Internal Sighs

Sinéad O’Connor by Deborah Feingold

Guy Bourdin - Charles Jourdan Ad (1967)

midnight vent:

where are my femme presenting aros, aces, and aroaces at? sometimes i wish i didn’t present myself the way i do bc it seems most (usually cis) men only approach me looking for some kind of romantic and/or sexual relationship. since i struggle with distinguishing between romantic, sexual, and platonic intentions i guess im a little naive at first, thinking that our hangouts are just that - hangouts in which they want to spend time with someone they are interested in as a PERSON, not a potential love or sexual partner. they never state something being a date or hookup but i guess to allos this doesn’t need to be stated?? i guess i should take the initiative and ask what their motives are but the times i have, it ends awkwardly and i feel guilty for presenting myself in a “traditionally feminine” way that is deemed attractive. i feel like im falsely advertising myself which is a FUCKED UP MINDSET TO HAVE I KNOW BUT I CANT HELP IT. i just want to look pretty why cant i be pretty without the guilt :((

i know this isn’t a strictly aro/ace/aroace struggle. many allo femmes have complained about not being able to be friends with men. but i feel like our romantic and sexual orientations further emphasize the frustration of losing platonic bonds due to the “rules of romance and sex” that we don’t quite understand. i also think im on the neurodivergent spectrum so that adds to the confusion. and im also aware that part of the problem is that men are socialized to think they can only be emotionally intimate with romantic partners so its not fully their fault…i still feel like shit tho.

fuck. this was so long and incoherent but i desperately needed to vent, and what better place to do that then the internet lmao.

by janet.comer

“The other day, lying in bed, I felt my heart beating for the first time in a long while. I realized how little I live in my body, how much in my mind”

-Rodger kamenetz, from Terra infirma

All art is a kind of confession, more or less oblique. All artists, if they are to survive, are forced, at least, to tell the whole story; to vomit the anguish up

- James Baldwin

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Audrey Hepburn (Audrey Hepburn: Many-Sided Charmer, LIFE Magazine, December 7, 1953)

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Full Moon, Haitian Rhythm (1931, oil on canvas, 30×24 in.) by African-American artist, William Edouard Scott.

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