to soundtrack it
- for unwinding from a stressful day
- for when you feel like a ghost running through a forest while it’s raining and foggy
- for when you actually yell back for the first time and the adrenaline pumps through your blood
- for when it’s raining outside and you’re staring out the window longing to run in the rain but instead you’re stuck inside
- for feeling like you’re right inside of a black hole
- for when you’re anxiety says something stupid to you and for once you know it’s wrong and you fight back
- for when you need to feel bigger than what you are in that moment
- for when you put your trust in someone and you’re terrified
- for feeling inexplicably sad and upset and lonely
- for knowing it’s okay to cry
- for when it’s late at night and you can’t stop thinking about him
- for haunting unholy songs that help you pretend that you’re a demon
- for breathing properly, just when it feels like you’ll never be able to again
- for feeling unformed and unfinished and unknown
- for almost being at peace but something is nagging at you
- for just really needing to hear james blake’s voice
- for when you love someone so much but you can’t talk to them because the words don’t come out
- for being a teenager at the fucking-things-up-and-breaking-rules stage of a coming-of-age film