So lost

I'm so dejected. How could I be so lost? I'm I'm that dark place again. When I crack a smile. I'm seem to be fine. No one knows what behind that mess. Too many thoughts in my endless mind. But never managed to forget the past. The pain kills me hard. All the flashbacks I get. It's just flashes on my mind there events that cause to effect me badly and has damaged me permanently for life

Maybe I'm way to loyal But got a good heart I give you jewelry But not well too be I see this Maybe You can't be my princess I made you seem so priceless

My addiction 💋

I can't..

Everyday I think of you. I can’t keep going through life like this. I’m broken. Things are so complicated. I feel so alone thinking of you. Made me feel blue. I’d love you. And I’m in love with you. Why do I get bad heartaches. I cry with tears instead. I’m crying because I’m falling for you badly. I feel like my tears are going to blur my vision. Remembering the time when we’d would talk all day. I feel so pleased and happy. But still I’m sitting here so confused. Asking myself.. Asking “what if..” You’re just a fantasy that doesn’t get off my dreams. Never got to see your face in reality. I know your a memory that I will remember when I’m lonely. I wonder if you remember me.. Or I was just a phase to you. I have a breakdown just thinking the things we had.. I can’t.. I never love someone like I did to you. I still love you even tho I’m hurt.. I need you.. My love

The confusion..

September 20,2015 I think.. It came to me clearly. I went to Instagram. I saw that she took everything off in our page we had mad. I had so much confusion inside. Like.. Why she do this??.. Why this?..why what?!!.. A small tear came down.. I login in to the account. I first changed the password. Then thinking .. I deleted the account.. I miss how me and her would talk about our lives. Yet everything we had..

So will you be my date to homecoming? 💕

Our 100 days..

I over think.. You know?.. About us.. And how it gonna be. I'm so confused about everything but.. You seem not talk to me in a while. Today is 100 days💕 September 29,2015 all last week I've talked to friends. About should I or not give your homecoming proposal. Everything was going crazy. I couldn't focus at all. All I could think was her.. But when I try really hard not to remember you.. I can't forget anything about you. You changed me...

Maybe I wanna be hipster..