— @jarfidd // Questions of a broken mind. 

Words can’t describe the pain I feel inside.

I have a problem, it’s me

I’m the problem

I want my head to shut up.

It’s stuck on repeat, playing over and over, driving me insane.

Pain changes people, it makes them trust less, overthink more, and shut people out

Nobody wants me here.

And it’s okay, because I don’t either.

oh god why am I not dead yet. I’m a disgrace. A fuck up. My family would be better off without me.

Find you someone who:

-Thinks you’re the best.

-Recommends you good music.

-Encourages you to do stuff, even something as simple as talk to them in a language you’re not used to. (Also because you just love the way they sound and it’s worth it)

-Doesn’t want you to be shy or insecure with them, but not in a bossy way but like saying “inspiring things” (even when they think they’re not inspiring you).

-You can make deals with xD like silly treats. Idk if that makes senses but…

-You can share pics/videos of each other (and no pervs, not necessarily nudes) but like I-just-woke up-pics, no-make up-pics, pet pics, look at my clothes pics, you get the point…

-Sings to you, and not because they’re the best singers cause believe me those are great but this silly singing where they know they can’t sing but still sings to you bohemian rhapsody or some awkward random rap chorus for your entertainment.

-Who dreams about you with puppies and kitties… Like they’re adorable!! Imagine sharing a dream with them, idk wth does that dream mean but hey it’s a nice cute af dream.

-Saves you from an anaconda (even if it’s in a dream xD) just jump in and saves you from it.

-Barks for you xD or not necessarily bark, but like an allegory of doing silly things for you. (In my case they barked uwu)

-Be the first person who wishes you happy birthday.

-Sends you drunken vn xD telling you that they miss you even when they’re not thinking straight xd (specially cause they’re not thinking straight (?) xd)

-You can binge watch old or new tv shows.

-Gets your random “let’s talk with a theme” without saying it, you both know what theme the other one is using and you just follow it, like if you’re jedis or living in an apocalyptic zombie and assembling your team xD (just random examples ahem)…

-Puts your name to their pokemon or just some video game character.

-Knows more about you than anyone else, not necessarily everything, but knows more than others.

-Takes care of you even without you knowing it… Specially when you don’t know they care that much!! Because if/when you find out (like someone slips out that they told them not to be a dick with you, because well… whatever xd), it’s fucking touching they didn’t do it because they wanted you to think they’re a good person, but because that’s some honest shit…

-Takes their time telling you they love you, because when they do it means something and even when they don’t express much, they say just as much without words what you mean to them.

So, I guess what I mean is… Find you someone who’s a best friend, a partner in crime… Marry them or just befriend them!! Trust me, they’re gold either way.

I cried over you last night…

I haven’t cried over you since we stopped talking and last night was the first in a long time.. but now I’m more mad than I am hurt…

Harry Styles as your BFF

• he is this kind of a friend that cares about you A LOT

• like literally he is like your mom

• he calls you to wake you up in the morning for school/uni/whenever you go lol

• did you sleep well?

• he surprises you in the morning at your place with yummy breakfast

• eggs benedict :D

• he will buy you pink matching toothbrushes

• you will always listen his really “funny” jokes

• “wanna dirty joke? white horse in mud”

• always tells you how important and precious you are

• you will fight for each other

Sometimes we need someone to simply be there. Not to fix anything or do anything in particular, but just to let us feel we are supported and cared about.

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لم يعُد صديقي منذ أن أصبحتُ أمرُ على محادثتِه بحذر ، منذ أن أصبحتُ أزِن كلماتِي معه وأجعلها أكثر تكلفاً كي يفهم ، لم يعُد صديقي .