every day i am percieved™️

There is a reason for this though!

The original tweet summarizes it pretty well. Fanfic tends to be popular among certain types of neurodivergent people (aka people most likely to read excessively as a child, and have burnout as an adult) for the same reasons that we tend to hyperfixate–neurochemical signaling (I hope I’m using that phrase correctly). What I mean is, for people who are really dependent on changes in dopamine/serotonin/neurotransmitter levels, who have low levels or wonky neural reward systems (perhaps the most common types of neurodivergence)…people like us rely on dependable external sources of those neurochemicals. In order to function, we spend a lot of our free time trying to level out our brain chemistry using things that can reliably bring us a steady stream of joyful moments (rewards) without costing too much of the mental effort that is already in short supply. 

significantly: the investment of reading has to be balanced with a steady “return on investment”–and this return has to start fairly quickly. because again, we don’t have a lot of attention/energy to invest on tiring things. we have perpetual “low batteries” in that regard.

that doesn’t mean these stories are “simple,” or that they lack complexity or value–only that the reward has to come in short regular intervals, and it has to have a low “upfront cost.” these stories are only “easy” to read in the sense that the effort we put into them is rewarded in a timely manner. which is why fanfic stories are so perfectly formulated for neurodivergent readers–they are often beautifully written, but skip a lot of the upfront costs (of introducing new characters, of world-building, of getting the audience emotionally connected to the story elements).

the nature of fanfiction is that the reader has a pre-existing relationship with this world and these characters. that–combined with the shorter average length of fics–means that fan fics very quickly start rewarding the reader in a way that traditional fiction struggles to. that’s not a bad thing! and maybe it’s something more traditionally published writers should be paying attention to.

Fanfic, as a genre, has been uniquely helpful and accessible to many neurodivergent readers who would otherwise struggle to immerse themselves in stories. I’m glad so many of you have found a way to love and enjoy reading again! The important thing is that you are spending time inside stories you love–the way those stories are published or presented to the world is just one detail. The fact that you find joy in the process of reading (or listening!) to stories–that is what matters.

I feel understood 🥰

a bunch of people have reblogged this with the default “i feel called out” reaction….and i know when we say that we mean it tongue-in-cheek….but this comment sorta blew my mind & shifted my perspective up and to the left a little thank you♥

— Unknown

Mitch Marner: Self care is drinking 4 Monsters and having a therapy session with God on your bathroom floor at 4:27 am.

Auston Matthews: Why are you like this?

Mitch Marner: Caffeine, baby!

Mitch Marner: Hmm.

Auston Matthews: Hmm?

Mitch Marner: Hmm. Hm.

Auston Matthew: Hmm.

Mitch Marner and Auston Matthews: *nodding at each other*

Joe Thornton: Did they... understand each other?

John Tavares: They share the same braincell. Of course they understood each other.

young me deserved so much more

The fact that Twitter allows porn but not public death threats and tumblr allows public death threats but not porn is objectively funny and the fact that a large portion of us chose the latter over the former is objectively funnier

Hungry to bed. Hungry to rise. Makes a girl a smaller size.

Hungry to bed. Hungry to rise. Makes a girl a smaller size.

Hungry to bed. Hungry to rise. Makes a girl a smaller size.

Hungry to bed. Hungry to rise. Makes a girl a smaller size.

My weight might not be dropping but my will to live is

getting into the shower: evil evil evil

being in the shower: there is no past and there is no future, there is just the here and now, i am alone but i am not lonely, i am calm and one with the universe, existence is sublime

getting out of the shower: evil evil evil (wet version)

They don’t tell you when you major in biology that you’re gonna be annoyed at all the inaccuracies in every sci-fi show involving genetics and evolution for the rest of your life

ur gonna be mad abt Hollywood inaccuracies if you study anything ngl

all debates abt the artistic merits of fanfiction fail to recognize the purpose of fic. you don’t write fic to be published or to learn how to construct a narrative although you can use it to develop style. you write it so that your friends will message you “bestie you’re utterly deranged for this one im eating dirt” 

something that motivates me is thinking about how i won’t be seen as the ugly fat friend anymore. how i won’t look repulsive next to my cousin who’s so much younger than me but somehow seems to get guys numbers when we go to the park together. i want guys to look at me and think i’m pretty too. i’m sick of glancing at myself in store windows when i go out and seeing my side profile. i want a jawline. i want a slim waist. i’ll achieve it soon if i just push through and stay on track with eating less garbage.

soup 143, gyoza 136

So.. this was again, a LOT of food. It again may not look like *that* much but the soup was half a litre so yea, it was a lot hahah and it was soooooo good!

What i used for the soup:

500ml water 0

1 broth cube 30

53g shirataki noodles 3

50g carrot 20

28g green onion 6

15g onion 6

3g garlic 3

61g potato 35

15g red bell pepper 5

chili flakes 0

salt 0 

white pepper 0

the first step in healing is realizing that you can use your stickers. you don't need to "save" them for the perfect spot. set them free from their vinyl sheet and let them fulfill their purpose. whore.