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*constant shrieking*

@fuckking-nerd-blog

Concept: I finish school. The job I work isn’t my dream job but I enjoy doing it greatly still. It pays enough to cover everything I might need. My bills are never overdue. Money is not a thought in my head. I have a place to live. So do my dogs. It is nice and warm, I have some plants, my bookshelves are full, my sheets are always clean. There is time to read at the end of a day. I read a lot. Thinking is a good thing. I meet up with friends regularly, old and new. They love me. We make memories. I have nothing to be ashamed of. I travel a few times a year, always different places. The places I see steal my breath away. The people I meet teach me of life. They are good. There is no war. The sea calls to me and pay visit. I am independent. I am content.

we are such a sad generation. the dream is a modest and decent life.

I'm Scared.

It hurts not knowing if the words you say with your heart right behind it have meaning to the person they’re intended for.

I wonder what people think of me when I say certain things.

I’m worried that one wrong or wrong sentence will ruin the whole day.

I shoot myself in the foot when I don’t get the same empathy I have over a topic, wondering if I bored them to death with it.

I’m scared of being perceived totally opposite of who I am.

I’m scared that I’m not that meaningful to certain people.

In fact, I’m scared of myself sometimes because of how much I jump and regress on a day to day basis.

I’m just really scared.

i just want a girl who touches me distractedly. like sitting watching a movie and she just kinds of drags her fingers over your skin while watching and she doesn’t have a motive she’s not trying to tickle you or be sexual with you she’s just touching your skin and feeling the shape of your bones under that skin like it’s physically comforting for her to know that you’re there right under her fingertips