Fight Like a Magical Girl

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Formally known as WhitebellSleuth. ✧ adult ✧ creator ✧ writer ✧ ✧ she/her ✧ bi/ace ✧
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I genuinely wish I could turn my feelings off sometimes. Just for a little break, you know? Just an hour of nothing so I can take a break.

The empty spot at the end of my bed still feels so damn heavy, and every time I feel Spike's tail brush against my legs or his collar jingle, I feel so guilty. I keep glancing down in the hope that this has all been a terrible dream and Ed is okay.

I know Spike is hurting too and he's both seeking comfort from me and trying to comfort me because he can tell I'm distressed...

I just wish it would stop hurting. Just for a little bit.

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We lost Ed this morning around 4am... HCM just. Sucks so much.

He came into my room crying out, seized up, and then he was just... gone.

I can still barely process it now later today and I just. It's been kind of a craptastic day.

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you know what really grinds my gears?

okay, bear with me: so as you may know, harry houdini and arthur conan doyle were friends, at least for a while.

by the early 1920s, both arthur conan doyle and acd's wife jean, aka lady doyle, believed whole-heartedly in spiritualism, talking to ghosts and all of that. (sidenote: this was of course right on the heels of a devastating world war and a devastating pandemic, both of which had created a huge population of grieving people, so spiritualism was having a moment.)

lady doyle sincerely thought she had the ability to go into a trance state and pass along messages in writing from the dead. she offered to do this for houdini. houdini agreed.

lady doyle attempted to channel houdini's late mother. she basically drew a cross at the top of the paper and filled it with generic platitudes addressed to "harry." houdini's mom was jewish and didn't talk like that, so houdini knew the jig was up, even if lady doyle didn't. but not wanting to make the situation awkward, he kind of went along with it to their faces.

then acd decided to publish a glowing account of the seance, and since both he and houdini were super famous, it got a lot of attention, and letters started pouring in for houdini, asking if this was true. ultimately, houdini couldn't life about it. so he essentially said, like, "yeah, i think lady doyle THINKS she can talk to ghosts but she absolutely can't." and it ruined his friendship with acd forever.

and then of course a lot of the people running seances weren't even well-intentioned like lady doyle, they were just simple charlatans taking advantage of traumatized people mourning loved ones. in houdini's youth, he and his wife had traveled the carnival circuit where he did an act pretending to commune with spirits, so he knew all the tricks of the trade AND he had lingering guilt over having done this, AND he was infuriated by this increasingly popular wave of con artists so he decided to assemble a team of anti-grifting grifters and together they went on the road exposing whichever spiritualists were preying on the locals.

houdini's best agent was a young woman named rose mackenberg, who donned disguises to visit the fraud de jour and then importantly sussed out what non-supernatural thing was actually happening, and then houdini would demonstrate the techniques onstage to packed audiences.

(if you want to know more, check out episode 175, "ghost racket crusade" of the podcast Criminal or read Tony Wolf's book The Real-Life Ghostbusting Adventures of Rose Mackenberg.)

but yeah, what really gets my goat is that all this happened and as far as i know, we still don't have like four seasons of a Leverage-style historical procedural about rose mackenberg and the rest of the crew having adventures in the 1920s as they unmask craven hucksters all over the united states. (what we do have, apparently, is one season of a show called "houdini and doyle" which is about the oddball friendship of two contrasting men solving sometimes-actually-supernatural mysteries, and whose premise does i think at the very least a real disservice to houdini's whole quest and also totally erases rose, who is arguably the most interesting part of this story to me.)

i am just steamed about this. steamed.

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So... life sucks right now.

Not only is my disability application still pending (November will be month 10 since I applied. Isn't waiting for the government to process things FUN?) But life is just... hard. And complicated.

My dad is currently going through ECT treatment because he's very resistant to medication for his depression. If you don't know what that is... honestly, I just snatched this summary from Google because I don't have the mental spoons to break it down right now:

Electroconvulsive therapy (ECT for short) is a treatment that involves sending an electric current through your brain. This causes a brief surge of electrical activity within your brain (also known as a seizure). The aim is to relieve severe symptoms of some mental health problems.

It's honestly not an uncommon treatment, and apparently a very successful and common one for patients who, like my dad, are resistant to medication.

The issue is, one of the side effects for this are memory loss. So right now, dad can't work. And his memory is just... awful right now. He's forgetting a lot of things from the past few months (let alone past few days or weeks) and it's just... a mess. Mom and I are doing the best we can to keep it together and keep things going... Taking him to his appointments (that are god-awful early in the morning) making sure someone is always home with him...

But it's hard. It's hard when he took on so many responsibilities like submitting payments for bills and such on his own and always assured us he had it when we offered to help.

To be clear, my dad is not at all a bad or controlling person. He just took pride in being able to take care of his family. It was one of the things he felt like he could control against his depression. Taking care of us was sort of his... anti-depression isn't the right word. But it's what kept him going. That's how he'd always explain it. We'd always just do whatever we could to support him and try to everything else easier for him. (Though in retrospect, I guess that's just how families are supposed to work. Taking care of each other as best you can.)

But right now it's so hard... He's not himself at all... and all of these symptoms can take up to 6 months to fully heal, and that's after treatment finishes (which has about... 2 weeks left, I think? It depends, really. There's a range and everyone is different.)

He's my dad and I love him a lot... but it's hard. It's hard to see him get confused or forget very basic things like the voice command for the lights he was so pleased with when he set up. Or watching a TV show one day and then immediately watching it again the day after because he doesn't remember watching it. Or that a bill set up for automatic payments will got through and he'll see it show up on the bank accounts he unconsciously remembers to check, but doesn't know what it's for, and then we scramble to not only make sure something wild didn't happen, but assure him everything is okay.

And, reading back over this post, it seems like such a small problem from an outside perspective. I'm barely touching the tip of the iceberg, but I know there's people out here that are dealing with similar circumstances ten-fold and probably handling it with way more grace than I am.

I just don't know what to do anymore. I try to help as best I can, but my dad has always been a bit of a stubborn man. Not cruelly stubborn, but stubborn about being the strong, independent one. And he can't do that right now... but he's still trying to.

I can only try to pick up whatever pieces I can with my mom and make things work as best we can.

But it's still a mess and complicated and I feel like I'm just a horrible daughter for venting like this.

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Shhh, Freminet doesn't exist yet. I've not even drawn that one. Don't @ me he'll be there soon enough.

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we are in a media literacy crisis

friendly reminder that characters don't need to be saints to be entertaining. and telling a story does not mean endorsement. art does not need to be all about morally good people.

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IDK if this was meant as hyperbole but it's literally true:

We are genuinely in a crisis of media literacy, with ever fewer genuinely factual resources available in the style and language used by contemporary audiences.

It may sound condescending, but we genuinely need to remind people, or worse, explain to them for the first time that art is not evidence of real world behaviour.

So, thank you, for this reminder. Genuinely.

You're correct:

Art does not need to feature exclusively morally pure characters. Art is not proof of the creator's secret, violent desires.

ETA; Yes, the links are US American; no your country is not immune to propaganda. Be POLITE in asking, and I will help you find the data for your own country as well.

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why does tumblr's layout look like twitter. What is happening. Does it just look strange to me because my laptop screen is smaller??? what is happening

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Sale time on my Etsy store!! I have a big sale going on my Etsy! :) If you buy 2 or more items, you get 20% off your entire order!

Shipping is free, and all orders come with free tracking as well!

Fortune's Market is my Etsy and I have all sorts of fandoms and fun little items for decorating everything from your car to a t-shirt or bag!

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Please consider supporting my small business, as it's my main source of income right now due to health/disability reasons. If you can't, that's absolutely okay, but I would appreciate any reblogs or even just shooting my shop to a friend.

Thank you very much and have a wonderful day!

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I genuinely wish people understood how not at all exciting it is to have AI able to mimic a human voice or draw art or write a story. People don't seem to understand how easy it would be for a company to use the AI over paying a person because AI is free. WHY pay a real person, let alone keep paying real people, because you can get it for free!

It won't MATTER if you buy an AI-voiced game and turn off the sound. You still paid for the game. You still gave the source money. You still increased their numbers.

People are laughing about how "lol, it's not that serious, bro"

But it is. Look at how quickly it's advanced in just a few years. You laugh now and say it's no big deal, but you wouldn't be laughing if it was your job in danger. Or maybe you would. Who knows. But I guess as long as it's not your paycheck on the line and your uwu husbando/waifus/blorbos can whisper sweet generated nothing's in your ear, it doesn't matter to YOU. You only "gain" from it.

And it's one of the things I truly loathe about fandom. People either don't think about it deeper than what they can gain on the surface level, or they genuinely just don't care because it doesn't hurt them personally in any way.

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Currently 46% funded with just over two days left!

Hello everyone! I am here once again with one final, and hopefully very successful, push for my Pride Garden kickstarter!

June may have come and gone, but pride will always stand strong! Show off your own pride (or even just your support) with these sweet little pins.

My initial goal is to have the flags nearest and dearest to my heart, and with them, matching stickers to go with the pins! Everyone who orders a pin will get a matching sticker to go with it (assuming we get funded! No one will be charged if we don’t get funded, so there’s perks in this pre-order!)

The stickers will be made from a great vinyl material that is UV proof, weatherproof, and waterproof, so they can be used indoors and outdoors. (So great for everything from your water bottle to your car!)

As we raise more and more funds, more flags (and their stickers) will be added to the list of possible designs! You don’t have to decide now either. If this kickstarter is successful, I’ll send out surveys to everyone to get your shipping details and find out which flag(s) you want from all the goals we’ve unlocked.

Someday, in the future, I even hope to add the flags which aren’t just stripes (those pin template charges, amiright?) but this is my very first step toward creating some awesome pins I’m proud (haha) of and sharing my fandom fun with everyone! :)

less than a day left...!!

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Currently 46% funded with just over two days left!

Hello everyone! I am here once again with one final, and hopefully very successful, push for my Pride Garden kickstarter!

June may have come and gone, but pride will always stand strong! Show off your own pride (or even just your support) with these sweet little pins.

My initial goal is to have the flags nearest and dearest to my heart, and with them, matching stickers to go with the pins! Everyone who orders a pin will get a matching sticker to go with it (assuming we get funded! No one will be charged if we don’t get funded, so there’s perks in this pre-order!)

The stickers will be made from a great vinyl material that is UV proof, weatherproof, and waterproof, so they can be used indoors and outdoors. (So great for everything from your water bottle to your car!)

As we raise more and more funds, more flags (and their stickers) will be added to the list of possible designs! You don’t have to decide now either. If this kickstarter is successful, I’ll send out surveys to everyone to get your shipping details and find out which flag(s) you want from all the goals we’ve unlocked.

Someday, in the future, I even hope to add the flags which aren’t just stripes (those pin template charges, amiright?) but this is my very first step toward creating some awesome pins I’m proud (haha) of and sharing my fandom fun with everyone! :)